Kailex
Master Don Juan
I really go on an angry rant, but after having come back from the gym, I need to.
You see, less than 2 months ago, I was hired to a new company to turn around half of their Accounting Department. Apparently the turnover was ridiculous, the hiring process is horrid, and the work is overwhelming. This is what I was told on my first day of WORK.
Of course, everything was painted to me differently in the interview. They lined out that it would be a challenge, but I'm up for challenges. I should have known that the first red flag was that my hiring manager would be younger than me, by at least 5 years.
Apparently she was granted the head of the department by default. She was the only one left from about 4 years ago. In her term, within the last year, my position has seen turnover of at least 5 people. Every other department knows her to be... well, not good. She's good at what she knows and does, but terrible at leading, training, teaching, and holding a department together. Not only that, but other departments hate dealing with her.
Now, I come in and some changes begin to happen but since she doesn't know how to lead, she pretty much tells me in the first two weeks that my half is in disarray... and, "Here, fix it." So I'm learning... trial by fire, trial-and-error, and mistake after mistake. I can take a hit or two, but most of those weren't on me. The back end of the books were a mess and there was 0 communication between our department and every other. That has changed and a lot of people try to come to me now, but still, I am playing catch up.
Every week, I've made a mistake, and as a manager, instead of giving me some sort of reassuring words, I've constantly been met with "Why does this keep happening?"... "We need to sit down and discuss what is going wrong." And it's not even objectively. I know how to take constructive criticism... but this is beyond that. I've had female bosses before but they were older, a little wiser and a little understanding. Now I get that her success as a manager seems to hinge on the fact that I might either sink the department or make it float over the sea, but in less than 2 months, I already want to leave.
Part of me loves the challenge, but for every 9 rights I do.. forget it, if the 10th is a wrong. Today I had a situation where I legitimately screwed up, and tried to come to her about it and stayed after work to fix it. In the past, I have been told that things can get fixed, let's try to not let it happen again and let's analyze how to avoid this from happening again.
Not her. Total condescending attitude, total display of immaturity and absolutely zero leader skills. This is what I have to face from now on.
On a night out, I was told by other departments to keep my resume updated because they wouldn't see me lasting 3 months... because no one does. I was led to believe it had to do with previous incompetent employees. I no longer believe that.
I wish I could say it was just a female being a lack of a good leader and head of a department, but her age and immaturity also play a factor. I'll get past this after our "next chat" tomorrow, but I can already tell that she is either going to sink herself or sink me. It's unfortunate because every other aspect of this job, I absolutely love... except her.
Is there a reason to this post? Maybe. Maybe not. But I just needed to vent.
Thank you for swimming through my sea of crap.
Opinions/advice... more than welcome.
You see, less than 2 months ago, I was hired to a new company to turn around half of their Accounting Department. Apparently the turnover was ridiculous, the hiring process is horrid, and the work is overwhelming. This is what I was told on my first day of WORK.
Of course, everything was painted to me differently in the interview. They lined out that it would be a challenge, but I'm up for challenges. I should have known that the first red flag was that my hiring manager would be younger than me, by at least 5 years.
Apparently she was granted the head of the department by default. She was the only one left from about 4 years ago. In her term, within the last year, my position has seen turnover of at least 5 people. Every other department knows her to be... well, not good. She's good at what she knows and does, but terrible at leading, training, teaching, and holding a department together. Not only that, but other departments hate dealing with her.
Now, I come in and some changes begin to happen but since she doesn't know how to lead, she pretty much tells me in the first two weeks that my half is in disarray... and, "Here, fix it." So I'm learning... trial by fire, trial-and-error, and mistake after mistake. I can take a hit or two, but most of those weren't on me. The back end of the books were a mess and there was 0 communication between our department and every other. That has changed and a lot of people try to come to me now, but still, I am playing catch up.
Every week, I've made a mistake, and as a manager, instead of giving me some sort of reassuring words, I've constantly been met with "Why does this keep happening?"... "We need to sit down and discuss what is going wrong." And it's not even objectively. I know how to take constructive criticism... but this is beyond that. I've had female bosses before but they were older, a little wiser and a little understanding. Now I get that her success as a manager seems to hinge on the fact that I might either sink the department or make it float over the sea, but in less than 2 months, I already want to leave.
Part of me loves the challenge, but for every 9 rights I do.. forget it, if the 10th is a wrong. Today I had a situation where I legitimately screwed up, and tried to come to her about it and stayed after work to fix it. In the past, I have been told that things can get fixed, let's try to not let it happen again and let's analyze how to avoid this from happening again.
Not her. Total condescending attitude, total display of immaturity and absolutely zero leader skills. This is what I have to face from now on.
On a night out, I was told by other departments to keep my resume updated because they wouldn't see me lasting 3 months... because no one does. I was led to believe it had to do with previous incompetent employees. I no longer believe that.
I wish I could say it was just a female being a lack of a good leader and head of a department, but her age and immaturity also play a factor. I'll get past this after our "next chat" tomorrow, but I can already tell that she is either going to sink herself or sink me. It's unfortunate because every other aspect of this job, I absolutely love... except her.
Is there a reason to this post? Maybe. Maybe not. But I just needed to vent.
Thank you for swimming through my sea of crap.
Opinions/advice... more than welcome.
