Alek's becoming social (DJBC)

[AlekNovi]

Week1 Day 1

Ok, today I have these uber-stupid and complex exams to start studying for, and even though ideally i'd like to start with these missions first thing in the morning. My studying takes priority, coz if I don't pass these 3 exams in 10 days, i'm a GONER, nobody's gonna pay for another university year for me. Lol. So i'll be posting what i'd done outside a bit later.

About the mission: I found it very interesting, and alot harder than I imagined. Because a while back i was in a very "sargaholic" mode... and was approaching and closing girls in many different times and places... I thought this thing would be uber-easy... well it's not.

For some reason *just* greeting someone on the street you don't know is harder than approaching them in order to close them. Here in the balkans... eye-contact is just simply impossible to get. So i'll probably be doing atleast 99% of my HI's WITHOUT eye-contact, which is scarier, but also more rewarding to your confidence. Gotta go study now. Results later

 

[AlekNovi]

Week 1 Day 1 Report

Did good. I decided to only do HBs, so I did 3 of them. But since the outting was getting too long, and no HBs in sight (from the ones I can/want to do), I did three gentlemen.

Ofcourse, all the men react by flashing a huge smile and saying "Hey, good day to you too", and the HBs react like you're invisible. It's nice

It's VERY VERY good as a training tool. The point of the HIs is to get you used to:

1) not caring what people think
2) interrupting women
3) not taking it personally when they don't respond, coz they very rarely do to an honest friendly greeting (unless it's a social setting or indoors).

It also works very effectively in that. Greeting unknown people is more intense than you can imagine. I like it For some reason it feels harder than giving a compliment or introducing yourself or whatever.

It also for some reason gets you into a very positive and upbeat mode. You feel social and talkative like hell. And the smile comes on naturally. I still have mickey rourke smile all over my face lol.

 

[AlekNovi]

Things i'm having some difficulty with

SITUATIONS

- Approaching seated sets (it's irrational, it makes no sense, it should be actually EASIER than walking sets, but i've never approached seated sets in my life lol)

- Approaching anyone, if the one I approached previously is still nearby (takes up too much mental energy to care if no one nearby is a girl you've approached, so this has to go)

- A girl with a guy... (yeah I know lol... why would you want to in the first place... because I want to get into mixed groups)

- Cool guys (for juggler method... no really... I swear lol)

PLACES

- The mall/centre... in my town is UBER-crowded... just imagine a whole mall that's as crowded as a nightclub and everyone is either a HB10 or a cool guy. The societal pressure is thru the roof. Just walking thru that place makes me dizzy. I want to get comfortable approaching there.

- Cafes/Stores... this is kinda related with my challenge of seated sets.

- College campus... this kinda depends... i've met a few (very nice ) girls here, but only if the conditions are right (not too many people). I want complete relaxation.

DEEPER ISSUES

- Caring what people think (generally my confidence has been very dependant on how many people are near. All of my sarges had been done either in a club or when there is atleast shouting distance between people. I want to remove this **** of caring what people think in general. It's been my major challenge

Fortunately i've long ago removed issues such as:

- caring what SHE thinks
- afraid of rejection
- not knowing what to say do

Which is very good, and I coould pull-off a better than average life with that kind of confidence. But i won't settle for less than EXCELLENT

 

[AlekNovi]

Week1, Day 2 Damn, college is killing me, its almost lunch time and I still haven't finished studying the (self)alloted material. It's very psychologically stresfull to be taking on these two major projects at the same time (along with a third i won't mention yet hehe), but i'll pull thru. At school basically my entire future hangs on a tread and requires EXTENSIVE and stresfull studying each day for the next 3 weeks. So with that in mind, I won't have as much time to invest in the bootcamp today, as I have my yoga lessons, and my jazz balet practice today.

Here's what's in the plan for today:

- 2, 3 hi's in college (and/or around campus) and 5-6 hi's in other places
(the intent is to ofcourse be shooting for only HBs, but even if they aren't it's ok today)

- (optional) performing the ambitious card routine (magic performance) for a seated set

- (optional) an opinion opener on something i really want to know

The Why

The college hi's relate to specifically my intent in becoming more relaxed in that specific enviroment.


