nicksaiz65 Odyssey

[nicksaiz65]

2/19/18: I Hate the Way my Life is Going - Reset

Quick little update today. So I ****ed up royally today in my Speech class. I missed a freaking presentation today. I went to the library to print off my notecards before, and all the printers were jammed. Should’ve printed it off the night before. So I’m gonna have to make up this speech. If I even can. SMH.

I’ve been thinking. I’m really not liking the way that my life is going. As of today, I’m hitting the reset button. Gonna do whatever it takes to become the great nicksaiz65. I wanna live the life that I have envisioned: living like a rapper. And I’ve decided that I’m gonna live like a cross of a Don Juan and PUA: just living in luxury. I know exactly what I wanna do with my life, and my inner Game has improved vastly. So now I must put in the work to undo this atrocity of a life I’ve made for myself. From now on, no more fukk ups. No more letting my ego get in the way. I’ll do whatever the heck it takes to live this life that I want.

Also, I’m removing these stupid “I have to come up by this date” time limits. I’m just gonna enjoy the process, do what I can, and come up as fast as possible. I’m realizing that this honestly is a life battle.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Was able to make up that speech. Feel much better!

 

[nicksaiz65]

HBs on that bullshyt again as usual. I’ll update you all on Friday depending on how this goes

 

[nicksaiz65]

2/23/18: Cold Approach 3
Lit as hell laying in bed. So, I figure I might as well do a proper update. Before I talk about the hella cold approaches that I did today, I wanna talk about my life in general.

Orchestra, School, and my Performance
Not happy with the way I’m performing. Got my Linear Algebra Test back today and I made a 70 on it. Which isn’t bad, but I know that I could do better. And we had a concert today where I subbed concertmaster. I was messing up. I’ve got to stop bullshytting, and work harder so I can perform better than average. I must respect the classical music and beats.

My Music is Appreciated
At least I’m getting better at making beats. 3 people told me today that the beats I made are fire. I like the melodies I make, but I just wish that they were mixed better. Which is what I’m doing on the lo-fi hip hop beat that I’m making this week. So this is gonna be one of the many ways that I create my own sauce.

Fashion
I’ve really become intrigued with the way PUAs dress. I’m either gonna dress like that or street style.

Cold Approach
Well, I have 3 new prospects now. I went clubbing today with my friends. Beautiful white women as far as the eye could see. I did 5 cold approaches and got 3 numbers. And the girls seemed to be feeling me too! I won’t go too into detail, but basically I applied everything that I’ve learned from PUA, New Game Plus, RSD, and this site. When I just talk and let the words flow with confidence, everything flows. I’d definitely say I got a confidence boost from this. All the stuff I’ve read worked like a charm. Getting dances left and right, girls feeling me up, being bold. I was fresh as hell too. Space Jam shirt, gold chain, backwards hat, well fitted jeans and red Spalding Basketball shoes. Now if I can just increase my confidence in myself and keep my fashion and waves on point I’ll be on this level of game all the time. But I have a question for you guys. How do I Game party girls after getting their number from the party? Opinions please. I may make a separate thread on this. Long story short, I’m gonna have to be fresh, buff, and chopped every single day after I work on myself though.

Updated Tinder
Updated my Tinder and took down the **** boy pictures like Dr. Nerdlove recommended. And what do you know, I’m getting matches from hot girls left and right. But once again, how do you Game these party girls after the fact? My gut is telling me that coffee dates might not cut it.

New Beats
I’ve reduced my beat output to one a month to give myself tons of time to mix. You guys think that’s enough though?

Getting Guts Tomorrow?
Im hanging out with that HB 5 tomorrow. Hopefully I’ll get laid and she doesn’t hit me with that insecure “I want a relationship” BS. Cause all the improvement is no good if my stroke game is wack and I need practice AND I wanna Break this stupid dry spell.

But that’s it Sosuave fam. Proud of myself. I’ll probably do some more cold approaches tomorrow. But I’m about to brush my waves for an hour, mix my track, and go to bed so I can get up early and study.

 

[nicksaiz65]

2/27/18: Got Some Action!

Really exciting update today, Sosuave fam!

SMV
My SMV is definitely increasing. A lot of girls are commenting on how cute I am. And this is making **** with girls way easier. Just gotta keep raising it.

School
Failed that speech unfortunately. Didn’t cite my sources right. But I’ll bounce right back. It’s midterm week, and I’m stressed as hell.

Fitness
Man have I been bullshytting. Been real busy with school and been drinking too much. I’ll pick it back up as soon as I can do I can actually get lean and cut lol.

