Women and addiction

[backbreaker]

I was what, 22 years old at the time. I was living in Sarasota florida. I lived in an apartment that if you threw a rock hard enough you could hit the beach. You could smell the salt water. I didn't even need a car, I could walk 2 blocks and be on siesta keys strip which had a killer night life. It was a party 7 nights a week. Girls dressed to the 9's, or not wearing anything at all, were everywhere.


I'd wake up at about 10am, go grab some breakfast, get a newspaper, go do some random **** like go to the local aquarium, then i'd head to the tiki bar and have a few drinks, go to the gym, then get dressed and go grab dinner somewhere on the strip, then go to starky's which was literally on the beach and sit out back and drink and watch the sun set, talk to chicks, and have a good time. **** was ****ing awesome. I didn't have a care in the world.



One Sunday I was grocery shopping at Publix and I ran into this girl who while she didn't have the best looking face on the planet, pound for pound had the most perfect body I'd ever seen in my life. perky tits, great ****ing legs, she had on some flip flops and had perfect feet lol. I'm pretty sure they used this girl's ass to do summer-salts off of in the 2000 Olympics lol. I mean PERFECT. She wasn't a butterface or anything but her face wasn't her best feature. Me being the DJ that I am found a reason to talk to her and one thing led to another and we got to talking. She was pretty cool. She was with her mom and I talked to the mom as well. She told me she had just,, like 1 hour ago bought a new car so I was like great you can come pick me up and we can go out to eat tonight because im' hungry lol. She agreed, gave me her number, got my address so she could drop mom off, go home and change, etc.


I go home, i'm not even 100% changed yet and she's outside telling me she's ready. So I get in the car and i make small talk with her and like within 1 min she's like I just want to let you know there will be no sex tonight :crackup: . I'm like dude i don't even know you yet what makes you think i want to have sex with you lol. of course i did lol. So we go to eat pizza and we are really really vibing. We's spooning and ****. She's all ove rme i'm all over her. I go in for a kiss and she puts her tounge half way down my throat. The place we were at was closing but we were having fun so she's like hey you want to go to another bar. I'm like sure.


We get in the car, she goes in the glove compartment and pulls out a bag of weed and she's like i hope you don't mind. I honestly had never smoked weed a day in my life but i mean, i've had like 4 drinks, she's hot and she's all over me, **** it lol. let the good times roll.


We get to this bar and we are on each other even more. We have more drinks. By now I'm pretty sure we're going to go at it later on, i could tell she was feeling me.


So i'm feeling all romantic and **** lol and i'm like let's go to the beach, whch was like a block away from where we were. We get to the beach, we're watching the waves roll and ****, she breaks out a white bag and makes a line and starts snorting. I'm like what the **** is that lol. she's like it's coke, want some? By now, i'm horny as ****, this girl is a guaranteed lay at this point, and i've had a good 5-6 drinks in me, **** it. let's do this lol. I wasn't gong to turn down what promised to be some unbelievable sex becuase i was too much of a prude to not do a few lines of coke. plus i wanted to see what the fuss was about.


So I take a line of it and this is the **** Pablo Escabar grew himself and send it over, this is some headbanging ****. So we're doing lines,l we're making out, she's giving me a handjob on the beach lol. I KNOW i'm going to get laid now. she'd line her teeth with coke and get on top of me and wanted me to lick it out her mouth. that **** was kinda sexy. After like 30 mins of this she's like come on let's go.


so we get in the car and she's like well, let's go lol. take me to your house. I don't even lock the door and she's pulling my clothes off. I literately have never had better sex in my life than that night. She was putting it on me so good that when she wanted me to take the condom off i had no problems, bye bye lol. I wanted to feel all this ****. We probably went at it a good 3 hours. we're ****ing on the bed, we're ****ing on the floor, we're ****ing in the shower. And i was high on coke and couldn't nut for a good while so we just kept going. Then when I do nut, she's like let's take a shower, we take a shower together and she just goes down and gives me another 20 min blow job lol. I was like this is the best ****ing day ever lol.



I didn't know it at the time, but that was the worst day of my life. That was the day i was introduced to my first true love, crack lol.


A few days pass, she comes over again, we go at it again, she asks me to buy some coke again so we can party, of courses i do becuase it was fun as hell.


A few weeks pass, to me this is just fun ****ing sex. But i tried to take her out to eat you know, a normal ****ing date, just to spend time with her and the entire time she was bugging me about getting some coke. I eventually give in and the guy gets there and he's like i don't have any but i got some of this hard (Crack) i'll give you a good deal on it. Part of me said backbreaker, okay this is too far. but she had me hooked on the ***** honestly and i knew the sex would be unreal if i did it ,plus one time wouldn't hurt. So I do it, we have great sex, then i felt like **** the next day. I knew mentally i had crossed that uncrossable line. Then when i told her i didn't want to party like that anymore she basically NCed me and a few weeks later i saw her on a date with another dude no doubt giving him the same **** she was once giving me.


