BPD's can control their behavior…they choose not to

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Maybe I missed it, but is she the mother of your child?

Her behavior is absolutely disgusting! Offering her new BF to fix your car is the ultimate form of disrespect.

Once you experience that euphoria with them, you can see that glow in their face with their new supply. My male friend has BPD and I saw that same exact glow in his face with his new GF. He is 42, but looked and acted like a child around her. I now see she has BPD or some other Cluster B disorder after chatting with her all night.

Something similar happened to my buddy. He tried to get his ex BPD back after 5 months of NC. I told him not to contact her, as he will see her true self, the cold hearted side. Well, lets just say I was spot on, as she was so cold to him he called me immediately after crying. That same night she posted a handful of pics on her FB with her new man that he later found out she was talking to while they were dating (not surprised) and also changed her profile pic of a selfie of them. He cried non stop all night in utter shock. He was so brainwashed to think he could actually get her back and that she would listen to what he had to say. Two days before she left him she asked him to get her pregnant and they were also engaged.

I'm still, after all these months, trying to wrap my head around some of her blatant disrespectful behavior. Her thinking its ok for her male friend to sleep over and get drunk with me not there. That's the kind of crap I dealt with and that brings me such great shame in myself for not leaving the countless times I tried. The triangulation she put me through was utter hell on earth. Hated her for the way she was able to suck me back into their toxic vortex after the chit she pulled. Throwing me love bombing crumbs to make me think she is still that person, begging me not to leave her, only for her abuse to get worse and worse.

Telling me to marry for the 100th time just days before she moved, when in fact she had "zero" intentions and started dating the new guy days after that.

She played me so well in the end I truly feel sick everyday for falling for it all hook line and sinker. She only kept me around to help her pack, move things and not be alone in that apt. Future faking about her and I buying a house together the following year, showing me texts of mom saying she cant wait to meet me and spend Xmas with them.

Long story short, I kept chasing her for a week after she left, taking her crumbs, then I blew up on her saying she was selfish for leading me on and giving me the silent treatment when I did nothing wrong, then her saying "shes tired of walking on eggs shells with me, better we dont date anymore" Then I found a piece of paper in my bag clothes a week later that said "I love you, try not to forget me". Thats when it hit me in the face she used me and had zero intentions of a future. I cried for weeks thinking it was all my fault. If it wasn't for her friend telling me about her past, I probably would have continued to chase her for God knows how long.

I should have never taken her back the last time I broke up with her, could have saved myself a world of extra pain/abuse and let her suffer in that apt alone thinking about what she did.
Don't beat yourself up. These women are master manipulators and experts at finding a mark. They follow a script that works and there's no shame in falling for it. Most of us go into these relationship with open minds and hearts, because we are good people.

Yeah I fvcked up and had a kid with her. She didn't show the volatile traits usually associated with low function BPD's. which had me fooled. I contributed her antics of having being married to an abusive narcissist for 18 years. That can screw anybody up. Now I see they were a perfect match. It's only after I left I started to connect the dots and do the research. I'm not a professional psychiatrist nor am I some wounded ex trying to find excuses for heartbreak and mistreatment. She fits the waif down to a fault.

1. Extreme fear of abandonment
2. Self harming cutting her toenails until they bleed
3. Perpetual victim (Everybody has always been mean to me)
4. Distorted reality of what happens during arguments and what was being said, including imagined physical threat from me (imagining me getting very close to her face with a pointed finger) when I was across the room.
Always in denial about her involvement and the skewed manipulative ways of a master, she would argue her points so well, you'd think you were the one causing all issues. I really had to sometimes think hard of what was said and done, because they didn't match her 'facts', I thought I was getting Alzheimers
5. Telling me 'saving her' or 'picking her up' if you will was something she would always need from me.
6. all kinds of physical ailments flaring up at random times, including intestinal problems that would cause them to inflate making her look pregnant one minute and flat the other (she probably faked it). Had specialists stumped.
7. Horror stories about her ex, meant to elicit sympathy and to recruit me as capt-save-a-ho
8. Heroin addicted/prostitute mother/criminal father both ignoring her and neglecting her since birth
9. Sexually abused by a friend of the family at an early age
10. Gradually increasing my workload for the family to the point I was doing 70% of taking care of the family chores, while still complaining I didn't do enough. This was to prove my love and caring
11. Shaming/Guilting me for having my hobbies, which I let go of.
12. 15+ recycles
13. Extremely moody
14. High conflict personality. Even lost her job and had to be relocated because of conflicts.

I can keep it going but you get the point. I lost my identity and got a depression because I completely disappeared in her world. I was guilted/shamed into giving more than a human can give.

