Lolol Exactly. Hindsight is 20/20. He probably didn't even know what BPD was before he came on this forum and now he is an expert. Not cool.
I'm 39, I've had enough ***** for two lifetimes.
The problem is not blinded by ***** the problem is blinded by the fact that once you are bonded then these little things aren't just here and there where you blow them off for not being perfect anymore, but instead they start popping up more and more as time goes on. I didnt get gaslighted until over a year in.
She even told me about 18 months in that she no longer just keeps things to herself to keep from having problems anymore, she cant help it the impulsivity takes over more and more. My thinking is what the hell do we have problems about things are GREAT. LITTLE DID i know the cluster b sabatoages everything. She even told me she is her own worst enemy.
The day would be great and by late night she would just always find a way to start a fight. Even going to bed. She'd wake me up at 1am and leave my house because she was bothered by something, Like what the fuchk is wrong with u that u cant iust talk or tell me???? 3am driving 45 mins home for NO reason. I would be in shock. Like what the fruck just happened???
At least 15x just up and leave in 3.5 years.
It's unreal you feel baffled.
Then u get a call and the appolgies come and they are genuine and she truly loves you and this and that.
I cant tell you how many times for no reason she would get mad, up and leave, call me 3 hours later and want to drive all the way back to stay with me. At first i let her many times because she was genuinely sufferring and i believed she loved me, but then after awhile i would tell her NO you bailed on me like im a pos so i dont want u to come back. This worked for awhile.
Doesnt matter as they cant control themselves.
Last summer my kid wrecked his four wheeler, fractured his skull TBI and life flighted for life saving surgery. He was in a coma for 3 days and in the hospital rehab for 9 when his hands and entire face went numb and he couldnt see so they transferred him to the ER for ct scans and lumbar punctures to see if his cerebralspinal Fluid was infected. Anyways we were there 7 hours. My sister came and works 3rd shift so she woke up at 4pm that day and i had been up for 24 hours straight so we decided once he is back in a normal room she would stay w him to keep an eye on red flags and i would go sleep as she was wide awake. Anyways i went to my moms house at 330 am as it was closer. My ex called me at 8am the next day and i answered my phone told her what happen and was at my moms and SHE ACCUSED ME OF BEING WITH A GIRL CHEATING AND BROKE UP W ME. This was the hardest time of my life. I waited hours to see if my son survived the sx, then he was in a coma 3 days then took another 4 to move his right side of his body b4 i knew if the brain damage to the left brain was permanent.
She dumped me for being at my moms, i said my mom is right here u can talk to her or call the home phone here and i will answer it.
She raged and dumped me.
8 hours later she called me yelling at me that i dont care that its over, i said my kid almost died we were in the ER 7 hours which u knew b4 u went to bed, i am yet to know if my kid is permantly damaged for life and u break up w me accusing me when i need u most u do this. She begged me to forgive her telling me she cant control herself and her mouth.
A month ago an odd situation occurs and i ask her about it and she tells me i do nothing but cause problems and ignores me for 4 days, discards me then calls the next to get back together, tried for 4 days straight and i attacked the chit out of her NO F her terrible treatment of me that she is awful to me in every regard, and told her if i find out she was cheating on me good luck when u see me in person with your new guy. Good luck. And have ignored her since.
Point is it took me till now to get away from her when i should have last summer when i almost lost my kid and was losing my mind instead of her being there for me she dumps me accusing me of being w a girl because i slept at my moms just causing me MORE stress. I didnt becauae i allowed myself to think that i knew she has issues she cant control and doesnt mean to be like this.
Either way they just ruin your life.
I'm a tough dude in and out, been thro hell and back, i ran into a room at 3am and found my dad who was my hero passed away and couldn't save him. which as horrible as that is, these cluster b's will cause you near that same suffering for years. It's a sufferring beyond belief.
NOW REMEMBER AT THIS TIME THIS GIRL THINKS I AM THE PROBLEM.
The cluster b's are so mentally ill they dont even know the extent of it.
Terrifying