---------crutches---------
The ambitious card routine is a good crutch for me to approach my first seated set. Which as i've said i have problems with. So this is a way of easing into those.

Opinion openers relate specifically to the fact that i've never done any indirect in my entire life, and I think it will be good for broadening my perspective.
---------crutches---------

As my goal here is developing social skills and ease in certain places/situations which are currently not yet optimal in terms of relaxation, i think they're pretty good tools. But today i am not very likely to perform them, due to the nature of this day. Hence "optional".

Leverage (prize system)

- 3 Hi's with a smile = macrobiotic fast-food or mcdonald's
- 7 hi's = some cheap pizza
- 7 hi's with one DP-style answer (she smiles back and gives a friendly greeting back) + 2 directions asking
- 7 hi's with one DP-style answer (she smiles back and gives a friendly greeting back) + (2+5) directions asking = my favorite luxury restaurant
- Doing just one of the optionals regardless of other accomplishments= my favorite luxury restauraunt

 

[AlekNovi]

Week 1, Day 2 Report - AWESOME

I just feel awesome and fullfiled. This is one of the best choices i've ever done I think. Here's how it goes... you go out, you feel like no I can't... no it's stupid blah blah... but you keep pushing and you keep pushing and you KEEP pushing and pushing, until at one point you get one... then you push and push and push, and get a second one in... Then the third one comes along... Then something just CLICKS inside your head and it goes "WTF!!! Do I care what some ****ing zombies think. To 99% of these people, the best thing that's going to happen in their life is their favorite sports team is gonna win something or they gonna guess the ending of some soap opera.

That's what I like to call the BREAKING-point. Where you just don't give a **** no more. So at this point things just fall by the side, and you can do whatever you want.

Now, the problem seems to be... that it RESETS every day... over and over again. You wake up the next day, and start from zero... you have to reach the breaking point again. Atleast it did in the past 3-4 times i did this (although baring yesterday to today, they were all days apart).

But I think my subconcious is getting reprogrammed in the way that it seems i'm one ****ing stubborn son of a *****, and i don't give up until i reach it, so it's gonna keep giving it to me sooner and sooner, until it's ALL MINE, until it's just WHO I AM, 24/7.

So today I went DIRECTLY to my weak-spot, the college (on the way I said 1 hi), and... it was quite damn difficult, it feels like you're making a fool out of yourself. Going up and giving a compliment or asking for directions, introducing yourself... they all feel "legit", you have a reason to do it. But just saying hi and walking off... it feels as if you're told to go and poke people and run away. :w00t:

So it took me quite some time to do my first hi (as much as 30mins!!!! i think) as i went extremely late and the only places to do it were exactly my weakest spots. So I did one to the most beatifull girl (in terms of how she's made herself look), and she responded after she passed me (I said too late)... and then a second one 10 mins later, and a third one just 2 mins later...

Here's a good point, by this point i reach breaking point, so I shout some shouting distance away at her "hi you", and a little genuine compliment (i'm trying not to in this bootcamp, but couldn't help it). I had done a hi between the second and third one (old guy)... at this point I reached breaking point... went home, then towards yoga and on the way did 1 more old dude, then did some other girl, again the MOMENT our eyes met and shouting distance away, first she was confused, than she responded with a shy half-smile of pleasure. After yoga class I run towards the bus stop, where I encounter some girl is standing next to me, "hi" "looks at me and says nothing" "so wassup", gives some *****y/shy response "what do you care" or something... "where do we know each other from?" - *****y/shy tone... "we don't girl, I just wanted to see how you gonna react, bye bye ", then I run into my jazz ballet practice... there I "hi" one guy.

