This isn't really about women, but this is a big part of my life. Coming to terms with this stuff is what being a Mature Man means to me, which is why it's not in Anything Else. I'm posting it to get it off my chest so I can move on, any comments are appreciated. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's been in this situation.
I've been at my job for almost six years. A few months after I was hired, my manager who hired me quit because he the owner is a huge jerk. So, the owner brought in someone who he was friends with. I was only about 25 at the time so I guess I didn't EXPECT to become the new manager of my department (a department of two people, basically my position and the supervisor). But the new guy who became my "boss" was completely inept, had about three percent of the skill and ability I had. I actually had to train my own manager. And for a few years (yeah, I put up with this for a long time) it was just a constant nightmare of me covering up his mistakes, having to do his work over for him... I basically took on the role of supervisor of my department and everyone came to me and of course this guy started resenting me because he realized he had no chance of finding a job anywhere else and I was a huge threat to him.
So as our department grew, we added new employees. Each time a new person was brought on, my "boss" would go on vacation for two weeks, FORCING me to train these new people (his job). We all became close. Everyone thought it was just a matter of time before I became manager. Anyway, one of these people is a chick, and we've worked together for a few years but my "boss" has decided that she's less of a threat than me, so he's decided to give her all the good assignments, and when she was loyal to me now she's loyal to him, and it hurts a little because no one in this department would even have a job if I hadn't trained them and saved their butts time and time again. So it hurts, I feel like I've been ostracized from the little group I built up here.
I have learned to be very assertive here. I have brought up these concerns to the owner of the company and he's scared to death I'm going to leave now, and has told me he MAY make me the manager of my department. But it's just a bunch of people who are afraid to lose what they have. I've outgrown it. I have to move on and find a better environment. I wonder if men just keep fighting and fighting and fighting... I don't want to "give up" like I "failed" to get my goal of becoming manager, but I've outgrown this job, even this situation.
I'm just upset with how you can't really trust people or count on them. I want to stay positive and upbeat in life, and be a man. I've done all the political moves and speaking up I can. Nothing changes. Part of me wants to tell everyone to go to hell, but I know the best thing is to just move on with my life. But it's hard to move on when you feel victimized, it's like you get caught up in the drama... same thing with chicks. The drama just perpetuates itself and you become addicted to the problem. I deserve much better.
I've been at my job for almost six years. A few months after I was hired, my manager who hired me quit because he the owner is a huge jerk. So, the owner brought in someone who he was friends with. I was only about 25 at the time so I guess I didn't EXPECT to become the new manager of my department (a department of two people, basically my position and the supervisor). But the new guy who became my "boss" was completely inept, had about three percent of the skill and ability I had. I actually had to train my own manager. And for a few years (yeah, I put up with this for a long time) it was just a constant nightmare of me covering up his mistakes, having to do his work over for him... I basically took on the role of supervisor of my department and everyone came to me and of course this guy started resenting me because he realized he had no chance of finding a job anywhere else and I was a huge threat to him.
So as our department grew, we added new employees. Each time a new person was brought on, my "boss" would go on vacation for two weeks, FORCING me to train these new people (his job). We all became close. Everyone thought it was just a matter of time before I became manager. Anyway, one of these people is a chick, and we've worked together for a few years but my "boss" has decided that she's less of a threat than me, so he's decided to give her all the good assignments, and when she was loyal to me now she's loyal to him, and it hurts a little because no one in this department would even have a job if I hadn't trained them and saved their butts time and time again. So it hurts, I feel like I've been ostracized from the little group I built up here.
I have learned to be very assertive here. I have brought up these concerns to the owner of the company and he's scared to death I'm going to leave now, and has told me he MAY make me the manager of my department. But it's just a bunch of people who are afraid to lose what they have. I've outgrown it. I have to move on and find a better environment. I wonder if men just keep fighting and fighting and fighting... I don't want to "give up" like I "failed" to get my goal of becoming manager, but I've outgrown this job, even this situation.
I'm just upset with how you can't really trust people or count on them. I want to stay positive and upbeat in life, and be a man. I've done all the political moves and speaking up I can. Nothing changes. Part of me wants to tell everyone to go to hell, but I know the best thing is to just move on with my life. But it's hard to move on when you feel victimized, it's like you get caught up in the drama... same thing with chicks. The drama just perpetuates itself and you become addicted to the problem. I deserve much better.