About 2 weeks later I was bored out of my mind, it was raining outside pretty hard i had no place to go. I decided i could have a little fun i just called the dealer up by myself this time and bought some, was off to the races.


A night of unreal sex left me with an addition that would eventually bring me to my knees. I tired moving back home, that didn't' work. I'm sure she liked me, but she liked getting high more. she wasn't going to let her emotions stop her from getting high and whoever got her high was who she was going to hang with, just going from one dude to the other.


My point in all this is that, it's really that easy. Women can pass aids, herpes, all types of ****. but they are the harbors of addiction as well.


Every guy i know that used drugs, has a similar story to mine. There is only one thing on earth that could take a guy who barley drunk and never smoked weed in his life to snorting lines of coke and hitting a crack pipe, and that's pvssy.


Drug use seems so stupid. If you would have asked me 1 hour before i met this girl would i ever do coke, let alone crack i would have laughed in your face and say hell no. but you take a hot girl and have her kissing on you and **** and laying it on you and ready to fulfill every fantasy you have and all you have to do is do a few lines of this, then all bets are off.



They don't tell you about lick coke out of my mouth girl in DARE class lol. Or anal reverse cowgirl while wearing red **** me pumps girl lol. All the forums, PUA books and **** out there doesn't prepare you for the day you got a butt naked girl wearing nothing but pumps laying on the bed snorting lines ready for you to do anything you want to her.



As I dove deeper into addiction, i learned more. A cute girl just getting on drugs which this girl was, is a drug dealers dream. One cute girl is probably worth 5-10 new clients for a dealer. at least. the girl finds guys to help support the habit, when the girl leaves the guy is still there supporting his own habit.


My point in all this is to simply say, be careful. It took me about a good year and over 100k to finally get to my bottom and shake my addiction for good and I was very, very lucky. There are dudes that i used with that are still out there using. Have lines that you will not cross before hand. Girl does this, you get out no questions asked no matter how hot she was. I damn near broke up with my wife before she was my wife becuase i found a baggie because i reused to go down that road again. It took me a good year or so to finally believe her when she said it was a one time thing.


Plate spinning is really fun. But it can also be really dangerous. Be careful

 

[skinnyguy]

That's serious sh*t. Glad you got clean.

Personally I don't think that would ever happen to me. Right now I'm dating girls who are kind of on the conservative side. They don't talk about drugs at all they just drink. I don't think I appeal to girls who would be addicted to coke.

 

[BrainDamage92]

Nicotice\caffeine\weed - create the habit of having a habit, affects neurotransmition slightly and a pretty uninmportant part of it, no permanent brain damage, or long term effects (although cigs and coffee are physically adictive, and weed is more of a social thing, like when you smoke dope you surround yourself with others who do the same. The bad effect with weed is lost of ambition and drive (including sex drive). Nothing wrong with it, althoug hwhen it becomes your everyday reality its stupid really. But talking about long term effects is hilarious)

This is the worst thing about drugs is the social thing - even the hopeless junkie put in an environment with people who dont use and has no access to drugs will get clean very fast, but old connections always drag you down, and druggies are somehow drawn to each other.

Anyway STAGE 2: Stimulants:

- Coke - it goes the easiest on the brain if you snort the classic form, if you smoke crack rocks tho (freebase) you WILL suffer permanent brain damage. Coke interferes with serotonin levels and causes (smaller than amphetamines) brain abnormalities which are PERMANENT. Neve cells dont regenerate, and what the brain does is with time, if a part is damaged, it transfers its functions to a healthier part, but that takes years, and is not a safe bet.

- Ephedrin based synthetic stimulants - speed, meth you name it. They fuk with the dopamine transmission and cause permanent brain damage. They work (same as coke) by forcing the glands in your brain to release a big amount of a certain neurotransmitter (dopamine, cerotonin, and a type of adrenaline your brain produces). But they are much stronger than coke, and all there is are methamphetamines, even the basic speed, the calssic amphetamine has moderate effects and nobody produces it nowadays. They also perevent the natural inhibition of the neurotransmitters. They cause permanent morphological abnormalities in the brain and create "THE JUNKIE BRAIN" which is why they are so evil.

Moreover, the whole stimulant binging works in a very stupid way, since tolerance gets higher very fast and your brain kinda gets depleted and another line doesnt quite do the trick anymore but you still crave it. Its BS. I know, I know sex on stimulants feels like heaven, but it really aint worth it. I know, fuking your "good GF-wifey" like an animal while pulling her hair and telling her what a filthy ***** she is in her ear then coming in her mouth full force after 2 hours and all that... **** this **** man. Its not worth it.

Anyway, even after systematic abuse of stimulants you can live a perfectly socially acceptable life when you stop. Its just that the junkie brain remains a junkie brain and you sometimes get this feel like "I need to take something, anything, whatever..."