She became completely psychotic towards the end when I broke up for the last time. Banging her head against the wall, falling on her knees begging, crying and pleading, switching to all out rage of pushing me and flipping over the dinner table. Running after me screaming outside like a crazy person. She really scared the sh!t out of me.

The first month picking up and bringing my son back, she would tell me how she couldn't move her fingers in the morning from all the moving she had been doing, She would wear skirts or shorts so I could see her completely bruised legs, which she claimed was from not getting help moving and having to do it herself. Yet there was always 2 or 3 people around helping her.

I never begged her back after the last breakup. I did apologize once for how I left. I told her I didn't love her anymore and I was sick and tired of her 3 kids (not my own). Kids I had taken in as my own in that relationship. I didn't just leave, I slammed that door well and shut.

As I said I'm not qualified to give diagnosis's but I'm 1000% certain myself.
 
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Heartless psycho.

One thing i can not tolerate would be cheating or talking to another guy. The fighter in me takes over and I'm insane with disgust. Couldnt touch a girl ever again if i wanted.
Im the same way. Thing is, 90% of her friends were males. I felt like I was competing against an army of men trying to bang my girl for two years. I became so mentally drained, confused, mad, sad and helpless almost the entire time. The friend I mentioned who slept over was a co worker she worked with for years and assured from the start he's just a friend (yeah right). Her friend also told me after it was over she never slept with him, as she would have told her.

I tried so many times to find solid proof of her physical cheating, but never did. I'm sure if I kept digging I would have, but I became so exhausted from trying and became afraid of getting caught. While she did cheat emotionally many times, that alone should have been enough for me walk away for good. The night her male friend slept over, which was more than twice mind you, the next day when I yelled at her about it, she automatically said "he slept on the couch". I knew it was lie, but she kept gas lighting me to believe her BS. Any sane man would have walked away. This male friend of hers was my nightmare from the get go. I met him a few times, never felt threaten by him. I drove to her work at 4am one night and caught them drinking at her bar when she said there was a maintenance man fixing the fridge.

Looking back, I must have been the weakest pu$$y in both their eyes, knowing she is giving him her time, lying about where she is, lying about her smoking and drinking, and that must of felt superior to me cause of it. Part of me wanted to break his face, but knew if I did, I probably would have killed him. Her friend told me my ex has a way of manipulating men to believe I probably said it ok for them to hang out. This whole situation has been the most gut wrenching, heart break and painful experience of my entire life, that feels like Im actually going to drop dead from the stress it continues to cause my mind.

Being my STD didn't show up till a year and half in the relationship, I've wondered if she caught it from cheating. I reached out to her ex before me to see if he caught from her as well, but I doubt he will respond as its been years since thy dated. No idea why Im wasting my time trying to figure it out. Im with you, If I knew for certain she cheated, I would have never ever went back no matter how much I loved her.

25,% of women don't have bpd lol that's crazy to even suggest.
It says 25-50% female "inmates" has bpd.

Maybe he is referring to women who are in prison? If thats the case, it makes the figure more believable. But in real life, no way is that figure correct.

Don't beat yourself up. These women are master manipulators and experts at finding a mark. They follow a script that works and there's no shame in falling for it. Most of us go into these relationship with open minds and hearts, because we are good people.

Yeah I fvcked up and had a kid with her. She didn't show the volatile traits usually associated with low function BPD's. which had me fooled. I contributed her antics of having being married to an abusive narcissist for 18 years. That can screw anybody up. Now I see they were a perfect match. It's only after I left I started to connect the dots and do the research. I'm not a professional psychiatrist nor am I some wounded ex trying to find excuses for heartbreak and mistreatment. She fits the waif down to a fault.
So tell us, how is it having a kid with a BPD? Is it like they say.....a death sentence?
 
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Inmates as in prison. Nobody can give any real estimate how many cluster b types are out there. Not only are they hard to diagnose, most don't seek treatment. You can have BPD without substance abuse/criminal tendencies/suicidal or other traits that will land you on a T's radar. If they are able to be on the spectrum where they can function and consider themselves normal, then I don't see how it can accurately be statistically measured
 

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As for how it is having a kid with her? 3 months in and so far so good except for the occasional rubbing it in my face she has moved on to a new replacement. I'm lucky she takes high pride in being a perfect mom. I just have to not rock the boat, because she will most likely paint me black to anybody who will listen if I get on her bad side. Hence why I've told her he needs to be ready when I get there, to keep contact with her at a minimum. I gave her a BS excuse of me missing her and how hard it is to move on, to make sure I don't end up being split. I've seen her do it first hand with her ex husband, which in fairness he deserved. Worst deadbeat dad I've ever come across
 

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As for how it is having a kid with her? 3 months in and so far so good except for the occasional rubbing it in my face she has moved on to a new replacement. I'm lucky she takes high pride in being a perfect mom. I just have to not rock the boat, because she will most likely paint me black to anybody who will listen if I get on her bad side. Hence why I've told her he needs to be ready when I get there, to keep contact with her at a minimum. I gave her a BS excuse of me missing her and how hard it is to move on, to make sure I don't end up being split. I've seen her do it first hand with her ex husband, which in fairness he deserved. Worst deadbeat dad I've ever come across
Usually their first set of kids are with a narc or alpha who abandons them. Then they seek a beta for support then try to trap them with another child.

