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Shaken, but not defeated Today I find myself shaken to the core, but not defeated. Things have recently completely deteriorated with my girlfriend of 3 years, as she became consumed with her sinus condition to the exclusion of all else. Long story short, we started fighting during every...

Update For the past few months, I have been making some pretty significant changes in my life, although these pale in the sight of "normalcy". However, it is all good stuff considering that I'm starting at the bottom of the barrel. I have managed to improve my business by seeking out any and...

The Return of Man_O'War I have returned. Where did I go? Who knows? I think I had to incubate all the great ideas in this thread and come back after making some changes and going through some experiences. But first things first: I can't tell you guys how much I appreciate your concern, your...

Captain Popular, Thanks for the lengthy response - I appreciate the time. Your points are all well-recieved and I will be considering them all very carefully. When you say, "Only a loser would say that", you are illustrating the very "Catch-22" I find myself in. If I think I'm a loser...

Today's report Woke up today in an exceptionally bad mood. I think I had some bad dreams. The mud is definitely being stirred up now. Was majorly hung over from my medication this morning, could not function, so I did my e-mail and went to sleep on the couch for an hour. That recharged my...

yendor28, Thanks for the encouragement. I hope I want it bad enough. epicurean, I think you're thinking of "Dianetics". Maverick001, Thanks so much for the encouragement. I never thought of that whole "conception" angle. I truly hope I can get to the point where I can relegate all that...

j8snx1, Thanks, man. That means an aweful lot to me. I in turn will try my very beat to turn this life around. Man O' War

With all the things I think I'm good at, I always think, "So What? Have you capitalized on what you're good at? No!". Everybody thinks I play really good guitar. I think it's all just smoke & mirrors, just some tricks I learned to make people think I play well. Right now, I find it impossible...

That describes my predicament fairly well, DJHoolahoop. It seems that my "issues" are so massive in scope that it will be impossible to straighten out. But I am willing to try to the very best of my ability. It has always seemed so hopeless SPECIFICALLY because I have noticed a remarkable...

All good points, General. I fully realize that my real problem is self-perception. Unfortunately somewhere is my past I decided deep down inside that I was a loser, and I have been unable to rise above that ever since. I fear that I will be stuck in that mind-set forever, simply because I...

Ok, O had some success today. Although my schedule went haywire and I ended up getting home at 10:30 pm, I immediately changed and worked out with the weights. That gave me a sense of control that I haven't felt in a long time. I couldn't do the treadmill as I have people living below me, but...

Ebach, I don't think jealousey or greed have anything to do with what I stated. In my view, being a man means living up to your responsibilities and paying your bills. This is what I want to accomplish. M

Thanks, superchristx. I appreciate the encouragement. I read that book a long time ago, but obviously it didn't stick. I'll check it out again. M

My First Step So, Man O' War, what will be your first volley? I hereby declare that I will work out with weights today and will walk the treadmill. I will report back later tonight whether I have met with success or not. M

I am not a man. Let's get that straight right now. At 48 years of age, I am aware that I am woefully ill-equipped and underdeveloped as a man. The purpose of this thread is to chronicle my attempt to grow into true manhood. This will not be a thread about picking up women...that's really...