Due to some events the last month and a half, I've come to realize my mind is completely fvcked up and I tend to give it what it thinks is happening. Even though I realize what is going on and I know what I have to do (or should do), I can't fight it. Therefore I do think it's time for me to seek professional help.
I did some research on the withdrawal effects of anti-depressants and anxiety drugs like Ativan, Xanax, etc... and what I found in my research, as well as some of the side-effects were so disturbing that I didn't feel comfortable pursuing this. At the end of the day, you are likely going to be prescribed Ativan for the initial symptoms and then an anti-depressant (which usually kicks in after 2 weeks) with a taper-off Ativan around that time. This is when you are overwhelmed by events that have occured to you, or that you have brought upon yourself.
Maybe you want to share what events you have gone through. If someone else on this board has gone through the same events, then maybe that could help you. Otherwise, I would do some research heavily on these type of popular drugs before taking them. Once the initial symptoms though the course of medication then this is when psychological therapy would usually start.
Again, I rejected all of this because there is actually one stigma worst than seeing a shrink. That is seeing a prostitute and then having your mind messed up and explaining all of that to a doctor. I feel too ashamed to admit to any doctor that I ever visited a prostitute and it was driving me nuts, so I just waited out the symptoms to go away and prayed. I'm sure what events you have gone through is not as bad as a visit to a prostitute so it should not feel like a stigma if you need help.
SayWhat said:
But there's this stigma for me, which is of course also a part of my mind playing tricks on me and that's the fact that once you sought professional help, you'll be screwed over for life and can never have a normal life anymore.
You mean the medication will change your brain chemistry and make you addicted to them, or suffer if you withdraw. You could lose your driver's license if you have a car. Yeah, think this through.