Hopefully things stay cool between you two and the kid grows up with little to no drama.

A friend dated a BPD with two kids from a previous marriage. She was introducing her kids to every new man she was with. Kids started getting confused with each new man it was sad to hear the stories. The kids dad kept trying to get her back, but she kept blowing him off. He finally became so sick and tired of her reckless behavior, lies and manipulation, that he hired a lawyer and is going to drag her through hell in court. She has no money for a lawyer, so she will probably get screwed.

Looking back, thank goodness I had an abortion with her, no way in hell could I have ever survived being a parent with her. Had I gone thru with it, the pain of seeing her with countless new men, on top of my child being exposed to that, her drug and alcohol abuse would have eaten me alive down to my very core.
 

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Im the same way. Thing is, 90% of her friends were males. I felt like I was competing against an army of men trying to bang my girl for two years. I became so mentally drained, confused, mad, sad and helpless almost the entire time. The friend I mentioned who slept over was a co worker she worked with for years and assured from the start he's just a friend (yeah right). Her friend also told me after it was over she never slept with him, as she would have told her.

I tried so many times to find solid proof of her physical cheating, but never did. I'm sure if I kept digging I would have, but I became so exhausted from trying and became afraid of getting caught. While she did cheat emotionally many times, that alone should have been enough for me walk away for good. The night her male friend slept over, which was more than twice mind you, the next day when I yelled at her about it, she automatically said "he slept on the couch". I knew it was lie, but she kept gas lighting me to believe her BS. Any sane man would have walked away. This male friend of hers was my nightmare from the get go. I met him a few times, never felt threaten by him. I drove to her work at 4am one night and caught them drinking at her bar when she said there was a maintenance man fixing the fridge.

Looking back, I must have been the weakest pu$$y in both their eyes, knowing she is giving him her time, lying about where she is, lying about her smoking and drinking, and that must of felt superior to me cause of it. Part of me wanted to break his face, but knew if I did, I probably would have killed him. Her friend told me my ex has a way of manipulating men to believe I probably said it ok for them to hang out. This whole situation has been the most gut wrenching, heart break and painful experience of my entire life, that feels like Im actually going to drop dead from the stress it continues to cause my mind.

Being my STD didn't show up till a year and half in the relationship, I've wondered if she caught it from cheating. I reached out to her ex before me to see if he caught from her as well, but I doubt he will respond as its been years since thy dated. No idea why Im wasting my time trying to figure it out. Im with you, If I knew for certain she cheated, I would have never ever went back no matter how much I loved her.



It says 25-50% female "inmates" has bpd.

Maybe he is referring to women who are in prison? If thats the case, it makes the figure more believable. But in real life, no way is that figure correct.



So tell us, how is it having a kid with a BPD? Is it like they say.....a death sentence?
FUCCCKK HER.

Lying and having guys sleep over is crossing lines and unacceptable.

That is all YOU need to let go and move on.

I know it's hard but let that slvt go.

Mine was super jealous and controlling.
That was her problem among being beyond selfish, i mean beyond.

Let her GO!! Such a liar.

Dont waste any more energy searching for cheating that will just hurt you. Keep venting here but stop looking for more hurt.

Im hurting with ya, stay strong
 

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I never understood mine.. it would always be the most craziest time because night silent evening I'm home and so is she.. then I would get a text from her that she took a screen shot of some random girl on my Instagram page and she demands to know who is she.. I'm like what the hell? I'm guessing when things are too smooth they have to disrupt the flow of things.. the crazy thing was I knew she just pulled her up out of thin air because she's never posted to me nor have I ever posted to her.. Of course after that I ignored her and that pissed her off again.
 

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I never understood mine.. it would always be the most craziest time because night silent evening I'm home and so is she.. then I would get a text from her that she took a screen shot of some random girl on my Instagram page and she demands to know who is she.. I'm like what the hell? I'm guessing when things are too smooth they have to disrupt the flow of things.. the crazy thing was I knew she just pulled her up out of thin air because she's never posted to me nor have I ever posted to her.. Of course after that I ignored her and that pissed her off again.
They are CHAOS not harmony.

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They are CHAOS not harmony.

