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Except I used to go to aa, and I'm neither of those.
I rarely talked. I mostly listened. Never used any of those people for money, sex or pitty.
So there big guy. Explain to me then how that is possible, since you have never had problems with substance abuse but still seem to think you have a better understanding than some one who has.
You don't fvcking know me man. I dont know if this post was directed at me, but if you were to say somthing like that to my face and direct it at me... Let me put it to you this why, you don't where I've been or what ive been through.
I would beat the fvck out of you, smash your head in your bmw's wind shield and curb stop you.
If that post was directed at me I certainly hope that your children get addicted to drugs and grow up motherless.
My fault gents. Yesterday was my first day with no alcohol, after a 6 day binge (I think 6 days). Cold turkey is the worst. Feel like your dying.
I ended up meeting this 36 year old woman on craigslist, who picked me up off the streets, let me live at her apartment, bought me alcohol and cigs, in return I let her svck my cach and eat my goo.
Well she started getting sh!tty because she wants to cuddle, kiss, sleep in the same bed ect. :nono: wasn't the agreement and I wasn't having all that, so she dropped me off where she found me.
So I was not doing to good coming off of a 6 day drinking binge, morning till night, or pretty much when I was awake I drank, eat, pass out and get my d!vk svcked.
I never lied to her though, she knows my situation.
So good news. Pretty much all my bridges were burnt finally about a month and a half ago.
I contacted a pastor of a church that me and my family used to attend. He is a good man so he listened to everything I had to say, I explained it all.
Then he had his step son who works for a treatment center that he want to (used to have problems also, 15 months clean now) and talked to me, I explained everything.
Really I was looking for a place to stay near my ride to my $17 per hour cash roofing job, but instead he offered me treatment.
He talked to the board of elders and they approved to pay for a plane ticket to florida, and $8,000 for the first three months of treatment. If I am successful and I will be, they will pay for the next three.
Its very, very, very hard to get into a decent treatment place if you are poor in this country, even if you have insurance, even good insurance.
So any ways, Ill be gone for a while.
Want to know something fvcked up? This lady I was staying with once said to me, in her manipulation to fullfill some delusional fantasy "I work at a hospital, I can get you morphine"
I was like wow. What a sick person.
I used to be physically dependent on opiates also (pills not dope, no needles). I know how good that sh!t feels.
But fvck that. Im never going to have a good life, or get the kind of pvssy I want if I take that quick route to get high.
Leaving soon.
I'm 26 years old for christs sake. I'm very tired of living this way. Sh!t im going to be 30 in 4 years. I need to do something with my life that will benefit me long term.
So see you in about three months.