Action
So I decided to ditch that HB 5 cause she was totally non-sexual and acting like she was scared of me. But I’ve been talking to another girl called HB Rache. I’ve always wanted this girl, she’s a bit thick too. She recently broke up with her boyfriend. So she’s been sliding up on my Snapchats, telling me I’m cute and ****, and so on. So I was straight up and I was like “come through and I’ll show you how good I am in bed lol.” In the end, we ended up agreeing to nap and study together. Lmao not one bit of studying was done. So we end up in bed together just talking. And we’re making out like crazy. What’s funny is that she was **** testing me the whole time, accusing me of being a player(I accidentally left condoms on my dresser lmao) and so on. But I handled it like a champ. I remembered what I learned from this site and RSD. I was ****y/Funny and didn’t let her break my frame one bit. And in the end, she told me to scoot over and just started sitting on my dyck and grinding on it while pressing her hands against my chest. I could tell she was wet as hell through her pants too. Unfortunately we didn’t end up smashing. She’s only had secks with 2 people, but she says she doesn’t sleep with people unless she’s really really attached to them. She might want a relationship, but idk. I’m not looking for that now, cause I wanna be a Don Juan and build this skill set. It’s cool though. Honestly I really want to hit, and I should be able to if I just keep escalating tbh.

SIDE NOTE: Thank God for the gym. She told me that I looked like a twig and was really awkward my freshman year. But as I gained the muscle she started to notice I was kinda cute

Hair
I verified with HB Rache the hairstyle that I’m trying to rock. She was like the deep waves with the skin fade is really cute. On top of that, she mentioned my beard. Patchy, but most definitely coming in.


Well that’s it, Sosuave fam. But I’ve got a midterm coming up so I gotta log off and go study. I’ve got to have some decent grades this semester no matter what. So I’m about to grind my ass off and then get to it. But now I know that I’m most definitely making progress. See y’all!

 

[Murk]

You should have got your d!ck out of your pants and let her grind on that, could have lead to a bang, or maybe not but worth a try next time. Girls can't resist the feel of a d!ck.

 

[nicksaiz65]

You should have got your d!ck out of your pants and let her grind on that, could have lead to a bang, or maybe not but worth a try next time. Girls can't resist the feel of a d!ck.

Yeah man I’ll give that a shot next time. It’s just crazy to me cause I’ve wanted this girl for a while now lol

 

[nicksaiz65]

2/28/18: Reframe
Just a quick little update today.

Self Cuts:
Gave myself my third self cut today. It came out alright. Honestly, my second cut was better for whatever reason. Not the worst thing in the world, just not as blended as I'd like. Improving my technique though... I'm learning to flick out with my left hand. Gonna DM some barbers. When I get better lighting and I follow the videos verbatim it'll come out like I want it. In the meantime, still brushing.

Focus
I feel like when I try to do 10 million things at once I'm losing my focus as a Don Juan. So I'm gonna focus exclusively on getting lit hair and bodybuilding, in terms of my Don Juan improvement. Also, I'm gonna be out there in the real world more and not post on this journal as much unless something really crazy happens.

 

[nicksaiz65]

3/1/18: Lay Report 1

F’in crazy update today.

Gym
Back in the gym after an extended hiatus. Just as strong as I used to be. Did some cardio after. Drank some muscle milk afterwards, stuff is fire. Gonna start watching my protein count cause I know that I’m not getting enough.

Number Close
Y’all remember HB Letter? She was like “we never hang out?” Got her number today after a nice conversation. We were talking about piercings and it turns out she has her nipples pierced. I kinda wanna see it lmao. She’s definitely a party girl. Best way to game her?

Lay
Now the part y’all are waiting for. Pulled a girl from the club today and got her home and smashed. First time face fvcking someone too. But there’s a problem. I have serious erectile dysfunction. It was all I could do to get hard. I’m addicted to porn, which is really really bad. I’ll give it up completely to be a DJ. Cause this isn’t the first time that this has happened. So I’m gonna start reading up on NoFap, and do the best that I can to keep getting in shape. This along with my self improvement is my main priority. Like without this, I have no bytches lol. I can’t have this happen when I start pulling the bad ones. Also learning that club game is critical, along with Tinder game.

Skills
I need more practice in bed. Like forreal. I’m not good enough, and I’m not physically strong enough either. So I gotta keep lifting, doing cardio, and practicing. HB Rache would be a great place to start.

Nice Guys Finish Last
Gonna stop being “nice.” That **** doesn’t really work.

Well Sosuave, I’ve got my work cut out for me. Improved a level, but got another long way to go. And just thinking... God is most definitely real and alive. See y’all Sosuave fam.

