just starting day 8 nc ,the girl never came the party think it was because she was worried it just being a rebound ,party was rubbish not many there this dipped my mood too much to drink then seen something i didnt like nearly lost it and done something stupid but i hung in there and didnt woke...
day 6 done ,had hangover today they suck as they make me emotional but i got through it also its friday the main day we use to spend together without kids never mind onwards and upwards ignore ignore delete forget
day 5 done ,still good seem to have got the hang off controling my emotions and thinking logic feels much better feeling human again smiling seem to have more energy and had a good night sleep :up:
dat 4 done seen each other this morning opposite a junction in cars i didnt look at her or ackowledge her ,not really gave her a thought today more and more interested in my self ,now the funny thing before i got with lisa i was sort of seeing this girl kelly who lisa use to hate jelous thing...
done 3 days now ,wasnt to bad today still mind drifting tried to keep busy also in a sad way my dads death anniversary was today so i take that as a plus he was way more important ,arranged with some people i seen for a while to go out thats what i need to get out and have fun ,some might say...
Day 2 done no tx today maybe she aint desperate ,si ive booked aweek away to egypt on my own for the 27th jan try and get myself to mix with strangers and find myself dunno if its my best idea ,im trying to tell myself i dont wanna go back to her ,and get myself a date look after number 1
yeah i know things were going good ,i can only think of 2 reasons why i got dumped
1 her ex husband who she left for me got a new women and she felt she lost what control she had over him just the kids ,i noticed he was around more as in in the house not taking kids back to his house and all...
i went 14 days and broke it friday night then i went round her house let me in had a chat i didnt ask her back just spoke both got pissed so i pressed some buttons got a dabble prob could have pushed for sex but i didnt want that ,it was like i can still get you to undress swapped a few txs next...
Day 1 done. been since 15:45 5th of january since my last tx gutted i broke it on the 14th day move on got some goals to achieve this week i need to find myself cause i def aint happy at the moment
Woke up all positive today ,decided not to go the pub ,chilling in my room playing my music aint done that in ages so why the hell do i feel i should tx her bloody annoying :cuss:
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