I've been working in a college area almost all this week. Students are back from break. I, nofap for all intents and purposes for a whole month, am impressing girls left and right. YOUNG 19, 20, 21, thru 24, 25 26, it doesn't matter. They all are turning their heads, and are dropping what they're doing to get to talk to me. Much smiles, weather's good, they're partying already, pool parties, volleyball, just wild reckless fun fun fun these kiddos. It's pretty funny these millennials. It's just funny how free they are IN College. I never had that much fun in college. I was depressed in school, didn't have the worldly experience I now have massively. It's kinda intimidating as they can sense my depth or wide array of passageways that emanate from my mind/speech. So fingers in mouth, dumb smile, empty heads/face. These bright-eyed kids are just bubbling over with happiness and freedom being in college either on scholarship or parents' dime. Many out of state, California, New York, New Jersey, China, United Arab Emirates, Wisconsin, New Mexico, Washington, just all these people disoriented and in a fog, it's so, I mean, I'm so Rangey. They can't even follow one foot in front of another.
Nofap makes me a daddy these girls can always smile and confide in, nod their heads to. If I had been fapping before this week, then sharing energy with these girls would not be as effectual I promise. Women will reach out and hug or try to touch you when they are in this happiness sorority giddy jumpin up n' down state. It's a drawn a kinetic energy that magnetizes an involuntary touch in the moment, they can't help it. Today, I made one happy just discussing how she can get a lot of reading done tonight when she takes a flight out of town, just something simple and she was just so happy (the weather's good so to hear my voice late evening and just chill). It was an energy I gave her (smiling in the good weather), but she was DEFINITELY not my type. I was not attracted to her, but she was one in several in succession throughout the week I encountered. Some of the girls knew guys I know and "he's my boyfriend, the one with his hair in a bun..." yeah ok, cool dude with a future I know, she's a hottie for sure, but I don't like very tan girls, you know like she over-tanned for return to university like her break was all fun summertime fun, evidence my very tan skin. I don't care about that, so many shallow girls, especially when young.
But almost all of them realized I'd have nothing to do with them. There were others though that were not so "innocent" or "inexperienced" who gave me the fvck eyes, and sure, I'd fvck em if the opportunity presented. It's like wild animals, these "experienced" ones, and they try to size you up, whereas the fresh girls are not sizing you up much cause they don't know what they don't know. They're pretty fvckin disoriented (about life And about direction and location and pretty much anything having to do with reality - could be Christian indoctrination from High School don't know, still coming from the "sheltered world"). It's really a sad display, how naive. Being the best or professional or successful is far from their minds. They just wanna have fun fun fun. College is ridiculous in the freedom that these kids have, when err ah 18 to 22 years old should be about WORK. I guess it's because classes have just started that the partying is ramping up so much. Nuts.