 

[nicksaiz65]

More Late Night Thoughts
It has occurred to me that until I fix these issues I’m totally stuck. So I’m gonna do what The Red Pill suggested... and go totally Monk Mode for the next month. Just grinding. I’ll take pvssy if it falls into my lap(like with HB Rache.)
Gonna do some more research on NoFap. Going for 130 days. Getting myself into excellent shape should help too. I'm putting all my focus into the gym and my passions.

Also, can you all help me with my game? I’ve noticed that sometimes dudes just are straight up savages to girls and are like “come over and fvck.” More of what I’m talking about in regards to not being nice. Opinions?

SIDENOTE: I feel so weak and out of shape. Gonna stop working out on these fvckboy machines. Free weights from now on so that I can USE my strength. I can't totally give up porn and fapping. But step 1, I'm gonna reboot my brain and get in shape. Then, I'm gonna cut it down to once a week maximum and focus on REAL WOMEN lol. Exercising and not fapping 10 million times a day should be a great start and actually give me something to work with here.

 

[nicksaiz65]

3/7/18: Things Are Going Pretty Good, Except for my Grades

Spring Break
So I’ve been working this entire Spring “Break.” Just listening to Nirvana and working on lots of code and stuff like that. Like I said, a working vacation.

Thrifting
Went thrifting again, and got some real nice Polos. Especially this red one and a lime green one that looks great against my skin. Simple yet elegant fashion I suppose.

Definite Lay
So lay wise, I’ve got some guaranteed stuff in front of me. Y’all remember HB Rache? First of all, she’s been telling me she likes my muscles, the way I dress, and I look really sexy. Thanks for the self improvement tips, Sosuave. So we’ve been sexting and we’ve got a dyck appointment set up this Sunday. Turns out she’s a freak just like I thought. She’s talking about some “I need to get a haircut so I can look good riding your dyck” and “I’ll be happy if you just fvck me” and talking about how she wants to give me head. So that’s good and all... but if my erectile dysfunction gets in the way I’m just gonna have to kill myself. So I’m on the NoFap challenge, and I’ve been doing really well. As soon as these programs are done, I’m going to be doing hella cardio to get my blood pumping and mitigate this issue as much as I can.

I can really see the progress that I’m making. Just gotta keep pushing and working towards what I want.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Haircut Update
Gonna post a lot more about relationships in the next couple days cause I got some big moves coming. But I wanted to do a quick haircut update first. I bought a Heaven Lights attachment for my Self Cut System. Makes it sooo much easier when I can actually see what I’m doing. I gave myself the sharpest line up I’ve ever had. Like it looks professional. And when I start fading myself again, these cuts are gonna be fire. So that’ll be another boost towards my looks on this journey.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Not Being a Nice Guy
Typing this before I go out and do some cold approaches. Just 4 things that I've been thinking about.
1.) I'm still acting like a "nice guy." I don't really stick up for myself, and I let myself get hoed on a daily basis. I'm gonna do what Mr. Fingerz said and "stand up for myself, even if it means I have to be a prick." I gotta stop being so worried about other peoples' feelings.
2.) I've shaved off a good amount of my insecurities. But I've got to go even farther on confidence building. So I'm just gonna stay on that self improvement path. Basically, I need to boost my SMV some more and my confidence will go up with it.
3.) So y'all remember my ex-oneitis? She's getting MARRIED to her boyfriend. At 20 years old. But it's all good, I feel literally nothing for her anymore. Shoutout to @fastlife , your advice about breaking that fantasy in my head was totally accurate.
4.) This really is gonna take a while to get where I want to be. Still trying to break that mentality of "oh, I've got to come up by this point in time." I'm just gonna let time go on as I become a Don Juan.

 

[nicksaiz65]

3/19/18: Post St. Patrick's Day Update

Well guys, it's been a while since I've updated this journal properly. Meant to do this on St. Patrick's day but I had a lot of homework and I was drunk as hell lol. So here's a huge update.

School
So I've been doing a lot better on this. I gave a speech today and my teacher told me that it was one of the best speeches she had heard this week. It's gonna be a crazy week, I've got so much stuff due. So I've gotta keep working hard. I've actually been taking breaks as well so I can keep my sanity. Just 20-30 minutes of playing my 3DS. And it's helping on cutting down on my stress.

NoFap
Doing the NoFap Challenge still. I've relapsed once, but I'm building up my streak again and running lots as well. So hopefully I will see the benefits from that soon.

Fashion
Honestly, I really have come a long way in renovating the way I dress. I'm almost done. All I need to do is get maybe one or two more pairs of shoes, and
get some new jeans. Ripped jeans and Street Style jeans especially. Then I'm gonna go in on the "ice" accessories. Chains and watches that look good but are actually really cheap. Buying some fresh wavy T-Shirts so that I can look fresh this upcoming summer. Gotta stay looking sharp.

