When I was growing up, I was in a pretty messed up place, so I used to bully every person around me, all the women absolutely adored me, although I never spoke to any of them, because to me, Friendship was more important than love... I adopted this ideal from a very young age, like before 10.
One of the things I began to notice, was that this... Comradery, was a very one sided deal with most of my friends... They could not set aside love for Friendship in the way that I could... Until one day, I just snapped, said, "Ok, y'all wanna play the puss before friendship game? I'm better looking, taller, tougher." Initially I didnt want to play, but my hand was forced... Or maybe my Ego just had enough, im not sure... Either way, after this point, nice guy was basically dead and I ended up cucking a bunch of my friends, their girlfriends laughed about it, I still see some of them to this day, almost 15 years later.
So yeah, the women actually didnt get to me, all my lil' beta guy friends who would say one thing and do another drove me to no longer be a nice guy ad even let my honor take a couple hits, I was really out there back in the day.
Yeah, I was definitely just a passive alphaish guy, im an intellectual at heart, so i cant say im like the full package alpha guy, but once my buddies pissed me off with women they all came to regret it.
The only thing are the reunions, cause we all used to live in a small town, i still have a bunch of clout from back in the day, 10-13 years later and nobody forgets a damn thing, kind of brutal and im not friends with any of them anymore.