Back on the prowl after 14 month monogamy. Seeking the missing keys

[SargeMaximus]

How did you handle the usb deal?

I didn’t. I’m not into strong arming people to be a decent human being. I’m nexting her because she showed she is not

 

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One benefit of ghosting girls but also a drawback is that sometimes they reach out but you have no idea who it is. Pic below

 

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Back to doing my normal style of game and things are magically working again. It's so hilarious.

Anyhow, I'm writing this to talk about a weird phenomenon I've encountered and it came from watching some Jordan Peterson youtube videos. Disclaimer: I don't agree with much of what JP says and it's all based in reality. Field testing things he talks about. That's what this is about.

So today I watched the first 2 parts of his lectures on the Pinocchio movie, and the main point I was mulling over was the idea of being truthful and aligned with the truth, which I always try to be. The problem comes when things get muddled by the morality of the masses or other individuals who may not like (emotionally) what you are doing.

The issue is this: I am working 2 jobs right now, getting sales leads for 2 different companies doing the same type of work in the same type of industry. They are competitors yet I can rationalize it in my head like so: each company wants me to focus on a different area of the city. One the north, the other the south. Since I'm not encroaching on the other company's territory, I believe that there is no conflict of interest.

I'm sure if they found out they would not appreciate it. I won't lie if asked, but I also won't volunteer the information. If either company could keep up with my lead generation, I would stick with them. The fact is: they can't, and more than once I've been asked to slow down, which affects my bottom line.

I do not want to be limited by someone else's limitations, so I got the second job doing what I'm best at.

All was well and good till I started watching JP and he's talking about being honest and being aligned with honest and good intentions and etc and I began to feel guilty and underhanded, yet when you look at it: MANY people have more than one job. The only reason I feel guilty about it is because there is programming telling me that if I use my abilities and know-how to "get a leg up on the game", it's cheating. Which JP also talked about.

So that affected my performance at the door today and I thought how vile and undermining this message JP is giving in this regard. One of the reasons I don't agree with him.

IMO, if no one is being harmed, one should be able to do whatever they want within their abilities. The alternative is to play the game according to the limitations which of course will set someone like me up for failure because I'm independent.

It seems to me this is hypocritical because on the one hand you say I should play your game even though I'll lose, but I can't make my own game where I will win. Very unsettling and unfortunately alienates people like me from society when it's put in such "right vs. wrong" contrasts as JP uses.

Another thing he advises is to stand up straight with your shoulders back. Now, I have a naturally good posture, but I remember years ago when I first read that in his book, I went around during sales with my shoulders back and trying to maintain that perfect posture. Well it was comical, but also unsettling, that I noticed pretty much any male I encountered was either angry or would try to outdo me with his own posturing. Very interesting. Hardly helping with sales, and it also diminished my effectiveness by creating unnecessary conflict.

So yeah, that's just a mini-rant about JP. I like listening to his ideas because it helps me sharpen my own based off my experiences. But some of the thought lines and conclusions are truly corrosive.

 

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Today matched with a girl on bumble at 3am

She messages me right away “helloooo there” with a heart emoji.
She’s 18.

Anyhow I call her trouble and she’s like why? So I’m like you’re young it goes with the territory.

Anyhow long story short I tried to meet up with her right away but she just kept putting up resistance:

Where? Why? What will we do?

I finally blocked her. The way I figure it: if she was interested she would have been more compliant, as it is she was prolly bored at 3 am

OR (and I suspect this too) she was interested but I didn’t say the right things. Which is annoying because I dont know what to say and even if I say the right things it never works anyways.

I’m just going to keep trying and showing you guys how nothing works even if it’s the supposed right way

 

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My fwb who broke my USB came back and she says she will replace the USB. So I un-nexted her.

Nexting is like a time out, not a guillotine

 

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Feeling great today. Had sex with my fwb (the one who broke my USB). She bought me a new USB. Made me breakfast this morning. I gave her a back rub. Feeling years younger. I wonder if it’s the vax. Anyhow, feeling good today and wanted to share

 

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Check out Alan Rodger Currie Mode One.

His style is right up your alley.

Where do you think I got the idea?

 

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Good man. Mode one is the only way. You can never look back. These dudes doing their 1950's wining and dining "dating"

Totally agree. Good to see someone else is Mode one.