NOW... the payoff... IT DOES EXACTLY WHAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO DO. For some wacky reason it makes you incredibly social, and expands your social awareness like mad. I was shining charisma and was very social and just all over the place at the end of today. It's neat


day 1 = 6 Hi's, day 2 = 8 hi's-- of which 3 college hi's & 1 stationary hi

 

[AlekNovi]

Analysis... DEEP... lol

---No eye contact, means no alek lovin'---

Well I noticed today that I was waiting for eye-contact in order to dispense some alek lovin'... I waited until they'd look up at me in order to give a hi... no wonder you pass so many oportunities... about 70% of girls don't actually make eye-contact, they just stare ahead, those that do, look at me for 0.2 seconds, and the IMMEDIATELLY sweep the floor.

I realized i was only saying hi when the opportunity was such that she looked at me (the 0.3 seconds thing), and she was near. This has to be fixed, as a confident man can strongly and firmly sound out the greeting even when the person is further away (which I was doing after the "breaking point" naturally. But this is my goal now.

SOLUTION: Conciously going for the greeting even without eye-contact a certain distance (i've noticed other DJ bootcamps have went thru the same realizations before me lol).

---Why does alek dislike threesomes?---

I noticed I was avoiding girls in twos, and threes. I was doing only solos. Whatever the reason (I guess it's confusion ATM of am I greeting just one of the girls, or adressing them both "hi guys")

SOLUTION: Clarification being that I am adressing just one of the girls (either one should be right for this mission)... that settles it , oh and a concious effort to do these. No wait... adressing both would be a bigger comfort-zone expander... ok... settled. "hi, guys" it is.

---What if it actually WORKS?---

Another thing I realized that this mission itself (the DJBC) isn't very clear on what the HIs are about. So I actually noticed i was avoiding situations where it was easier (more friendly, conducive to socialising enviroments), but was more likely to say hi where they were likely not to stop and chat.

I realized it's a deep thing going in about "what if she actually stops to chat?". Pretty damn interesting when you actually sit back and realize what you are doing. So yeah anyone have suggestions? for a fall-back plan? What do I insert after the HI, as this program is supposed to be just about greeting them... I'm thinking just introducing yourself and saying you're doing an experiment with greeting people. (i always love honesty lol! I'mma do that actually

---no goal, what's the hi about?---

Just that i noticed this bootcamp has no particular goals with the HIs, it doesn't say what the point is. They work ****ing beatifully... but it doesn't say what to do with the HIs. Just say HIs. Is it to greet people, is it to start conversations, is it to hit and run? Like I decided above for me. It'll be saying i'm doing a greetin experiment.

 

[AlekNovi]

Hey guys I need advice

I'm going sick from the walking about (i'm also shooting for photography exams, my second studies lol) and at the same time all this stress from the studying for my primary studies... i feel all weak and starting to catch a cold and all that stuff.

How do I prevent it? I'm one ****ing stubborn mother****er, and now that i've started it, i ain't giving up. But i need something to keep me functioning while I do this stuff.

Please some suggestions? Antibiotics, what?

 

[AlekNovi]

I ****ing rule - Week 1 Day 3 report

I was going to sit at home all day and rest to filter out this sickness... I spent 2-3 hours just restless on the sofa... trying to journal... feeling all... sick and having a headache, and all kindsa BS. I couldn't breathe, my nose was runny. I felt like shouting at the top of my lungs "WHY!!!!!!!!"... What's this ****, it's not fair blah blah blah...

But at one moment of clarity i said... this is BS... i promised myself, each day, i'm going to do, atleast ONE thing. Even if it's just asking one person for the time or whatever... So... since I had to go and copy the scripts from one guy (materials for an exam)... i went to go to the college library. On my way (just as I exited), he says on the cellphone (i can't today i'm sorry, i forgot the materials)... so at that DECISIVE moment... as i'm out... (in front of my building entrance)... i go... i'm out... the weather looks good. I can take a stroll around here, go to the pharmacy and get some flu medicine. So I go over there, say good-day to one granny, ask about the pharmacies...

