I recently read "the book of pook" and discovered this forum, and have had a wonderful time till now. Got insights, figured out what I was doing wrong in life, how to handle specific situations etc. And I have noticed that I have found my own inner voice. But for any successful endavour in life, a base needs to be set and it needs to be strong. And I have noticed is that my base needs work. A lot. This is the first time I am opening up in my life.
A little background, I grew up in a family which was mostly unhappy. Marriage between my parents was unhappy and they were only together because of me and my sister. My father didn't talk much to me, and only told me to study. He didn't care about what I wanted but only gave me what he wanted to do. I didn't like to sketch, he made me do it. I wanted to learn guitar but he got a keyboard and insisted I learn that. Since I was weak in studies he natrually assumed I was a looser in life ( and that's what I grew up listening ever since 5th grade till an year back ). Due to this I gravitated towards my mother, and since she was also unhappy she kind of influenced me and my sister.
Things took a bad turn when my father quit his job and started a business. It failed! And desperate for money he took the first thing that came. And he was in that job until he ways layed off. He started another business which failed as well. And my mother, being very emotional, wouldn't last at a job for more than 6 months.
Due to all this happening around me, I started living in my fantasy bubble more and more. I started becoming lazy. Everyday after school I would live in this fantasy, that I was rich, had the best of cars, my school crush living with me etc. I started neglecting everything for that fantasy. Family, studies, personal health etc. And moreover my friends during school days were mostly loosers as well. Which kind of made me socially awkward as well. And since in my fantasy i was king, sometimes I would enact my fantasy outside, acting cool and stuff, and that would attract attention of other people who would kind of bully me. I was bullied quite considerably for many reasons. I was weak, a lot. I was always advised in life to not fight just accept and move on.
To pass time during school days I started reading lots of fantasy books and watching disney movies which reenforced my fantasy even more.
Anyways, this was my school days, come college. I decide I will change, I will improve. So I tried to hang with the cool kids ( in my defination, cool groups are the one which good looking chicks, strong, sporty, smart dudes, rich kids etc! ), and got accepted in that group. They became good friends. ( Some of them currently are good friends ). But even in that group I noticed I became more closer to the "loosers" like me in the group. College was collectively better than school. But I still felt insecure and gravitated towards my fantasy. I became an introvert. A big one. I wanted to be alone. I had 2 roommates and I ended up picking fights with both.
And on top of that, I liked this girl, she was a good friend, but by the 3rd year I was crazy about her. Thinking about her all day. But she ended up dating alpha of the group, who is really popular. And he is one of my best friend as well. But due to his alpha nature, the girl he has, and opportunities he always had, I became jealous of him, and kind of stopped talking to him. I found out the girl and the alpha have broken up and I try all the nice guy stuff for the girl but as we all know it doesn't work right? They both rekindled the relationship. And that made feel like a looser big time again. Anyways the alpha reconnected with me and became bros again.
i passed out of college last year, and worked at a dead end job I hated. Due to all this I had always assumed I was looser until I read "48 laws of power". That changed me. After that I read the "game" and "mastery". These 3 books together gave me hope and answers whichI was looking for.
So, I quit that job, as I want to start my own business. I am learning more and more everyday. That's when I found out about "Book of Pook" absolutely loved it. And came to this forum with the mindset that:
I want to change! I want to improve my life. Every aspect of it for the better.
Anyways my question is: after being a looser my entire life, being surrounded by failures my entire life, what do I do to improve? What areas do I improve first? How do I become a better people's person. How do I get my life back in order? How do I become a mature person? How do I increase my self respect?
Because what I realise is that due to my upbringing my base isn't strong. I want to improve on it first. Make myself an Alpha Man!
A little background, I grew up in a family which was mostly unhappy. Marriage between my parents was unhappy and they were only together because of me and my sister. My father didn't talk much to me, and only told me to study. He didn't care about what I wanted but only gave me what he wanted to do. I didn't like to sketch, he made me do it. I wanted to learn guitar but he got a keyboard and insisted I learn that. Since I was weak in studies he natrually assumed I was a looser in life ( and that's what I grew up listening ever since 5th grade till an year back ). Due to this I gravitated towards my mother, and since she was also unhappy she kind of influenced me and my sister.
Things took a bad turn when my father quit his job and started a business. It failed! And desperate for money he took the first thing that came. And he was in that job until he ways layed off. He started another business which failed as well. And my mother, being very emotional, wouldn't last at a job for more than 6 months.
Due to all this happening around me, I started living in my fantasy bubble more and more. I started becoming lazy. Everyday after school I would live in this fantasy, that I was rich, had the best of cars, my school crush living with me etc. I started neglecting everything for that fantasy. Family, studies, personal health etc. And moreover my friends during school days were mostly loosers as well. Which kind of made me socially awkward as well. And since in my fantasy i was king, sometimes I would enact my fantasy outside, acting cool and stuff, and that would attract attention of other people who would kind of bully me. I was bullied quite considerably for many reasons. I was weak, a lot. I was always advised in life to not fight just accept and move on.
To pass time during school days I started reading lots of fantasy books and watching disney movies which reenforced my fantasy even more.
Anyways, this was my school days, come college. I decide I will change, I will improve. So I tried to hang with the cool kids ( in my defination, cool groups are the one which good looking chicks, strong, sporty, smart dudes, rich kids etc! ), and got accepted in that group. They became good friends. ( Some of them currently are good friends ). But even in that group I noticed I became more closer to the "loosers" like me in the group. College was collectively better than school. But I still felt insecure and gravitated towards my fantasy. I became an introvert. A big one. I wanted to be alone. I had 2 roommates and I ended up picking fights with both.
And on top of that, I liked this girl, she was a good friend, but by the 3rd year I was crazy about her. Thinking about her all day. But she ended up dating alpha of the group, who is really popular. And he is one of my best friend as well. But due to his alpha nature, the girl he has, and opportunities he always had, I became jealous of him, and kind of stopped talking to him. I found out the girl and the alpha have broken up and I try all the nice guy stuff for the girl but as we all know it doesn't work right? They both rekindled the relationship. And that made feel like a looser big time again. Anyways the alpha reconnected with me and became bros again.
i passed out of college last year, and worked at a dead end job I hated. Due to all this I had always assumed I was looser until I read "48 laws of power". That changed me. After that I read the "game" and "mastery". These 3 books together gave me hope and answers whichI was looking for.
So, I quit that job, as I want to start my own business. I am learning more and more everyday. That's when I found out about "Book of Pook" absolutely loved it. And came to this forum with the mindset that:
I want to change! I want to improve my life. Every aspect of it for the better.
Anyways my question is: after being a looser my entire life, being surrounded by failures my entire life, what do I do to improve? What areas do I improve first? How do I become a better people's person. How do I get my life back in order? How do I become a mature person? How do I increase my self respect?
Because what I realise is that due to my upbringing my base isn't strong. I want to improve on it first. Make myself an Alpha Man!
