Waddup readers my name is Swayze. I had many thoughts on my mind lately so I want to tell you guys about my situation in life, how things are going.
Since this site is mostly about women, I'll detail my experience with girls. I never had a LTR, only a few hookups with 3 chicks. The first time (and only time) I ever hung out with a girl alone (She was an 8), invited her to my crib while I was home alone and we made out. She was my first kiss. I was feeling pretty good but I contracted a case of one-itis. I caught feelings for her I guess because I never was intimate with a girl before. Looking back, I could have ****ed her. I had a condom, we were hooking up in my bed. So, whatever. Kinda funny looking back but I'm still a virgin.
When I got a job, i worked at this ****ty dry cleaners that hired broke boys and low class girls. It was a nasty, sweaty, manual labor job. Not too bad cause it was my first source of income but my boss was an angry ****. **** him. So anyway, my second kiss (She was a 6) was a result of me trying to get over the one-itis. I asked my coworker to kiss (Rookie Mistake; who asks *****es to kiss? JUST DO IT.) She was alright but she said I sucked at kissing. She got at my confidence and had me on the strings saying she would give me lessons and she would teach me how to get better. I kept trying to get at her but she played me everytime we worked together. I stopped giving a **** and remained in the friend zone. **** that *****.
My next hookup was a fat ***** who worked at my job (She was a 6), pretty face honestly but just a fat ass and I would tear it up if I wasn't embarassed of being with a fat chick. She was a rookie and said she only kissed once. I made the moves this time but when I gave her tongue she was just terrible. I was an ******* to her because all I wanted was to hookup and I never worked with her again. I don't know if I should regret the experience but I regret the fact she had a big mouth and possibly ****ed up my reputation with much prettier girls, "Oh, he's such a jerk!" (You know how it goes.)
**** those *****es, **** that dry cleaners place, **** my old self cause I'm growing up and I wouldn't make the same choices now at the ripe age of 17. (All my hookups happened when I was 15)
Those stories may be irrelevant, but it's the best possible way I can detail my experience with girls. (3 kisses, first kiss was a makeout) Nothing much to say about that. I always wondered how things would have been with girls who I KNEW WERE IN TO ME if I WASNT SCARED to INITIATE MY FIRST KISS. Im not screaming, this is just a vital element to my story. I never had an LTR, and I think that's because all I've had was ****ty hookups that only happened one time each.
Anyways, I've had a dry spell for over a year but things are different for me. I'm ready to **** if given the chance cause I'm just tired of being a virgin. I'm looking for experience, **** love. Anyways some things I have going for me is that I have a solid career plan. I have high grades, I do well perpetually in high school (people know me as book smart) and I plan to enter the health care industry as a RN (registered nurse) with my bachelors degree. My career is something that seems like an easy goal. I need to go to college, and work hard. There's more to my plan, but I believe there's nothing stopping me.
Im ready for the future but it feels like my friends are having an ill time in the present. Most of my friends **** *****es and I just dont get it. Its like a mystery to me how to get *****. Sorry, I have a ****ty way of explaining myself.
I feel like this has been babbling, sorry. But one thing i must say is that I finally got my license, a gym membership and my own car! I'm looking for work, looking for things to do now that I have way more options, but I'm just bored. I usually go home, play PS4, and listen to music. I need more substance in my life. IT isn't about girls. It's about me enjoying my life.
I just want youre guys' take even though I haven't asked a solid question.
Who am I in your eyes? How can I make the best out of senior year with only a few months left?
Ya'll my dudes i ****ing love this community, peace!
Since this site is mostly about women, I'll detail my experience with girls. I never had a LTR, only a few hookups with 3 chicks. The first time (and only time) I ever hung out with a girl alone (She was an 8), invited her to my crib while I was home alone and we made out. She was my first kiss. I was feeling pretty good but I contracted a case of one-itis. I caught feelings for her I guess because I never was intimate with a girl before. Looking back, I could have ****ed her. I had a condom, we were hooking up in my bed. So, whatever. Kinda funny looking back but I'm still a virgin.
When I got a job, i worked at this ****ty dry cleaners that hired broke boys and low class girls. It was a nasty, sweaty, manual labor job. Not too bad cause it was my first source of income but my boss was an angry ****. **** him. So anyway, my second kiss (She was a 6) was a result of me trying to get over the one-itis. I asked my coworker to kiss (Rookie Mistake; who asks *****es to kiss? JUST DO IT.) She was alright but she said I sucked at kissing. She got at my confidence and had me on the strings saying she would give me lessons and she would teach me how to get better. I kept trying to get at her but she played me everytime we worked together. I stopped giving a **** and remained in the friend zone. **** that *****.
My next hookup was a fat ***** who worked at my job (She was a 6), pretty face honestly but just a fat ass and I would tear it up if I wasn't embarassed of being with a fat chick. She was a rookie and said she only kissed once. I made the moves this time but when I gave her tongue she was just terrible. I was an ******* to her because all I wanted was to hookup and I never worked with her again. I don't know if I should regret the experience but I regret the fact she had a big mouth and possibly ****ed up my reputation with much prettier girls, "Oh, he's such a jerk!" (You know how it goes.)
**** those *****es, **** that dry cleaners place, **** my old self cause I'm growing up and I wouldn't make the same choices now at the ripe age of 17. (All my hookups happened when I was 15)
Those stories may be irrelevant, but it's the best possible way I can detail my experience with girls. (3 kisses, first kiss was a makeout) Nothing much to say about that. I always wondered how things would have been with girls who I KNEW WERE IN TO ME if I WASNT SCARED to INITIATE MY FIRST KISS. Im not screaming, this is just a vital element to my story. I never had an LTR, and I think that's because all I've had was ****ty hookups that only happened one time each.
Anyways, I've had a dry spell for over a year but things are different for me. I'm ready to **** if given the chance cause I'm just tired of being a virgin. I'm looking for experience, **** love. Anyways some things I have going for me is that I have a solid career plan. I have high grades, I do well perpetually in high school (people know me as book smart) and I plan to enter the health care industry as a RN (registered nurse) with my bachelors degree. My career is something that seems like an easy goal. I need to go to college, and work hard. There's more to my plan, but I believe there's nothing stopping me.
Im ready for the future but it feels like my friends are having an ill time in the present. Most of my friends **** *****es and I just dont get it. Its like a mystery to me how to get *****. Sorry, I have a ****ty way of explaining myself.
I feel like this has been babbling, sorry. But one thing i must say is that I finally got my license, a gym membership and my own car! I'm looking for work, looking for things to do now that I have way more options, but I'm just bored. I usually go home, play PS4, and listen to music. I need more substance in my life. IT isn't about girls. It's about me enjoying my life.
I just want youre guys' take even though I haven't asked a solid question.
Who am I in your eyes? How can I make the best out of senior year with only a few months left?
Ya'll my dudes i ****ing love this community, peace!