then go ahead and enter local mini-mall... it's european type, where it's just like stores all just stuck one next to the other and parallel to the boulevard. So I go circles around it, and say 3 hi's, then I see some HB on the opposite side, run over to the other side of the mall so i can end up coming up on front of her. "hey hi', will you look please at that cell and tell me the time"... (not sure about the hi, but i'm counting it)... then I think 2 more hi's (i don't even remember how, when and who at this point since it was going so well and effortless)... then see some guy selling socks, and I go hi him and chat about the socks, and buy some (what I notice is how easy and outgoing and then see some chick crossing the street, run across to be able to cross the street together with her and say hi (turns out it's a woman, not an Hb, so no hi, although it's [somewhat of] an excuse, as the program says people, not HBs... then I go and walk over on the pedestrian walk and say hi to some HB (btw... they are all responding at this point, i don't think i've had a non-response since the end of day 1, they do respond weakly and somewhat confused, since i am a bit late, but it's doing ok, much better!). Then make some comment to some dude as we're crossing the street, then some older dude who very enthusiastically greets me back and asks how I am doing. Somewhere in the middle of all this I was in the pharmacy and was very social and talkative there, it was nice... i'm feeling like the neigbourhood friendly guy... It's nice

This was all in less than 15 minutes I believe.

And then I go into the fast-food place to order some pizza (since I OWED MYSELF SOME for doing yesterday's tasks, and I didn't have it yesterday!!!), and there i was very talkative and social... (hihihi i like these results, it's very nice )

A grandtotal of:

- 8 or 9 hi's (let's say 8)
- having finished day 1 of instant street dating (which is asking one "as old and as ugly woman for the time", well mine was neither ugly nor old. But that's a minimum (you ask better and better in the following days.

 

[AlekNovi]

Some conclusions and thoughts

---MajorMark says...---

"These ****ing guys go and immediatelly shoot out for their greatest challenge, and inevitably get burned... i tell them... don't... start out somewhere else first"... and this is what I noticed today... When I want to this neighbourhood mini-mall... the HB-s are the same as in the HUGE mall in the centre of town... the people are the same... but the atmosphere is hugely different. It's ALOT easier to do. And it feels alot more "natural" and "legit"... why?

---Poor shy girls---

Because what I also managed to notice was... that it's alot more about them, than it is about you. I'm starting to see the "social matrix" if you will. Which is good, because i had a little residue of that "girls are *****y demons who go around with an intent to reject and hurt men". I've removed most of it thru plenty of work, but still had a little bit left, and this is helping tremendously. Basically... i am totally seeing and interpreting girls as very shy creatures who are INCREDIBLY concerned what people think of them, and very anxious. I've always known (and taught other guys this), that 99% of the time when you perceive a woman's action as being "*****y", it's really her being socially anxious. Everything from the way you interpret the girls walking down the street, to the way they make (or fail to) eye-contact, to their facial expressions etc... Now these missions are proving good at driving this understanding at a deeper unconcious level.

So you'll notice at the bigger malls, they're realy competing with each other, all nervous and **** on how they're perceived, very anxious (and most guys perceive them as being *****y.

---which means it's YOUR job---

to go and make them feel at ease. That's basically the main thing that a "Don Juan" does... he puts girls at ease, and allows them the freedom to act uninhibitted and friendly.

 

[AlekNovi]

Week 1 Day 4

I took this day off, as I spent all of today shooting a beer commercial. It was nice and I enjoyed it. Too bad it will only be shown in albania (lol), so i'll probably never get to see it... but... oh well.

 

[AlekNovi]

I'm restarting it on monday , for purely logistical reasons, is all

 

[Bvbidd]

So you'll notice at the bigger malls, they're realy competing with each other, all nervous and **** on how they're perceived, very anxious (and most guys perceive them as being *****y.

---which means it's YOUR job---

to go and make them feel at ease. That's basically the main thing that a "Don Juan" does... he puts girls at ease, and allows them the freedom to act uninhibitted and friendly.

That's some good stuff.

 

[AlekNovi]

That's some good stuff.

I just noticed Neil Strauss himself noticed this in "the game", i'm re-reading it now.

