Packers2010
Master Don Juan
ok. so today is my birthday, it was an ok day. i went out to lunch read the paper and got a new shirt witch is ok.
lately i have been hitting it up hard and I'm tired. very tired. so tired it's a Friday night on my birthday and I am staying home.
i went to sleep for a bit in the afternoon, i was so tired. ( hitting up the club too much) after i woke up i got really moody. i mean. REALLY moody. i was so horny i just wanted to ****, but because my game isn't at a level where i can just **** girls. ( i bet if i ever got to that stage i would blow it because i have so many issues.) i was testing one of my girls and i just flipped out.
i mentioned her on here before a few times. we haven't dont anything and i met her a few times. at the start of our texting it was very sexual and we sext. now she won't even do jack. so today i just lost it with her while being all dead and groggy. all she dose is text me random ****. she opened me the other day with " i hate red shoes" i hadn't spoken to her in a week or so.
of course me at the time texting everyone. ( i got a few number off pof and okc. ) i just texted her. i got into a fight with her because nothing was moving foreword. ( yes i have tired) so i just lost it. i don't need some girl to text me friend ****. I JUST WANT TO ****.
i don't know what happened as i was dazed. i'm looking back now and she said
" you intrigued me, i had fu with you, i dont want to **** you or anyone else for that matter"
i got off a bit more then she tells me
"I've held back with my texting because that would be cruel"
this isn't a thread about the girl, because I know she is lost. I want to know why I get but hurt of this shiot! why do i do stupid shoit like this! i texted all my other girls. one couldn't come out because she was house sitting. i asked to come over but got a no.
and one girl told me she was going on a date tonight. so it looks like i'll have to work faster with this one. this girl is the one that looks most promising.
i'm still such a needy little focker. i don't play the victim card any more because i feel like I'm not. i just feel like like ****. i just want to **** and bounce. i feel liek girls and playing all these games with there shiot tests and there " slut " card which they play at EVERY opportunity with me!
i'm so angry right now. maybe it's becuse i feel like i have to change my WHOLE personality just to get the girl. while they sit there and flake on me. ( the first person to tell me, it is what it is. i will cut your balls off. I shouldn't have to! though I am going to)
I just want to be normal instead of a fook up. every girl i know runs away from me because i do this. just ask my onetits girl who concerted me this week. we just ended up fighting. she siad something and i took offence to it. she pretty much siad i would fook any thing that walks ( not true) then once i told her to show me some respect. she went off and called me a pin ****. ( i was being a semi **** to her though, i was talking about the times she was slutty with me. haha. only cos i liked them.)
i'm ****ing sick of girls wanting to talk to me and not **** me! all they want me to do is sit there and give them validation all day! ( yes i do have friends who are girls. if i didn't do this stupid **** i would have AN ARMY of girls who are my friends) i wouldn't even need guy friends. i'd just be there " lets just be friends guy who is straight and not gay" come to think of it, if i was gay this wouldn't even be an issue.
I just want to be a normal kid. who dosen't have these issue. i have massive Anxiety when talking to girls. i can approach them. say hello then 3 mins in. that's it. boom i get the anxiety and it's game
over.
i made a thread about getting pills to help with this. everyone was against it. maybe i should just get some counselling or something. i guess I'm just so outcome dependant that it not that cool. i also don't believe in the process yet. or believe i can do it because i haven't seen results.
right this second, i feel needy. like i need to text that girl and tell her i'm sorry for going off at her. i did tell her i was in a bad mood and to forget about it before. this is what i have to deal with.
will some one please help me. i just want to be a normal guy. i feel like i won't be now.
lately i have been hitting it up hard and I'm tired. very tired. so tired it's a Friday night on my birthday and I am staying home.
i went to sleep for a bit in the afternoon, i was so tired. ( hitting up the club too much) after i woke up i got really moody. i mean. REALLY moody. i was so horny i just wanted to ****, but because my game isn't at a level where i can just **** girls. ( i bet if i ever got to that stage i would blow it because i have so many issues.) i was testing one of my girls and i just flipped out.
i mentioned her on here before a few times. we haven't dont anything and i met her a few times. at the start of our texting it was very sexual and we sext. now she won't even do jack. so today i just lost it with her while being all dead and groggy. all she dose is text me random ****. she opened me the other day with " i hate red shoes" i hadn't spoken to her in a week or so.
of course me at the time texting everyone. ( i got a few number off pof and okc. ) i just texted her. i got into a fight with her because nothing was moving foreword. ( yes i have tired) so i just lost it. i don't need some girl to text me friend ****. I JUST WANT TO ****.
i don't know what happened as i was dazed. i'm looking back now and she said
" you intrigued me, i had fu with you, i dont want to **** you or anyone else for that matter"
i got off a bit more then she tells me
"I've held back with my texting because that would be cruel"
this isn't a thread about the girl, because I know she is lost. I want to know why I get but hurt of this shiot! why do i do stupid shoit like this! i texted all my other girls. one couldn't come out because she was house sitting. i asked to come over but got a no.
and one girl told me she was going on a date tonight. so it looks like i'll have to work faster with this one. this girl is the one that looks most promising.
i'm still such a needy little focker. i don't play the victim card any more because i feel like I'm not. i just feel like like ****. i just want to **** and bounce. i feel liek girls and playing all these games with there shiot tests and there " slut " card which they play at EVERY opportunity with me!
i'm so angry right now. maybe it's becuse i feel like i have to change my WHOLE personality just to get the girl. while they sit there and flake on me. ( the first person to tell me, it is what it is. i will cut your balls off. I shouldn't have to! though I am going to)
I just want to be normal instead of a fook up. every girl i know runs away from me because i do this. just ask my onetits girl who concerted me this week. we just ended up fighting. she siad something and i took offence to it. she pretty much siad i would fook any thing that walks ( not true) then once i told her to show me some respect. she went off and called me a pin ****. ( i was being a semi **** to her though, i was talking about the times she was slutty with me. haha. only cos i liked them.)
i'm ****ing sick of girls wanting to talk to me and not **** me! all they want me to do is sit there and give them validation all day! ( yes i do have friends who are girls. if i didn't do this stupid **** i would have AN ARMY of girls who are my friends) i wouldn't even need guy friends. i'd just be there " lets just be friends guy who is straight and not gay" come to think of it, if i was gay this wouldn't even be an issue.
I just want to be a normal kid. who dosen't have these issue. i have massive Anxiety when talking to girls. i can approach them. say hello then 3 mins in. that's it. boom i get the anxiety and it's game
over.
i made a thread about getting pills to help with this. everyone was against it. maybe i should just get some counselling or something. i guess I'm just so outcome dependant that it not that cool. i also don't believe in the process yet. or believe i can do it because i haven't seen results.
right this second, i feel needy. like i need to text that girl and tell her i'm sorry for going off at her. i did tell her i was in a bad mood and to forget about it before. this is what i have to deal with.
will some one please help me. i just want to be a normal guy. i feel like i won't be now.