Waves and Haircuts
After watching some hair livestreams, I've decided to cut at a 3 WTG. A lot of hair, yes, but if I can pull it off I'll be dipping on these hoes even with coarse hair... like PB said it'll almost look like my waves are glued on. I need that clout in my life. I'm still practicing self cuts. I DMed the person who made the haircut tutorial I was watching and sent him a picture. He told me that my cuts were dope. All I have to do is master the lineup and I'll be good. So whenever I get the money I need to invest in a straight razor so I can get these really crisp lineups.

Workouts
Once again I've been dropping the ball here. But I'm getting back on these push-ups and running workouts today(quick workouts because I have a ton of tests.) I've been thinking about it, and the reason my self-esteem is still kinda low is partially due to this. So I know I've said this before, but workouts and my hair are gonna be the keys to boosting me to the next level in pickup and life.

Dropped a Plate
I was talking to this girl from the club named HB Kenzie from the club. But it turns out she's a lesbian. Oops. LOL

HB Rache
This girl real deal wants to date me. And honestly, I don't even know. She was like she doesn't want to fvck just cause, cause that's "dirty." She hasn't been messing with me as much lately, but she does have 2 engineering tests this week. So that's understandable. Consistent sex practice would be really good for me and I could glow up a ton in the meantime. But idk if I wanna be in a relationship or not, I gotta think about it. Plus I lowkey feel like I could do even better????

My General Self Esteem
Just working hard to raise this, man, cause it's really holding me back. I've definitely improved on this level but I'm hitting a plateau again. So what will break the plateau is getting waves and losing my gut. Which means I'm gonna have to start running more, drinking less, and be more responsible and CONSISTENT.

Cold Approach 4
This was the night of St. Patrick's day. Playing at a bar. There were so many bad white hoes out there that it was nearly unbelievable. This helps with my abundance mentality too. I was feeling really down and awkward that night. So I told myself that I was going to be extremely extroverted and social. I was gonna talk to hella people that I didn't know, both guys and girls. And I did a really job. Everyone was really friendly with me and they liked me. I wasn't scared one bit, and I'm really starting to get the hang of this cold approach. Honestly, I'm probably gonna end up just getting me a really bad white girl. That would fit my archetype/game/personality best and sometimes the level of pettiness of black people really kills me.

But yeah, there's a bigass update for y'all. Just steady working hard to improve my life. I would say the quality has increased, but I've got to break through to the next level.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Well that bad white girl I cold approached left me on read twice lmao. Looks like it’s time to get back in the lab and work on my confidence and SMV again. Gonna read up on some text Game before I make my comeback too

 

[marmel75]

True. I wanna be big but at the same time I want definition, like I wanna be able to see my abs. I’m 5’ 10. Is 205 at 7% bodyfat realistic? Idk what that would look like. Something like Zyzz or GymShark would be the ultimate goal

If you arent planning on using steroids that's completely unrealistic.

 

[nicksaiz65]

If you arent planning on using steroids that's completely unrealistic.

Thanks for letting me know lol. Honestly as long as I have some muscle on me, I can see my abs, and I can fight people that come for me I'll be good. Can you recommend me a good squat bench deadlift to shoot for so I can be respectably strong?

 

[nicksaiz65]

that zeez kid is dead from the roids btw.

also, muscles dont win you fights. this has been and is continously proven over and over again

Yeah it's really sad. I thought about doing roids at one point but the side effects just aren't worth it. I'll take a smaller aesthetic body, thanks.

So what should I work on so I'm able to defend myself? General athleticism? Basically how would one learn to fight decently

 

[marmel75]

Thanks for letting me know lol. Honestly as long as I have some muscle on me, I can see my abs, and I can fight people that come for me I'll be good. Can you recommend me a good squat bench deadlift to shoot for so I can be respectably strong?

Rule of thumb is you should be able to bench your body weight 10 times, squat 1.5 times your body weight 10 times and deadlift 1.75 times your body weight 10 times to be considered respectably strong.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Note to self: use compliments more sparingly on girls just like the DJ Bible says. I've been using them too often and it's making my game worse.

Also, I've been doing some soul searching lately. I'm a bit awkward yes, but overall my social skills are good enough to get me through most situations. The real issue is that I don't feel worthy when I'm talking to these beautiful girls or even when I'm hanging around "Alpha Males."

I had mentioned scattered focus before. So it's time to play the self improvement game. 1 hour of brushing a day, gym 5 times a week. That's all I'm working on for Don Juan. And getting girl experience in the meantime.