I guess we all do at one point of development.

"As we talked, I realized they were just ordinary, insecure girls. That's why
they'd been so quiet. Most men make the mistake of believing that an attractive woman who doesn't talk to or acknowledge him is a b1tch. Most of the time, however, she's just as shy or insecure as the less attractive women he's ignoring—if not more so.

:rockon: :rockon:

 

[AlekNovi]

Week 1 Day 1 Report

I was very time crunched today, so I said I'll just run 10 mins around the block, and however many I get in... I get in... but only 3 were made, and i didn't see a single HB... So I went to make another 10 min run, and nothing but ****ing grannies and young guys.... so then I realized... **** i'm way of the time, so I ran over to home and did one more. All replied very enthusiastically... and this was VERY natural for me. Like i've been doing it all my life. Although it was too easy... hence no results, no comfort zone stretching... maybe i shouldn't have reset... oh well... i'll insert some tougher combinations into the next few days when i'll have plenty of time for it.

- I am not even noticing even more is there eye-contact or not, is he/she friendly or not... I even (I notice now) wasn't caring if there were people around and what they thought... those sticking issues seem to have magically vanished somehow... very nice. Plus I was very charming and a bit charismatic in it... nice

4 done, 46 to go

 

[AlekNovi]

I haven't gone out to do things, as today all day will be ****ing running around, copying materials, going to libraries etc... so I'll only get to do some stuff in between this (on the way etc...)... so i'll end up most likely only going out for the specific purpose of doing this only later in the day.

BUT THIS was fun... today I decided to go out and unshaved and with my hair all ****ed up... my hair looked like that of homeless person.

What's fun is that i didn't give a **** for some reason... in fact i was even more ballsy and ****y than ever... I was speaking loud, and walking as if I owned every place we walked into with my colleague (from college).

So walking back to the taxi area, I see some shb10... go "hey what's up, and a good day to you" and she totally ignores me and walks on... this have never happened to me before... only if i was very quiet and they didn't hear me, or I wasn't authoritative enough... But today it was the other extreme, i was loud, brash, authoratative and demanding... all ****y and **** lol. So i go "yo, hey come back here, wat was that, can't you respond properly to a greeting" huh... kiddies.

I go up to the cab area... and go to one cab (cab a), and ask " is it available", and I notice that there's actually a girl in there paying her fare still, so I go to the cab right of him (i think he saw this convo with cab a) and go "is it available"... and cabbie b... looks at me with a face and angst and despari "NO!!!"... Oh i'm like... oh you're waiting for someone... and he's like "no, but YOU can't come in"...

):w00t::-D:smile: I got rejected by a cabbie lol :w00t:):-D

That's a first. This is like 2.5 minutes after the SHB10... and i'm like... WTF... So i go back to Cab A (girl finished paying her fare by now) and as he's driving home, ... i'm thinking "what was all of this about?"... I never had either one of these happen ever, and now I got two odd occurences in just 2-3 mins apart. Must be spreading some kind of an off-putting vibe. Maybe it's my hair (i look in the mirror, It actually settled and I look like a normal cool young guy).

I'm suspecting it's because of the mission that mr.sin (from my lair) gave me for today. Just thinking that i'm planning to do it makes me go into an altered state of reality lol. It's ****ed up.

I'm also somewhere in the back of my mind thinking about not doing it... i'm like "wtf, that's too advanced for me. I'm not THAT ballsy yet" "I can say I didn't want to do it yet, no one's gonna judge. For something like this, i can be forgiven for not doing... i mean see even that other guy doesn't want to do it..." - and so excuses pile up. What's funny is that i am still thinking of doing it. It's 90% "I'll probably do it" feeling, and 10% "I might just call it quits for now" feeling.

We'll see. I have to type up a bunch of stuff right now, which I need to go and trade with some colleagues later (in 2-3 hours) and only then when I finish with these guys will I go to do challenges of balls and courage... later

 

[AlekNovi]

week 1 day 2

I actually forgot to write today's report. This **** has become so easy for me... that i didn't even think about it... on my way to a store and back, i did 10 just like that.