Always
Hey I wonder if your ex was the same as mine she would ask me often "why do you love me?" After like the 4th time in a 2 month span I started to get annoyed she always wanted the next time I answered to be more elaborate then the next
 

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Hey I wonder if your ex was the same as mine she would ask me often "why do you love me?" After like the 4th time in a 2 month span I started to get annoyed she always wanted the next time I answered to be more elaborate then the next
No it was more of asking more and more and more of me while giving nothing and if i didnt do as she said or give her every second of me she would respond with rage or anger or punishment for not letting her control me.

Tried to control me from the gym. Not gonna happen.
Tried to control me from hanging with buddies, shame me , accuse me. Nope not happening
 

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this is a pre lexapro rant i had against my wife

you know what she did lol? like i had asked her to met me at basket robins cause i was bored and she was at the gym and didn't feel like stopping her workout

http://prntscr.com/g85ntx

dude when i take it there i take it there lol.


she knew by now not to take it personally and 30 mins later we just pretend like it doesn't happen lol.


but it really doesn't happen all that much any more


i legit have a mental disease i get so pissed my mind goes blank and i just type and say ****
 

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this is a pre lexapro rant i had against my wife

you know what she did lol? like i had asked her to met me at basket robins cause i was bored and she was at the gym and didn't feel like stopping her workout

http://prntscr.com/g85ntx

dude when i take it there i take it there lol.


she knew by now not to take it personally and 30 mins later we just pretend like it doesn't happen lol.


but it really doesn't happen all that much any more


i legit have a mental disease i get so pissed my mind goes blank and i just type and say ****
Yes that is def not normal.
Mine did as well, she would go off like this all the time, just ridiculous flippiing out for no reasons.
Then she would follow with punishing me severely
 
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So I ended up watching the exes snap and I guess she's getting backlash or whatever she says people are noisy looking at her social media and if she posts something it's not meaning she wants your opinion.. not sure who she's directing it to as I haven't been on Facebook in almost a month I wonder if it's people seeing her patterns? I doubt it however
 

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Ha typical trying to get a reaction out of me she said two things if she's already jumped in another relationship she had to show he got her something at Victoria secret I wonder what makes these girls follow the same pattern. I'm sure as hell don't care I like working on my car and that's what really started pissing her off.. she pretty much told me to stop buying stuff however I rebuilt the motor in my Subaru Legacy entirely that costs money.. she would always try to distract me by having me come out to see her and spend money at least $120+ when I started to watch the patterns and close my wallet she went and told my mom I'm being cheap. I also noticed another thing she used the car as her way of control because I had no car I could not get around so easy when I started working on it that's when it was slipping from her. I told her about that and she was like that's not true blah blah same ole stuff they normally say
 

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The only difference with me is I'm aware that is not normal behavior. I've even caught myself a few times from doing bpd ****. Undiagnosed u literally think everyone is the devil
 

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I think my ex is back to playing games again.. on her snap shes says shes trying to catch a train to a town that's over from the one I work at.. I know it by the back of my hand and it's nothing to do or see because it's so small I don't think shes planning on going and it's just a way of her trying to bate me.. I'm keeping my ass home.. Again she saw I was making progress on my car and I'm sure if she really did come it would be like hang out, lets go to the store and blah blah.. next thing you know I already spent $120..

Since she changed her number I wont get the 3 pages of texts so I don't have that to worry about.
 

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I think my ex is back to playing games again.. on her snap shes says shes trying to catch a train to a town that's over from the one I work at.. I know it by the back of my hand and it's nothing to do or see because it's so small I don't think shes planning on going and it's just a way of her trying to bate me.. I'm keeping my ass home.. Again she saw I was making progress on my car and I'm sure if she really did come it would be like hang out, lets go to the store and blah blah.. next thing you know I already spent $120..

Since she changed her number I wont get the 3 pages of texts so I don't have that to worry about.
I blocked my bpd ex on Facebook. It's great. She doesn't even show up on likes on mutual frriends posts.
 

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I blocked my bpd ex on Facebook. It's great. She doesn't even show up on likes on mutual frriends posts.
I would block mine, but that would show her, she has some kind of power over me. Fvck that. She can suck his cawk on her profile picture and I still wouldn't block. There's no way I'm giving her the satisfaction
 

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I would block mine, but that would show her, she has some kind of power over me. Fvck that. She can suck his cawk on her profile picture and I still wouldn't block. There's no way I'm giving her the satisfaction
Not only that...but why the fvck would you want to block a hoover attempt?
 

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I would block mine, but that would show her, she has some kind of power over me. Fvck that. She can suck his cawk on her profile picture and I still wouldn't block. There's no way I'm giving her the satisfaction
You got it backwards. Blocking her shows you've moved on, not blocking her shows you're open for a hoover and not over her.
 
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