OP, you're trying too hard not to be like your Dad. Don't let this affect your relationships. Since it is, seek therapy.
The fact that your screen name is what it is and are repeatedly requesting only "slayers" to respond in this thread speaks very loudly to this.
My father is complacent and his life is falling apart around him. Hes completely broke, doesnt have a job, relies on the government for money, is a beta got used by my stepmom to have two kids which i dont think are even his and have the emotional control of a ****ing two year old. Im going to...
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All the lifting in the world ain't going to solve this. Find another way to cope.