The reason why I'm telling my story here is because when i was younger sosuave.com use to be my bible on picking up girls and I don't want people to make the same mistake i did. I apologize if my story is too long.
I first met her at my old job and thought that was she was a very special girl but I never bothered to ask her out. I was later transferred to a different location and soon after quit. A year later I decided to give her a call hoping to hook up with her, after we had our date I never bothered to call her again. Until she gave me a call a year later asking if I was still working with the company to cover a shift and that’s when I decided to ask her out. When I got into the relationship I thought she was just a young dumb girl I was just going to go out with because I was blinded by all my friends telling me to just sleep with her and leave her when a another girl comes along, so ended treating her with little to no respect at all. As our relationship started to build she started to grow on me, that’s when I started to think if we had a future together or not and that bugged me throughout the relationship. After a while we started to fight constantly about stupid small things that doesn’t even matter to most people. There was one fight that happened at a mall where it got so out of hand that I just left her there crying alone. I soon realized that the reason I fight with her all the time was because I was afraid to get hurt and that’s why I didn’t let her into my life. After a few weeks she broke up with me, through the phone at first I was in shock and a bit glad because I was debating about it for some time. Now I realized that I let the one girl I ever loved leave me because not once in our relationship that she ever complained about anything. She never complained about how boring we were or that we had to take public transit or walk because I had my license suspended at that time. By not letting her into my life so I wouldn’t get hurt I was actually hurting her. So I tried to get her back by letting her know how important she really means to me, but she wouldn’t answer my calls or even let me explain myself to her. After several attempts of calling her, she finally picked up and I explained everything to her and begged her to give me a second chance, but it was too late because she’s with someone else...Here is the final email she sent me with my name changed because I am actually embarrassed of myself.
Dear Darren, there is something you need to know.
Throughout our relationship, I hid my friendship with Michael from you.
The truth is, we liked each other, but, I was with you Darren.
And I knew in my heart what was wrong and what was right.
Even though you looked at other girls, and talked about other girls,
Even though u showed me little to no respect,
I always felt like I should be a faithful girlfriend to you. And I was.
When you and I fought, or when I was upset over us,
There was one person who was always there for me... but it wasn't you Darren.
He told me that I didn't deserve to be treated this way.
He told me to look into my heart and see that I was special.
But I couldn't, I just couldn't see that in myself.
The only thing I was concerned about was being the girl that you wanted me to be.
You wanted me to show you respect, listen to what you say, don't ask questions,
and basically, don't have an opinion. Because my opinions didn't really matter to you in the big scheme of things.
But that is not who I was. I liked to ask questions, i like to criticize and give my opinions.
But you made me afraid to be that person.
You didn't like that person. You even said, that is whats WRONG with me.
The last thing I wanted was to make you unhappy, to make you mad,
so I tried my hardest to be different. Just for you.
I tried to swallow pride and let you be the King.
But no matter how hard I tried, I still felt like I could never satisfy you,
so I thought of everyway possible to stand out, so you would notice me..
In December, I told Michael that he and I could no longer be friends.
Just for you.
I pushed him away , and I stopped talking to him.
He was a great friend, he was always looking out for me. He truly cared about me.
But I cut him out of my life, for you.
and I sucked it up.
But no matter what I did Darren, it was never good enough. It was never anything "special".
I wasted your "time"
I was "stupid"
"sensitive"
a "dumbass"
and a "*****".
This is why my love for you faded.
This is why I was confused.
But, again, I toughed it out, I believed that everything was okay.
One day, I found myself standing alone, crying, in the middle of a shopping mall,
waiting, and hoping you would come back. But you didn't. You left me there.
And I walked home, too embarrassed to go on the bus for the tears on my face.
After this Darren, any respect that I had left for you, every TRACE of respect that was left,
was gone. Like that.
Amidst the anger, amidst the dark streets that I walked home.. Somehow...I was free.
I was freed from distain. I was freed from the challenge of constantly trying to change myself.
I was no longer afraid to do what I wanted.
And I was no longer afraid to be friends with Michael.
When I started talking to him again,
He helped me realize a lot about love.
Love is never conceited or insulting,
it is never deserting or unkind.
It took me a long time to realize that he was right.
You said you just want me to be happy,
well, I am.
I have found happiness.
But on the contrary,I did read your last little attempt to try and get your word in after our phone call ended.
And if your going to resort to name calling again,
...I don't care.
I will not descend to such a level.
This is my final farewell to you Darren.
Goodbye.
In a way I actually don’t blame that guy for stepping in so soon because when I was younger I use to go around saying “boyfriends are just speed bumps” but now that I’m on the other side of that it honestly does suck. I don’t go through a single day with not regretting what I’ve done and taking her for granted. Every day that goes by I keep replaying our whole relationship thinking why I didn’t just treat her properly and ignore what my friends said in the first place. People say that I should move on now because I’m still young and there’s plenty of other girls out there, but I just can’t help thinking that what if she actually did love me and she was the one that got away. I keep having hope that she might come around and give me a second chance but I guess the worst kind of evil is hope because it prolongs the length of pain. I don’t know why she’s so afraid to give me a second chance, maybe it’s because I don’t mean that much to her, or if she doesn’t want to get hurt anymore, or it’s because she’s actually happy with Michael. Through this experience I have no one to blame but myself for not listening to what my heart was telling me the whole time. If I can do this all over again things would defiantly be different, but I can’t do anything about it.
