ThinkerG
Don Juan
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I’m new to this..first post. I posted this on another thread last night but I wanted the advice of themature members group aswell
Long story short.
I’m 27 in shape good-looking have been married for six years and have two children. I got married when I was 20 young and had my first child at 21 all with the same woman. When me and my wife first met it was instant attraction and chemistry we couldn’t leave each others side. We had children got married and throughout our marriage I was not the best husband. She’s was an amazing wife...loyal, hot, had my back at our lowest finacial point, great mother. I’m a great dad but I was controlling, unfaithful, had a wandering eye and didn’t know what it meant to have a real relationship. I do believe I would be the loyal husband I know I could be. I’m aware that my childhood played a part in my character but that is not an excuse nor can I blame that. it was all me. I took my life for granted. About a year ago I had confessed to my wife that I had slept with someone after I had told my wife I wanted to divorce because I couldn’t get the thought trying strange out of my mind. It was not an emotional think, just a random **** that I regret sincerely. It’s been about a year I’ve been trying to make amends with my wife and get her to work on our family and get our life back in order. I will admit I was very desperate times and when she told me she doesn’t love me anymore about a year ago I took it very hard and completely broke down. I have successfully read the rational male have became “red pilled” or trying at least. I had a very serious talk about a week ago and she has said that she just does not see me the same way anymore and she can’t believe all of the things that I’ve done to her especially being unfaithful...she wants to proceed with a divoce( but never brings it up) . We communicate, text, calls and in person about the kids and see each other all the time but it’s weird, and awkward and she’s very cold. She swears on her life that she is not seeing someone or even close to being interested in dating anyone. I know it’s a tough pill to swallow but I honestly believe her for the most part. I can’t help but want my family back, I’m a very close father to my children and will be in their lives as much as possible. I have so much jealousy and fear of her being with other men and yes I know that is a weakness that I need to overcome. I know this falls into one of the iron rules but I need advice. How should I move on? Should I keep fighting for my family and wife even after the constant rejection? ** I have no fear that I can’t find another woman, that is just the last thing from my mind right now and I don’t believe I need another woman to complete me, I have my own **** to focus on. I feel sick constantly, nervous, uneasy and it won’t go away. Thanks in advance
Long story short.
I’m 27 in shape good-looking have been married for six years and have two children. I got married when I was 20 young and had my first child at 21 all with the same woman. When me and my wife first met it was instant attraction and chemistry we couldn’t leave each others side. We had children got married and throughout our marriage I was not the best husband. She’s was an amazing wife...loyal, hot, had my back at our lowest finacial point, great mother. I’m a great dad but I was controlling, unfaithful, had a wandering eye and didn’t know what it meant to have a real relationship. I do believe I would be the loyal husband I know I could be. I’m aware that my childhood played a part in my character but that is not an excuse nor can I blame that. it was all me. I took my life for granted. About a year ago I had confessed to my wife that I had slept with someone after I had told my wife I wanted to divorce because I couldn’t get the thought trying strange out of my mind. It was not an emotional think, just a random **** that I regret sincerely. It’s been about a year I’ve been trying to make amends with my wife and get her to work on our family and get our life back in order. I will admit I was very desperate times and when she told me she doesn’t love me anymore about a year ago I took it very hard and completely broke down. I have successfully read the rational male have became “red pilled” or trying at least. I had a very serious talk about a week ago and she has said that she just does not see me the same way anymore and she can’t believe all of the things that I’ve done to her especially being unfaithful...she wants to proceed with a divoce( but never brings it up) . We communicate, text, calls and in person about the kids and see each other all the time but it’s weird, and awkward and she’s very cold. She swears on her life that she is not seeing someone or even close to being interested in dating anyone. I know it’s a tough pill to swallow but I honestly believe her for the most part. I can’t help but want my family back, I’m a very close father to my children and will be in their lives as much as possible. I have so much jealousy and fear of her being with other men and yes I know that is a weakness that I need to overcome. I know this falls into one of the iron rules but I need advice. How should I move on? Should I keep fighting for my family and wife even after the constant rejection? ** I have no fear that I can’t find another woman, that is just the last thing from my mind right now and I don’t believe I need another woman to complete me, I have my own **** to focus on. I feel sick constantly, nervous, uneasy and it won’t go away. Thanks in advance
