I'm half sleep but reaing this **** pissed me off ot the point where I am going to type out this story, so that hopefully, hopefully, I save you through the misery that I put myself through
The girl that brought me here, I met her through a friend when i was 17 years old. actually her best friend,I was dating her. to make a long story short, becuase none of this really matters, we broke up, the girl that brought me here pretty much toyed me along, we saw each ohter behind her frinds back for about a year, I confessed my undying love for her, she told me she wasn't ready, only to find a BF that wasn't me.
I came here at that point in april of 2002. Still, none of this matters yet but I had to lay the back story.
In april, after combing through this site, my blood started to boil after I realized, for the first time, just how i was played. By this point in my life, I had no real job, I burned video games and sold them for a living (didn't do half bad actaully), i picked her up from school everyday and took her home, i called her everyday, i wanted this girl so fvcking bad.
I had a moment of clariity and realized that if we aren't fvcking, why exactly am I spending time with her? I told her look if we aren't going to fvck dot' bother calling me, hung up the phone, and there she goes o ut mjy life. That was april 2002.
3 months later I met my future business partner, 5 months later we incorporeated our business. I go through life, I actualy saw her one day ramdolly but she did not see me. I had pretty much moved on. I was still bitter, hell i was 19 lol, but I had acccpted the fact in my mind I wasn't going to screw her, and at the time I was cool with that. I was focused on my business.
Now, this is what applies to you. Around feburary of 2004, is when we really started to break through, to the point where we were growing. we were a custom computer company and at this time we were selling 5-6 pc's a day. enough for 2 poeple to very comfortably live off of. 5-6 quickly became 25-30. By april we had outgrown 2 merchants and was in the process of securing a 5,000 square foot office. In feburary we were literarly working in our living room lol.
To this day, I still don't know if this was pure concidence or not..l I don't think it was.. guess who I get a letter inn the mail from in april of 2004. you guessed it. pretty much verbatium what your letter stated.
"hey Backbreaker, I haven't heard from you in a while and I wanted to see how you are doing, maybe we can hang out, here is my phone number"
hell you search my history you will see me post about it here and see me thinking the exact same way you are thinking now.
Even at that time.. okay i'm lying lol i wanted her back n ow. I was new and improved. I had some money in my pocket. I still was a little overweight because of all the ****ty foods i had eaten the lasdt 2 years, but it wasn't that bad. I had just bought a lexus like the week before the letter got there. I was about to get my first apartment by myself.. I figured if I could turn the tables, now was the best time.
So I contact her, she's still dating the same guy she was then but you knew or at least, she let it be known, that she was available under the right circumstances. she was branch swinging. she comes over my house, spends the night. she calls me everyday, she throws these freaking hints like you wouldn't believe. hell just search my history and and grab a bag of popcorn lol.
We basically did everything but have sex. I was her surrogate BF. I bought her ****, i spent my time with her. we talked on the phone. hell I knew her mom and dad.
she was so bad, not only did she not want to date me, she didn't want me to date anyone else. I was stuck in relationship purgatory. anytime I had a girl on the hook she would crank up the late night calls and ****. one time when I really started liking this chick she came over my house late at night and we went for a "romantic" walk at the river. needless to say the other girl got dropped like a bad habit. i would tell her i had a date and she would say she wanted to see me, only to not want a god damn thing after i had cancelled my date. she was cold fvcking blooded.
Then I one day I called her on the **** and she would tell me "oh i don't like you like that". I'm like ***** why didn't you tell me this while I was paying your college tuition lol. So w.e had this relationshipo
The devine comedy of it all is eventually, once I got my DJ **** in real order, she was throwing herself at me and I saw she was no different than any other woman i ever been with, and i actually turned her down. 6 fvcking years, i will never get back. I put myself on lock down to wait for her an sh ewasn't anywhere near close to worth it.
If you don't listen to anything anyone has stated, listen to this.. this woman doesn't like you. this woman sees you as an asset to her life, you benefit her and you are worth keeping around, but she doesn't really want to be with you. Even if she did want to be with you, this isn't a high quality woman.
she knows you want to fvck her so she knows that to keep you around there has to be some sexual based innuendo, but she has 0% intentions on stay in a committed relationship with you.
every time you try to leave she will ramp it up. this is what these type of girls do. she will bring you in then push you back.
you need to let go. seriously. do not make the mistakes I made when I was younger. the **** sucked. here I am, running a business that was making 300k a month, young, single, good looking, nice car, nice crib, sitting at home on a friday hoping this ***** would call me. i had girls beating down the door to get in mjy house and i was turning them down waiting for her.
cut this woman out of your life, immediately. do not do so because it will build you up in her mind, or because it will make her want to commit. cut her out because she is a prototypical user. she is the worst type of woman. she sucks the life out of everyone she touches and moves on. she is the type of woman that is a master of making men obsessed with her. do not deal with her on a romantic or even a friend level. cut bait and run, now.
I know you are not looking for attention because i know just what type of mind fvck this type of woman can play on you because I have been there obviously. but you have to listen to me and everyone else when they say
RUN. go out and MAKE yourself talk to other women. make a plan to keep yourself busy. whatever you need to do, this woman cannot be an option for antyhing. this woman will take you down. i promise you.
and some day when you 'get better' at dealing with women (some refer to it as the matrix), you may get a message like this from a future flame, come home.. read it and laugh your a$$ off.
lol about a year and a half ago I got another email from her.. we still talk to this day though not often.. we keep tabs on each ohter but it's 100% platonic. I don't hate her. I just know how to deal with her now and know the boundaries. Anyway, she emails me.. she' married now as well... and she is telling me how she's thinking of leaving her husband because he isn't what she thought he was.. lol my response
"what the fvck are you telling me for? I really don't care, that's your business babe"
shot that **** down before it even got up, didn't think twice about it. if only I had that wisdom when I was 21. of course she's still (unhappily) married.
Yeah, I see it.. When I was actually with her Tuesday night and asked to spend NYE with her, she said no, but after breaking up and no contact she now wishes that I would have been with her. Doesn't make any logical sense.
It makes perfect sense you are just too whipped to see it.
She in one swoop, gets to get what she wants (the guy) while giving you waht you want (the satsifiection of "knowing" that you are the one she "really wants to be with.
IF she really felt that way she would have locked you up.
I remember that same girl, would tell me all week about how she hated her BF and was going to break up with him and how he was suck a jerk and how she wishes he was like me, blha blha blah, and come friday he would pick her up and i would have this **** eating grin on my face because i "knew what was going on" and she would come home and tell me how she hated going with him and what not and how he wasn't any fun and I would eat that **** up. all the while, what's really going on, is she is going over there, getting plowed, and coming home and "taking care of my needs" my needs being emotional.
It took me a while to realize that if she really felt that way why the F does she keep hanging out with him lol.
THIS.WOMAN.DOES.NOT.LIKE.YOU.
