why? oh why?

[BxPrince24]

For some reason everyday by the time I leave school it just feels like I've been treated like a piece of sh*t. I mean, I've had no real upside to school or girls. I have a lot of male friends, and a few female friends but you know, every guy likes to have the feeling that he's wanted and day after day I just feel like ppl don't give 2 sh*ts about whether I die or not. And it's not like I have a girl or anything that could could help bring that feeling back into my life.

Earlier today me and one of my friends were talking in the hallway. One of my supposed to be female friends came up and gave him a hug, as soon as she wrapped her arms around him she locked eyes with me and she didn't stop looking me dead in the eyes until they let go. It's like it was in slow motion, I just felt like hmmm... Ain't that a b*tch... She flirted with my friend and walked off.

A lot of the time, when it comes to school I feel like I have no place in there. Sometimes I wonder if I go and get drunk if that'll show them another side of me and bring them onto me more. But I'm a smart guy, I don't do things I may regret later. I'm just dying for these last few weeks of school to be over but when i really think about it, it's not like anything's better at home either.

 

[BxPrince24]

Also it seems like I'm always the one making the effort. I'm always the first one going for a pound when I see them in the hallway or catching their attention. It's like they wouldn't notice me if I didn't make myself stand out. And it seems like the only time they notice me is whenever they want something from me. I hate that.

 

[blinkwatt]

man forget high school its only 4 years. it may seem long but it will pass you by,worry more about having fun with your homies. if you can find a lady good man but just have fun,just dont draw bad attention to yourself.

 

[Sir Lancelot]

Hey man, I know how you feel. I kind of feel like I'm in the same position. I've had girls pull that same BS with me before -- i.e. being flirty and friendly with me in the past .. then choosing to go cold on me for no reason. It may be that the girl just doesn't like you, but its most likely she's just testing and playing games and other BS of that sort. Don't let it get to you.

What you have to understand is that high school is a big social hierarchy. You can deny this all you want, but there is definitely a system of power in place.

If you are at the top of the social life at your school, people will recognize you and go out of their way to get your attention. Sadly, this is the way it works. No matter how cool a person you are, a lot of times people judge you based on your social clique, who you hang out with, or who you talk to.

So here's what I think you should do. Don't worry about how much attention you receive at school. Be extremely social, and don't let other people control your feelings at the end of the day. YOU are in control.

 

[BxPrince24]

A big thing about me is i don't care about all of that. Yet, I'm still near the top. It's because I'm involved in alot and alot of ppl are attracted to my artwork. But I could care less about the kids in my school and I usually carry on about my own business without worrying about anyone else.

Even though I'm like that, I still stay friendly, and I talk to the people that are at the top alot. But like I said, More than often I come home from school feeling like sh*t.

Today was a good day for me, I read some of the stuff on the forums yesterday and went in this morning with a good attitude. First I ran into one of my female friends at the train stations and we pretty much talked all the way to school (about 15 stops). And I put myself to work (decided to create the t-shirt logo for the seniors) and they day just pretty much went good. Then after school I left and ran into another female friend and we talked until she reached her stop, so I didn't feel like crap today. I didn't have any negative feelings today. But I know it's not the first time this has happened and I'm bound to have the crappy days come back again.

 

[PrinceCharmingNW]

look man i know how you feel because i am involved in county student government... but no one at my school gives a sh*t even though its really important but thats how it goes

just keep on trying and dont let it get you down man because theres ups and downs i went to prom freshman and sophomore year (with an older grl) but now i dont even have a date to this years' its bullsh*t but stay dedicated to what you like to do and dont let those ho's get in the way of your happiness because you are just giving up your life to them if you let them drag you down

 

[TonyTheTigerOI]

Man... I know how you feel. And it hurts. I dont even attend class in high school anymore - I just take gym. Walking through the halls, I feel like a ghost. Ive got a close circle of friends, and a lot of pretty dorky aquaintences (guys ive stuck up for thruough HS against the popular kids) but everyone in "that popular circle" just ignores me.

10 years from now, when Im traveling the world and sleeping with beautiful women, the kids around me in HS wont mean a thing. They'll be a bunch of jealous losers at a reunion, so I try not to lose too much sleep over it ;-)

 

[xomel]

Originally posted by BxPrince24
Also it seems like I'm always the one making the effort. I'm always the first one going for a pound when I see them in the hallway or catching their attention. It's like they wouldn't notice me if I didn't make myself stand out. And it seems like the only time they notice me is whenever they want something from me. I hate that.

Lack of charisma.

 

[BxPrince24]

charisma... I know of the word though I haven't tried to find out the meaning of it.

I really don't know, today I come home pissed again. Today I feel that I realized why I get so mad subconciously. Like I'm just walking to my next class in a good mood, then I see a girl that I found attractive in the hallway (she has a boyfriend), suddenly I start getting angry. It's like seeing what I want and having it taunted in my face with my arms tied behind my back. I'm not talking about that 1 girl, i'm talking about all girls that I find attractive in general.