And of course STAGE 3: Heroin (opiates):

- they fry the endorophine receptors in the nerve cells, rather than making the brain produce more of a certain chemical, they immitate its molecule and attach to the receptors for it. Endorophin is for euphoria. I think I've had some opiate based pills - you feel like your life is being sucked out of you, but still it appeals to many people. It causes the worst possible permanent brain damage - the receptors get burnt out with time, and a person is unable to feel happiness.

Also, girls who used to\still fuk with drugs are easy to spot and they always have a scheme going where they get high for free. It's funny how some of them try to act like "good girls" while their eyes are just "black holes in the sky" to quote Roger Waters. Its sad and abit annoying. Again same as with emotions, drugs fuk up women much harder then they fuk up men.

 

[YAboi]

This story was exciting, a bit raunchy, but quite touching. God will surely bless you for advising the young DJs and keeping them from making your mistake in the process. Amen

 

[G_Govan]

Plate spinning is really fun. But it can also be really dangerous. Be careful

I'm confused, I mean it was an entertaining story but what does any of this have to do with plate spinning?

 

[gravityeyelids]

And of course STAGE 3: Heroin (opiates):

- they fry the endorophine receptors in the nerve cells, rather than making the brain produce more of a certain chemical, they immitate its molecule and attach to the receptors for it. Endorophin is for euphoria. I think I've had some opiate based pills - you feel like your life is being sucked out of you, but still it appeals to many people. It causes the worst possible permanent brain damage - the receptors get burnt out with time, and a person is unable to feel happiness.
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Good info on the rest of your post but you're off the mark on this part. They don't, as you say "fry the endorophine receptors in the nerve cells". And it doesn't cause permanent brain damage and prevent you from feeling happiness ever again. First off, "endorphin" doesnt stand for euphoria, it stands for endogenous morphine, meaning the natural painkillers that your body produces, such as those when you're under physical stressors (working out, etc.) or when a flight or fight response is triggered or when you experience a large amount of pain. Heroin is processed and converted to morphine in the body, and the "rush" is caused by this rapid absorption and conversion into morphine. It produces a massive cascade of dopamine, higher than the body would ever realistic need to (or is capable of) producing naturally.

As for the DIRECT physiological and physical effects of heroin and other opiates, they are relatively benign. Yes, that's right, opiates do not cause organ or brain damage to any realistic degree. The science will back this up. Yes, they will throw off the balance of chemicals in your brain in the short term and interfere with the body's ability to generate endorphins while on the drug because the drug is providing it and it's not needed. But when opiates are ceased, there is a short (in the range of a week or a bit more) but extremely uncomfortable withdrawal period. Yes, if you have a 5 year habit it may take as much as 4-5 months to feel completely normal and reset your brain. After that the body is essentially back to normal, albiet with a large mental craving for the drug (not physical or neurological) that sticks around because life seems a bit boring after having felt euphoric for so long, and a tolerance that stays pretty high: to the degree that once you've had a serious heroin, morphine or oxy habit, it's unlikely that the 2 vicodin that got you loaded in grade school will not do sh&% even after a long tolerance break, at least not after the first dose.

The reason that heroin in particular is dangerous is because of the lifestyle that surrounds it and the fact that it's illegal. Injecting drugs into your arms with unclean needles can lead to infections at the injection site and the spreading of diseases. Plus, if you're an impoverished heroin user and have an infected wound, you tend to not take the proper steps to treat the wound and it simply gets worse because you just used more heroin to combat the pain. As for the toxicity of it, People don't overdose and die because of toxicity of the drug, like other substances. They die because it causes respiratory depression to the degree that the person simply stops breathing, ESPECIALLY when combined with other CNS depressants. The primary reasons people die from Heroin are as follows: overdose because of drug ****tails (combining with other CNS depressants: almost exclusively benzos, alcohol, and barbiturates), disease spreading from the use of unclean/sharing needles (HIV,etc.), the heroin being cut with a potentially lethal substance or stronger opiate (such as fentanyl) and a misjudgment of dosage. The malnutrition that occurs from using heroin all day doesn't help either. Opiates are actually extremely safe when used properly, the problem is that very very few use them properly.

It's actually extremely rare for the heroin itself to kill people, and when it does it's almost always because users are unsure of the potency because it's a street drug and misjudge their dosage. Dope users are shockingly aware of how much will get them high, as pharmaceutical recreational opiate usage has shown us. If you've ever used opiates you'll know that there is a "sweet spot". Too little and you wont get a good buzz, and too much will simply result in you either throwing up or passing out (not simply the nod) and missing out on the high.

Not trying to start an argument or defend the use of opiates and heroin, just, like you, trying to eradicate any ignorance on the subject of drugs. Heroin is dangerous and i wouldn't advocate the use of it for anyone (obviously). Plus, i like being a smarta$$ know-it-all.

 

[blind_one]

Wow.

That's some story backbreaker. We can only thank you for sharing it, giving us the opportunity to learn from it. The drug description is in particular valuable