This kinda reminds me of my first FRs... my very ones were 10 page FRs about a 5 minute conversation... and later they grew so small... i had 2 sentence FRs for 40 minute encounters... "i approached, we vibed, went for the cofee... we connected some... and then I #closed her"

If you ask me what i talked about exactly i'd honestly not remember (i dunno... just... mmm stuff i guess"... Which is good. it's a sign things are going subconcious... i think it's what deangelo refers to as unconcious competence.

So i'm starting to get it with this hi's thing. And it's nice.

I just can't remember whether I did 10 altogether, or was that on just that run... hmmm.

14 done, 36 to go

 

[fertileTurtle]

Thanks for posting this, man. This sounds like a lot of fun when you describe. I know a lot of people who make this kind of thing sound like sh*t. As for mixed groups, try holding the door for a lady who is with her man and keep it open for him of course. They will both thank you and you'll get a natural high from it.

 

[AlekNovi]

Thanks for posting this, man. This sounds like a lot of fun when you describe. I know a lot of people who make this kind of thing sound like sh*t. As for mixed groups, try holding the door for a lady who is with her man and keep it open for him of course. They will both thank you and you'll get a natural high from it.

Interesting example. Actually... all my life i have been holding doors... and not ONCE did I get a thank you (outside my building where I live)... anywhere else: malls, college, concert halls, stores, language centers... whatever... not ONCE have I gotten a thank you.

I've gotten very close to giving these peasants in my country some etiquette 101 lessons when they do that lol. :rock:

 

[AlekNovi]

Week 1, Day 3 report - MADNESS

Today was ****ing awesome... i'm all lighted up. I didn't even go out with the intent of doing these HI's or whatever... I just went to do some chores, and do some copying etc...And on the way and while doing all this stuff (and meeting a friend for some materials)... I ****ing hi'd the **** out of everyone...

Now here's the thing... i was so ****ing charming, charismatic and inviting of friendliness that all of this flowed out of me naturally. I wasn't going like "oh, wow, who do I hi now... ermm wat..." etc... it all just flowed out naturally... IT ROCKS!

Secondly... I found myself starting convos all over the places!!! ****... i didn't think about doing convos... i just found myself starting convos all over the place.

So basically i think I did between 6-10 convos (i have no idea at ALL exactly, it's going VERY unconscious competence). And I must have hi'd atleast like... i dunno 12-20 people (i'm counting the convos as hi's)...

SO BASICALLY... I finished week 2! And some of week 3 (as some of the convos were HBs)... all in one ****ing day... ****

thirdly It's amazing... when i first started... *I* was trying to catch people's eye-contact, they ignored me most of them... i came out weak... somehow it all aligned where they're all responding today, even with a smile. It's nice. The irony is that you have to push thru that stage of caring whether they do respond or not, and when you finally DON'T need them to... that's when they start responding. BASICALLY: the point is this... as I was walking down the street... THEY (everyone of these people) was trying to catch MY eye-contact, they were all looking at me (and I was glowing)... so of course it's much easier to respond.

fourthly I didn't consciously look at any of this stuff like... wait... are people close by... who's watching... did the person who HI'd back there see me hi the next one... ALL of that is gone... and i'm just doing everything without a glitch... very natural... like breathing... like i've always been doing it.

five With every single person I came in contact today I was so warm, friendly charismatic, and made people laugh... etc... traded phone numbers with people... got asked out etc... like i've been a social hub for all my life... networking and befriending comes so easily. I love this

It has been the best decision of my life to start this bootcamp. And even though I effectively finished week 1 and 2 effectively (since I have both 50 hi's and 10 convos, exactly 7 days from before I reset the program). I'm still gonna continue as if I hadn't done any of these things... by the calendar. As I'm using this program only as the background STRUCTURE into which I insert all my personality and social skill changes.