I first met her at my old job and thought that was she was a very special girl but I never bothered to ask her out. I was later transferred to a different location and soon after quit. A year later I decided to give her a call hoping to hook up with her, after we had our date I never bothered to call her again. Until she gave me a call a year later asking if I was still working with the company to cover a shift and that’s when I decided to ask her out. When I got into the relationship I thought she was just a young dumb girl I was just going to go out with because I was blinded by all my friends telling me to just sleep with her and leave her when a another girl comes along, so ended treating her with little to no respect at all. As our relationship started to build she started to grow on me, that’s when I started to think if we had a future together or not and that bugged me throughout the relationship. After a while we started to fight constantly about stupid small things that doesn’t even matter to most people. There was one fight that happened at a mall where it got so out of hand that I just left her there crying alone. I soon realized that the reason I fight with her all the time was because I was afraid to get hurt and that’s why I didn’t let her into my life. After a few weeks she broke up with me, through the phone at first I was in shock and a bit glad because I was debating about it for some time. Now I realized that I let the one girl I ever loved leave me because not once in our relationship that she ever complained about anything. She never complained about how boring we were or that we had to take public transit or walk because I had my license suspended at that time. By not letting her into my life so I wouldn’t get hurt I was actually hurting her. So I tried to get her back by letting her know how important she really means to me, but she wouldn’t answer my calls or even let me explain myself to her. After several attempts of calling her, she finally picked up and I explained everything to her and begged her to give me a second chance, but it was too late because she’s with someone else...Here is the final email she sent me with my name changed because I am actually embarrassed of myself.
Dear Darren, there is something you need to know.
Throughout our relationship, I hid my friendship with Michael from you.
The truth is, we liked each other, but, I was with you Darren.
And I knew in my heart what was wrong and what was right.
Even though you looked at other girls, and talked about other girls,
Even though u showed me little to no respect,
I always felt like I should be a faithful girlfriend to you. And I was.
When you and I fought, or when I was upset over us,
There was one person who was always there for me... but it wasn't you Darren.
He told me that I didn't deserve to be treated this way.
He told me to look into my heart and see that I was special.
But I couldn't, I just couldn't see that in myself.
The only thing I was concerned about was being the girl that you wanted me to be.
You wanted me to show you respect, listen to what you say, don't ask questions,
and basically, don't have an opinion. Because my opinions didn't really matter to you in the big scheme of things.
But that is not who I was. I liked to ask questions, i like to criticize and give my opinions.
But you made me afraid to be that person.
You didn't like that person. You even said, that is whats WRONG with me.
The last thing I wanted was to make you unhappy, to make you mad,
so I tried my hardest to be different. Just for you.
I tried to swallow pride and let you be the King.
But no matter how hard I tried, I still felt like I could never satisfy you,
so I thought of everyway possible to stand out, so you would notice me..
In December, I told Michael that he and I could no longer be friends.
Just for you.
I pushed him away , and I stopped talking to him.
He was a great friend, he was always looking out for me. He truly cared about me.
But I cut him out of my life, for you.
and I sucked it up.
But no matter what I did Darren, it was never good enough. It was never anything "special".
I wasted your "time"
I was "stupid"
"sensitive"
a "dumbass"
and a "*****".
This is why my love for you faded.
This is why I was confused.
But, again, I toughed it out, I believed that everything was okay.
One day, I found myself standing alone, crying, in the middle of a shopping mall,
waiting, and hoping you would come back. But you didn't. You left me there.
And I walked home, too embarrassed to go on the bus for the tears on my face.
After this Darren, any respect that I had left for you, every TRACE of respect that was left,
was gone. Like that.
Amidst the anger, amidst the dark streets that I walked home.. Somehow...I was free.
I was freed from distain. I was freed from the challenge of constantly trying to change myself.
I was no longer afraid to do what I wanted.
And I was no longer afraid to be friends with Michael.
When I started talking to him again,
He helped me realize a lot about love.
Love is never conceited or insulting,
it is never deserting or unkind.
It took me a long time to realize that he was right.
You said you just want me to be happy,
well, I am.
I have found happiness.
But on the contrary,I did read your last little attempt to try and get your word in after our phone call ended.
And if your going to resort to name calling again,
...I don't care.
I will not descend to such a level.
This is my final farewell to you Darren.
Goodbye.
In a way I actually don’t blame that guy for stepping in so soon because when I was younger I use to go around saying “boyfriends are just speed bumps” but now that I’m on the other side of that it honestly does suck. I don’t go through a single day with not regretting what I’ve done and taking her for granted. Every day that goes by I keep replaying our whole relationship thinking why I didn’t just treat her properly and ignore what my friends said in the first place. People say that I should move on now because I’m still young and there’s plenty of other girls out there, but I just can’t help thinking that what if she actually did love me and she was the one that got away. I keep having hope that she might come around and give me a second chance but I guess the worst kind of evil is hope because it prolongs the length of pain. I don’t know why she’s so afraid to give me a second chance, maybe it’s because I don’t mean that much to her, or if she doesn’t want to get hurt anymore, or it’s because she’s actually happy with Michael. Through this experience I have no one to blame but myself for not listening to what my heart was telling me the whole time. If I can do this all over again things would defiantly be different, but I can’t do anything about it.
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