I would post pictures of us on the first date if I didn't care about being anonymous.
Why? There is also a problem that I broke my over 2 year long nofap recently, so I'm probably going to be sh1t in bed. Plus my d1ck hurt a little and was a little red when I fücked her, and I haven't used the cream I bought because I wasn't anticipating sex in the near future. The reasons I broke my nofap are the following. It started when two average looking Chinese tourists gave me looks, they seemed interested, but I didn't approach because my stomach was bad. Later at home I was horny as fück and by just fantasizing about those two women and flexing some muscles in my stomach or something I came after a few minutes. Might have contributed that I had just drunk half a liter or something of water. After this happened I got kind of obsessed with the idea of being able to cüm without touching your d1ck and by only fantasizing. I thought I probably broke the nofap that time I came without touching my d1ck anyway, so I stupidly wanted to try to cüm by only fantasizing. Didn't succeed but I came without touching the d1ck, looking at pictures and flexing stomach muscles, flexing all my body, holding my breath, shaking, etc. Then after this it just escalated, I didn't give a fück, started watching porn again and jerking off to it. I've done that several times this week. I'm feeling negative effects for sure so my plan is to start nofap+noporn again the week after the next, so in a little over a week from now. The reason I don't start it now is that I want to try fapping while drinking, because I tried that like once or twice before I started nofap over two years ago, and then I didn't have a chance to try it again and it was kind of good. I wonder why I didn't try it during all those years before I did nofap. I don't know if it was exacerbated by the fapping and porn watching, but when I drove to the liquor store to buy wine an hour ago I saw two really hot women in the garage in my apartment building and then one really hot woman crossed the street near me along the route, I was fücking raging intensely inside, just wanted to cry, I mean I always feel this way when I see hot women, because it reminds me of how unattainable they are to me, but maybe it was worse today, don't know. Anyway, should I reply to this b1tch? I don't think I will, but maybe someone can convince me otherwise.
