englishman
Master Don Juan
Todays Saturday and I got up 11am, rode my bicycle to an appointment, then rode it around town.
It's a sunny day and I fell asleep on a bench in a quiet spot I know, when I woke up I went for a sauna.
Came out the sauna, ate, fell asleep on the bench again for 20 minutes.
Rode my bike around again and now I'm home with a couple of beers in the fridge and I probably won't be going out anywhere tonight.
I work in construction and almost always crash out after work for about half hour, and I'm always tired. My joints ache, my neck always aches from an accident I had and my eye is messed up from a nail that bounced off the wall and hit me in the eye, and I haven't had a holiday for over 2 years.
It's a bit phuked up as I can't honestly see how I could be in a relationship or juggle plates in the state I'm in. She would have to be the understanding type!
Women I was seeing last year kept digging at me about how I was often tired and yawned a lot, and I couldn't say she didn't have a point. She would be up early and hiking, then want to go dancing and then off to yoga, hard to keep up with her.
On the other hand I've increased my net worth from about 40 grand 5 years back to around 700,000 today! ( really I have!)
But I've kind of become a bit obsessive with it, like I should take a holiday but I'm not taking a holiday.... mind is always going going going.
I think I've got to push myself to change gears and slow it down a notch or two.
I'd like to practice meditation and go yoga and stretch out my tired body, chill out a bit.
Sometimes I can only do that if I leave the country and I don't actually feel like I want to do that right now. A nice lazy summer would be wonderful. Only one that can give me permission to do that is me! And I'm such a harsh baztard that I don't faaaak
Being in this perma-tired state is a drag! Most the time I don't really feel like chasing tail, actually I do feel like chasing tail, just kind of end up thinking I'm a bit to tired to get enthusiastic about it.
It's a sunny day and I fell asleep on a bench in a quiet spot I know, when I woke up I went for a sauna.
Came out the sauna, ate, fell asleep on the bench again for 20 minutes.
Rode my bike around again and now I'm home with a couple of beers in the fridge and I probably won't be going out anywhere tonight.
I work in construction and almost always crash out after work for about half hour, and I'm always tired. My joints ache, my neck always aches from an accident I had and my eye is messed up from a nail that bounced off the wall and hit me in the eye, and I haven't had a holiday for over 2 years.
It's a bit phuked up as I can't honestly see how I could be in a relationship or juggle plates in the state I'm in. She would have to be the understanding type!
Women I was seeing last year kept digging at me about how I was often tired and yawned a lot, and I couldn't say she didn't have a point. She would be up early and hiking, then want to go dancing and then off to yoga, hard to keep up with her.
On the other hand I've increased my net worth from about 40 grand 5 years back to around 700,000 today! ( really I have!)
But I've kind of become a bit obsessive with it, like I should take a holiday but I'm not taking a holiday.... mind is always going going going.
I think I've got to push myself to change gears and slow it down a notch or two.
I'd like to practice meditation and go yoga and stretch out my tired body, chill out a bit.
Sometimes I can only do that if I leave the country and I don't actually feel like I want to do that right now. A nice lazy summer would be wonderful. Only one that can give me permission to do that is me! And I'm such a harsh baztard that I don't faaaak
Being in this perma-tired state is a drag! Most the time I don't really feel like chasing tail, actually I do feel like chasing tail, just kind of end up thinking I'm a bit to tired to get enthusiastic about it.