My goal is to (as I have said before)... one by one by one... eliminate every single demon inside my head, and kill them all one by one by one. Every sticking point... every habit leading to anxious thought and behaviours. I want totall freedom and liberation from the matrix... because it feels SO ****ING GOOD. I was literally walking down the street singing to myself and bouncing off the ground. It's good. I will settle for nothing less than pure unbrainwashed mind. I want the social mind of a little child before he receives any social brainwashing... I want TOTAL abandon and freedom. And i'm gonna get it. It's about the freedom, it's about challenging yourself to grow, it's about reaching fullfilment... puzzy is not the goal, even though you end up getting it without even trying... coz it just happens.

30 hi's done (atleast)... 20 to go


EDIT: Further... 5 mins ago... I went out to do some chores for college... and this was wacked... every single person I passed was looking at me, trying to grab my EC, and they all held on to it. It's amazing... I mean i can not not get EC... Interesting. The vibe you carry changes alot of things... lol.. I did 2 more hi's, but i'm not counting those as they were easy... I will push for harder situations (look at list of difficulties) tommorow... and use these regular ones as warm-up. It's nice

 

[AlekNovi]

****ing amazing - Week 1, Day 4 Report

I'm turning into that person i've always wanted to be. The one you see chatting up every saleswoman, pedestrian when cross the street, storeclerk, waitress/waiter, new person in the social group. The person who's always the one to look to etc...

It's awesome. I effectively AGAIN, did like half of week 2 today lol... I started like conversations etc all over the place. I started with the Hi's and it transfered into me chatting people up all over the place (and again IT JUST HAPPENED)... Funny, i was in like some charisma-trance)... It's amazing how people are trying to grab my attention as I walk by, it's like I'm some... dunno celebrity or something. Everyone feels the need to look at me. Everyone is trying to catch MY attention. I'm cracking jokes left and right and just being the life of the party.

I of course owned both niches i went to (the yoga class, and the ballet lessons). I ****ing owned them. I got me into a convo like 4-5 times. Out of which 2 times it was with an HB...

So effectively i can count around... hmmm let's say 8 hi's today... i HONESTLY do not know how and why and i just lost track... it's become just who I am, not what I do. It's all a damn blur. And that's GOOD.

HERE's how it happened thought... I woke up FULL of excuses... FULL of BS... I sat around lying in bed for the first 6 hours of the day... I felt sick, i felt lethargic, i just wanted to stay at home today... oh i don't wanna go out and do courage-missions today... i'm ahead anyway... blah blah... i don't wanna go to yoga... i already know this stuff, i've been there... bah i'll stay at home.

But then you realize "feel the lethargy... and do it anyway"...

Coz it's ALWAYS BS... Why? Coz it ALWAYS happens that even though you wanna just snuggle in bed all day because you don't have the energy right?

IT ALWAYS happens that the moment you say **** it and go out... all of a sudden you have all the energy in the world. You're bouncing off of walls... and BOY oh BOY was I bouncing off of walls today. I was actually dancing in the middle of the bus, while waiting to pass the street, and practicing dancing steps while singing a tune... I don't care, it's not my reality. Life is short, i'm gonna have all the fun I can. They're all zombies as far as the eyes can see... Blast the player to MAXIMUM volume and "fukitol" TM.

THAT is the decisive moment, when you're lying in bed there and slap that demon and tell it SHUT THE **** up. That's where the real change occurs.

p.s. I forgot... those two "convos" which happened to be HBs, could have also been considered sarges. But the frame is different as they just happened, and they were more like in the moment non-forced natural game. Which i'm liking alot more than the frame of going with the specific purpose of GETTING that one girl. This way things are just happening, you're letting women seduce you. As you're socializing with anyone anyway, when a girl attracts you, you just SOI her. It's alot better suited to my own personal SPs and personality Does it mean i'm giving up on sarging altogether? No. But i'm liking it alot more. I want to master this area, where it's natural. And then I can go into goal-oriented sarging again, while re-integrating this part. It's a whole different ball-game.

38 hi's done, just 12 to go in 3 days left