So for the rest of the day what's on my mind? How much I hate people for the stupid things they do and for the way some of them act. The way how they manipulate, hurt, trick, lie, and play people and carry on like it never happened. The way how they affect so many people without knowing and can easily crush the weak ones. I hate the way how high school is built around that gay heirarchy and how girls cling to that sh*t. I just hate the idiotic things ppl do.

Why can't we all just be f*cking good to eachother? Take other ppl into consideration for once. I'm not talking about just hooking up with a girl, it's more than that. Someone making fun of someone with low self esteem could destroy that person mentally. If I didn't have the confidence and self esteem I had I would probably be living in depression right now. It just makes me sick to my stomach, literally. I saw this girl today, she looked so good, but just the thought of how she might be made me want to throw up.

 

[Mr. Debonaire]

Originally posted by BxPrince24
But I could care less about the kids in my school

this is your real problem right here

popularity comes naturally to very few, but even those it comes naturally to have to work at it. you can't just BE popular, you have to put a little effort into it

you get what you give, and it sounds like you don't give at all. change that

remember, making friends is about making a connection with another individual. every person sees themself as someone worthy of attention. you can't just go out, crack a bunch of jokes and immediatly have friends that trust and love you. you have to bond with EVERY SINGLE ONE of them.

try to make a new serious friend once every week, you'll be amazed how fast your charisma and girl skills increase

EDIT: I just read your last response. yes, the injustice of the world is just that - unjust. but guess what, life isn't fair. people can be very nasty, all in an attempt to elevate themselves above the pathetic masses. but in the end, its all futile anyways.

agent smith from the matrix says that human life has taught him the purpose of all life "the purpose of life is to end" which is, as depressing as it sounds, entirely true. life, society, your friends, your enemies, none of it lasts forever. eventually, everything you know and love will end.

my point is this: life is short. instead of complaining about the injustice that is the life of a teenager (something which every teen goes through, btw) live your life and enjoy it. make friends, do what you enjoy doing, don't sweat the girls to much, and love your life. make it a point to make friends with people who get picked on or made fun of. start a trend. make your school a better place to be. and don't forget, people grow up. eventually, everyone looks back on their highschool years as the time when they really didn't know anything about the world. all the drama crap that happens in high school becomes a distant memory the moment it ends.

 

[BxPrince24]

The thing is that I can't really relate to alot of the students in my school. Yes there are things that we can talk about of course but they are so freaking ghetto. They talk about weed, parties, drinking, gangsta crap. I ain't into all of that. And I can't stand the way some of them use slang, it's cool to an certain level but some ppl just go overboard, seriously. The things I've heard come out of some of these ppls mouths make me wonder where the hell they learned to talk.

Theres only a few guys who I can really talk to and those are the few that share the same views as me, they aren't popular and even though I am somewhat, I chill with them because I find them cool, I find them as a role model of how people should be.

High school is so damn stupid, I'm glad I'm out in 2 months.

 

[Mr. Debonaire]

i do agree that highschool is stupid tho...

 

[BxPrince24]

Today was great. Today was the art gallery/auction at my school and I had 4 of my artwork in there. 1 of them is currently standing at $125, another is at $80, and lastly one at $12. I get my cash on thursday next week .

That wasn't all that went good today, I won a certificate for the best Illustration there. I flirted with a girl that I like before the gallery/auction and I was pretty much in a good mood. During the gallery/auction I met another girl who I started warming up to, I didn't get to spend a lot of time with her since everyone wanted to talk to me. But we talked about school and art, I flirted with her, kinoed her a few times till she was comfortable walking around with my arm around her waist. I'm gonna keep on working this and see what happens.

Only thing that was a little off was on my way home, there was a good looking girl on the train. I'd say she's about a 7-7.5. She kept looking at me, my sneakers, my shirt, etc... And whenever our eyes met she'd stare for a second and then look away. So I thought to myself, I could start talking to her but it might be a waste of time so I didn't bother. Also while I was thinking this, the guy sitting next to me, makes a compliment on her and slips her his number. Still she kept looking at me, what I was wearing, etc... Oh well...

 

[Fitch]

Originally posted by TonyTheTigerOI
Man... I know how you feel. And it hurts. I dont even attend class in high school anymore - I just take gym. Walking through the halls, I feel like a ghost. Ive got a close circle of friends, and a lot of pretty dorky aquaintences (guys ive stuck up for thruough HS against the popular kids) but everyone in "that popular circle" just ignores me.

10 years from now, when Im traveling the world and sleeping with beautiful women, the kids around me in HS wont mean a thing. They'll be a bunch of jealous losers at a reunion, so I try not to lose too much sleep over it ;-)