where to go from here

[takemehigher]

Hello people,

I'm 31 years old. A lot of bad things have happened in my life and every time it drains a lot of energy to solve problems. And each time I get out from the bottom something new hits me and it's a cycle I just can't seem to get rid of it.
It feels as if the world is sitting on my shoulder even though it makes me stronger as a person it also makes me feel bitter.

And now I'm in the situation where I tried several studies in the past and never completed it. I'm still working at the same badly paid job for over 15 years, still living at home with my mother, who has a very bad health situation and she still needs to work. Her store is about to be bankrupt and as little money as have I feel worthless. But again I'm doing what I can to help out.

I never really had a stable relationship with any girl for longer than a couple of weeks. I do have a few good friends left though but as I get older I don't get to see them as often as I want or could.

The way I'm following I don't know where it's leading to, and it got to the point where I can't really smile anymore and be proud of myself.
I have read a lot of self help books and then I get a little excited to do things but then talk myself out of it because I realize I'm far behind in the rat race. Or I find other excuses so I can get back doing nothing sitting at home feeling sorry for myself.

I'm sure there are other people who experience(d) the same. What did you do to get out of the mess?

thanks for your read and reply

 

[jhl]

And why may I ask were you not able to complete your studies? Perhaps you should pick up where you left off. It's not as if the course credits disappear overnight. That's a start.

 

[takemehigher]

I changed a few studies because it didn't feel right me working as a ... for the rest of my life. And I had concentration problems lost my focus because of all the problems. In the end I quit because I just didn't want to go to school anymore. Schools don't teach you anything in my opinion. It's basically a more secure way in society to fit in when you have a college degree. But I still want to get papers now because it will give you a good portfolio.

 

[Digitz]

This world is meant for challenge. There is no parent, profession, person whatever that will not face challenge in their life on this planet.

After graduating from college and being on the scholars path for a lifetime, 5 - 22 years of age, a lot of new found adults find themselves in a similar situation, lost in this world. They don't know what to do, they don't want to choose the wrong thing that they will then be stuck in the rest of their lives, they don't want to focus...

It's not the life that matters, it's the courage you bring to it.

Courage will bring you everything that you want. Focus on one single aspect that you are interested in for your work; this can be a fireman, a lawyer, a solider, a relief worker, a shop keeper, whatever. If you have any single interest in that profession, seek it out with all of your ability and succeed. Attain victory by setting out to achieve one thing you desire. Don't worry about the women, the money, your mother, your living situation, put it all on the line. You're young enough to roll the dice and lose it all and roll them again with little consequence. Do it until you succeed.

Victory is what you are made for. Lean on this word, make it your mantra...

Read this: http://www.3ho.org/ecommunity/2012/06/from-the-source-victory/