nicksaiz65
Master Don Juan
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3/24/18: Cold Approach 5
Pleased with the progress that I've been making so far in my life. Here's an update for you all since I can't really sleep. So I've got Tchaikovsky's 5th Symphony in the background and I'm gonna type this up.
School
Still struggling a bit. But I got a perfect grade back on a speech that I did the other day. So that's good.
Waves
Still growing my hair out. People are commenting that they can see my waves. I'm gonna call myself "The Faded Waver" once I become elite.
Style
Getting lots of compliments on how I dress. I'm loving my new style. I'm not even really wearing expensive name brands or anything like that. I've just gotta keep dressing nicely. And honestly, I'm pretty much there. I do need some new jeans though. And I want to get some Champion Shirts/Hoodies.
Classical Music and Other Things
I'm trying to go back to the nerd that I used to be in terms of genius and productivity. So one of the things I'm doing is listening to classical music again. I don't care about anyone's judgement, it makes me productive as hell.
HB Rache
Well it's weird. She's opening my text messages and not responding now. I'm just gonna raise my game and leave the ball in her court. It's all good.
Cold Approaches... Maxed Out
Wasn't even in a very social mood at work today so I wasn't really gonna approach anyone, especially since I had a test today and I was extremely mentally exhausted. But then in walked an HB 10. Literally exactly my type. Beautiful face, and a FAT ass. I was like I'm gonna be kicking myself if I don't approach. So I find out she's a lawyer too. Literally perfect for me, exactly my type! A lot older than me though. We get to talking, and the conversation goes very smoothly. She says she likes how I dress and she really likes my art, how I'm talking about my violin and own personal songwriting. In the end, I fvck it up and don't get her number cause I have to go back to work. Normally I'd be upset, but I'm really not. Because I realized I now have literally zero approach anxiety now. I wasn't scared one bit. And I can carry a conversation really easily. Honestly, I feel like my social skills have kind of peaked. And I'm much more confident in myself.
So once again, the problem is just rejecting myself and insecurities. Gonna keep working on that SMV among other things and then once my confidence comes together this should all click. I can definitely say that I'm much, much happier than when I first started this journal. Even though I'm not all the way there yet.
Less Updates
So the next leg of my journal is gonna be strict self improvement. Because of that, I'm gonna update this journal far less. Unless you guys really just want to hear me ramble on about my life. I'm going to take a whole month or two and just throw it into hardcore self improvement. I'll update this journal if something major happens or if I get laid or something lol. And I'll check back in in a month or two as a way better person and then we can really get this show on the road.
Until then, I'll see y'all!
Pleased with the progress that I've been making so far in my life. Here's an update for you all since I can't really sleep. So I've got Tchaikovsky's 5th Symphony in the background and I'm gonna type this up.
School
Still struggling a bit. But I got a perfect grade back on a speech that I did the other day. So that's good.
Waves
Still growing my hair out. People are commenting that they can see my waves. I'm gonna call myself "The Faded Waver" once I become elite.
Style
Getting lots of compliments on how I dress. I'm loving my new style. I'm not even really wearing expensive name brands or anything like that. I've just gotta keep dressing nicely. And honestly, I'm pretty much there. I do need some new jeans though. And I want to get some Champion Shirts/Hoodies.
Classical Music and Other Things
I'm trying to go back to the nerd that I used to be in terms of genius and productivity. So one of the things I'm doing is listening to classical music again. I don't care about anyone's judgement, it makes me productive as hell.
HB Rache
Well it's weird. She's opening my text messages and not responding now. I'm just gonna raise my game and leave the ball in her court. It's all good.
Cold Approaches... Maxed Out
Wasn't even in a very social mood at work today so I wasn't really gonna approach anyone, especially since I had a test today and I was extremely mentally exhausted. But then in walked an HB 10. Literally exactly my type. Beautiful face, and a FAT ass. I was like I'm gonna be kicking myself if I don't approach. So I find out she's a lawyer too. Literally perfect for me, exactly my type! A lot older than me though. We get to talking, and the conversation goes very smoothly. She says she likes how I dress and she really likes my art, how I'm talking about my violin and own personal songwriting. In the end, I fvck it up and don't get her number cause I have to go back to work. Normally I'd be upset, but I'm really not. Because I realized I now have literally zero approach anxiety now. I wasn't scared one bit. And I can carry a conversation really easily. Honestly, I feel like my social skills have kind of peaked. And I'm much more confident in myself.
So once again, the problem is just rejecting myself and insecurities. Gonna keep working on that SMV among other things and then once my confidence comes together this should all click. I can definitely say that I'm much, much happier than when I first started this journal. Even though I'm not all the way there yet.
Less Updates
So the next leg of my journal is gonna be strict self improvement. Because of that, I'm gonna update this journal far less. Unless you guys really just want to hear me ramble on about my life. I'm going to take a whole month or two and just throw it into hardcore self improvement. I'll update this journal if something major happens or if I get laid or something lol. And I'll check back in in a month or two as a way better person and then we can really get this show on the road.
Until then, I'll see y'all!