 

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And sometimes it’s this simple pic below

 

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So that 7.5/10 girl who I tried to have sex with on 4 separate days (but had ED each time) texted me at 12am this morning. I woke up at 4am and texted her back. Well she was still up and long story short I went over to her place for a 5th (yes, this is the FIFTH time I've tried to have sex with her) time and STILL had ED.

I was able to get hard at one point, put on a condom, and got the tip in before losing the erection again so technically I had sex with her but still not ideal obviously.

We then proceeded as always to grind and grind and grind as she tried to coax an erection out of me and it almost worked as I got about 80% hard for a good amlount of time but she is sooo tight I couldn't get it in and plus I didn't have a condom on when I tried the second time and she wasn't objecting so I think she just wants my d!ck.

Anyhow, this girl is blowing my mind how she keeps coming back despite my noodle d!ck. Pics below of convo.

 

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I wonder if by you not being able to get hard, she isn't getting validated by you. Causing her to chase it every now and then. All the other dudes she's been seeing are validating her by being able to become erect. I bet you just wanted to rip it off when it happened again. For me when that happened, it was more frustrating each subsequent time. You should get some viagra for when she hits you up again.

Doctor says no viagra so no viagra.

But yes I agree with you. And I’m so chill about it that she prolly thinks wtf is this guy not ashamed of himself??! Hamster wheel spinning over 9000

But yeah I wanted to cvm inside her so bad at that one point, I think she would have let me too she was bucking wildly

 

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Doctor says no viagra so no viagra.

But yes I agree with you. And I’m so chill about it that she prolly thinks wtf is this guy not ashamed of himself??! Hamster wheel spinning over 9000

But yeah I wanted to cvm inside her so bad at that one point, I think she would have let me too she walk bucking wildly

can you not buy it online or do you mean you have some health issue which means you can;t have it? interesting story btw, you'd think she'd be put off by now, what with it happening several times.

 

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can you not buy it online or do you mean you have some health issue which means you can;t have it? interesting story btw, you'd think she'd be put off by now, what with it happening several times.

Yes I have had priapism in the past. I guess doctor is worried it’ll happen again. I am too. You can’t fvck around with that. You can do irreparable damage.

And yeah, she must really be into me. I think it’s got a lot to do with her ego tbh. Like how can a guy not get hard with her? She’s super fit. A meh face but body is lean af.

Also, she talked about her brother getting married several times since I’ve met her so she’s prolly wanting to settle down but can’t get a guy to stay normally is my guess.

No word of a lie: the first time we attempted to have sex, after about 3 hours of her grinding her naked pvssy against me and me saying I didn’t think it would happen if it hadn’t already, she asked me if I wanted to be in a relationship with her. So yeah, very interesting

 

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That's right... I forgot that you mentioned this in the past. I wonder if those djck injection types would be safer for you.

Wouldn’t that be more powerful and thus worse?

 

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Latest convo with a new potential fwb. She’s trying to get me to qualify I believe but I’m not into that. Notice how she goes 180 on what she said. Pic below

 

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Maybe she was trying to see if you were open to eating her pusssy. She could have been fishing for a response like "oh there will be fingers and tongue involved also".

Interesting perspective. I see it as her trying to get me on the qualifying end. If I had said what you said, I would be qualifying. That’s a major beta move

 

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New fwb potentials. Now that summer is over the adventurous girls are back in town it seems. Pic below

 

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Had a first date with a potential fwb today. We went for tea, both paid separately. Then we took a walk and chatted about what we’re looking for. Seems we both on the same page. Also, apparently she found me on “hot or not” so that was an ego booster

Then I drove her to her car and we made out a bit. Text convo below. Hopefully she doesn’t get ASD

 

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It's good that you just went along with her saying, "Can't wait to feel those kisses further south". I would have thought you would have interpreted that as her trying to take the lead, and then reject her for it. She doesn't need to know that you aren't into pusssy eating until your djck is already in her.

Exactly what I was thinking. Great minds think alike

 

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So that girl who claimed her niece had a medical emergency and then ghosted just texted me. Pic below.

I’m going to tell her I’m glad she reached out and to definitely hit me up when things are working for her.