Thanks Yuppaz. It is definitely added to the repertoire for future usage.
Thanks for the kind words too Kanye West lol. I'll hit you up later this week and we can run some day game or something.
Well fellas a lot has happened since we last spoke and at the same time nothing of substance. So we go with women. Sometimes you go from hot to cold in a matter of days. One day you got your d!ck out and the world is amazing and the next day you got your d!ck out and realize how cold room temperature can be. I know you all aren't getting that analogy but so let me backtrack so it makes a bit more sense.
So the day after movies, Renee texts me asking to use my computer. I tell her she can't come to my house coz of my relative is overly neurotic but I can go to hers. So we are sitting at her kitchen table reading our respective books. It was actually a pretty trying experience because she kept getting calls from guys and it took all the power in me not to pick up my phone and randomly text like I usually do in reaction to feeling ignored. I am working on not being so immature so yay me. She would tell the callers that she was preoccupied and would rush them off the phone after thirty seconds or so but still... definitely a red flag smh.
Fast-forward past the boring conversation and failed attempts at footise. My memory eludes me how it came about but the topic turns to sex and masturbation. She talks about how she has never seen anyone touch themselves. I tell her I am game but she gotta show me something first. She had talked about masturbating in the shower earlier and so I told her that's what I wanted to see.
She gives me the "Are you serious???" look and routine. She looks me in the eye and asks me the same question like three more times. I waiver slightly (its been too long, smh) but in the end I don't run from my statement. Next thing you know, the shower is running, her pants are around her ankles and I am helping her get her shirt over her head. All this and we haven't even kissed yet.
So after watching her with the water dripping in/off her, eyes alternating between staring at me and staring glassy-eyed in the distance while concentrating, I say fvck it, strip down and join her in the inviting water. We mess around til she comes and then exit the shower. I tried to take things further in the shower but to no avail. After that we hung out but no real sexual opportunities arise.
The next day, she asks to use my laptop again the next night. I head over but that night was pretty uneventful. She was sitting in my lap or doin some random sh!t like dancing in front of the mirror while I sat and watched. It is mostly a blur but I remember tryina kiss her to get the party started and getting nowhere.
Another moment that raised some eyebrows was that I randomly texted a friend. Nothing excessive just during a lull in the conversation, and she starts asking me "who I am texting?" and she makes a fuss before trying to backtrack and laugh it off. All this while she is about 3 calls and a handful of text messages in, smh. She is either extremely ballsy or extremely illogical. Actually I think she is both.
I look at her funny, shake my head, and put my phone away without answering her.
The next morning, we are texting and she asks me if I can cook her dinner. Uhhhhh say what? I make a joke out of it and then tell her I got no groceries. She tells me a burger will do and hints at an oral reward. Whatever. I don't reply for the rest of the day. The next few days we either didn't text or she was not talking so I stopped replying after like 2-3 messages. I checked to see what she was up to Saturday night and she was busy so I did my own thing.
Sunday rolls around and she calls me to shoot the sh!t. I don't really know what to say so I am quiet. It is not that I love her or even like her more than the average girl, but when someone goes from hot to cold, it throws ya for a loop. She tells me she is going to finish getting dressed and call me back.
Half an hour later around 12-1pm or so I get a call and she tells me she aint doing anything at all, with a pause afterwards for emphasis. However, I invite her to hang out the next day because I was planning on heading out to a festival that day and didn't want to take sand to the beach if you catch my drift. There was a little hesitation on her part and then agreed with it. A few seconds later she says she got a question. She wants to know if I can loan her money for her phone bill coz she missed work coz she was sick and didn't get paid blah blah blah. I make up an excuse about losing my credit card but I am pretty sure she got a hint because after I finished it, there was this awkward silence and when she started wrapping the call up, I burst out laughing. She tells me she is going to get dressed (again?) and will call me back but never does.
I started to feel a little bad because, well... I can really be d!ck. I have a habit of cutting 'em off at the knees at the first sign of trouble but lately I realized how insecure this can be. It is not healthy and doesn't allow relationships to potentially develop if I bail all the time. Personally, a woman asking for money from a guy when neither are them are in love is a red flag but that can just be my thought process. Things are hard in this economy so maybe I overreacted a little.
After thinking it over, I give her the benefit of the doubt and today I hold true to our arrangement and call her to tell her I am heading her way soon. The phone rings and goes to voicemail. I don’t leave a message and text her about 15 mins later asking her when we gon kick it. She texts me back instantly and asks to postpone it for about a hour and a half. I’m like ‘cool’ and take a nap.
She calls me about a 45 mins later, saying she just finished smoking and she is just laying in her bed touching herself. Okay I can take a hint so I get my sh!t ready and head out the door.
Okay I am seriously getting bored and the ending is anticlimatic so I am gonna go a lil sparse on the details from here on out.
While there, I go to the bathroom for like 6 seconds, look in the mirror, come back and this chick is looking through my phone.
What the Fvck?
She denies it and tries to make up some ignorant excuse. I take my phone and put it in my pocket. She is like “oh you don’t trust me anymore?” I could have said what was on my mind like ‘ Hahaha I never trusted you’, or ‘B1tch crazy’ but I kept silent. This sh!t might fly with these young, stupid relationships, but 'showing how much you care through insecure actions' is a quick way for a one way ticket out of my life.
Later, I indirectly find out that the reason she aint answer her phone when I called earlier was because she was smoking wit some dude at her house. Word? She also tells me this retarded story of how her and her friend went around acting like lesbians and went ‘wherever’ the wind went with some guys on motorcycles they met that night. (Note: Remind me to Elicit Values with the next woman I meet. She obviously did not know me and thought I would actually be impressed by her stories)
I think then, I realized then how retarded this whole situation was. No more playing with her hair or treating her with any kind of class. After that point, I didnt care who she is banging as long as I added my name to the list lol.
Long story slightly less long, my d!ck makes an unwanted appearance and from there the mood shifts and she tells me she is getting ready to go to a friend's house soon. It's the fourth quarter and I am down but not quite out, so I throw the Hail Mary and directly proposition her for sex and get declined. She gives me the “I can’t believe you asked that, sex is supposed to be blah blah blah” speech. Things get awkward although I try to downplay it (lol) I leave soon thereafter and delete her # before I finish the three minute walk to my house.
All in all, I aint losing any sleep. I know some guys reject the girls before they get rejected and blah blah, but her actions and stories made it clear that we are two extremely different people. She really thought that she was impressing me throughout our interactions but I was either indifferent or extremely put off by her stories.
I aint gonna front though, the way certain things transpired in our interactions that I skipped for brevity's sake, I can understand her being somewhat cautious about committing or allowing herself to maybe fall for me, but the overall sum of her actions equals retarded and I can find more sane chicks.
More when it happens
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