- Failed to have sex at 14 with 16 yo chick due to me being a huge poosay. She was basically begging me and I was just being r-tarded. We were at a picnic of sorts , just the 2 of us in the middle of a huge-ass empty field.Her invite was :"You know , I have a condom.". I honestly don't remember my reply , but I did get a weird hand-job out of the whole deal.
- Failed at 15 with some chick I met at an afterparty. Got her naked and fingered her(after she came I just got up and walked away feeling like a phucking baws for some reason.No clue why I didn't go in). My best friend literally physically assaulted me the next day for being such an idiot.
- (I think) I failed once more with a gorgeous open-minded 18 yo when I was about 15 and a half. We were alone and the conversation got to:
Her: If you had one wish right now ,this very moment, what would it be ?
Z: To phuck you so damn good that from now on you'll have an orgasm by simply remembering the experience - is what I should've said. Instead , I gave some stupid completely non-related to sex reply.
Z: You ?
Her: A raging screaming orgasm.
I phucking froze. I mean , I'm a freakin virgin , she's almost 3 years older than me and expects ME to give her a raging screaming orgasm ? I probably wouldn't even know how to put the damn condom on.
Pressure was way to phucking much and I paralyzed.
- Failed at 16th birthday party with an amazing russian 10 due to doors not having locks and idiots constantly walking in and staring at her amazing body. I have never since - IRL or Porn - seen a more perfect pair of boobs or a pinker poosay. It's like she was god damn photoshopped. The very definition of perfection.Anyway, I literally still dream & fantasize about that girl to this day. Not being able to phuck her is one of my biggest regrets.
- Finally managed to lose the V-Card at 17 with the girlfriend at the time who was also a virgin. Horrible horrible experience. Pain and blood for her , extreme effort on my part to be sympathetic and hide my "I LOST MY VIRGINITY WHOHOOOOOO F*CK THE WORLD BABY" feelz.Also got my first BJ that night. Been in a relationship with this chick till my very early 20s. Sex was never rewarding with her. For some reason , it was always more painful rather than enjoyable for her. Some strange hymen mind-phuck.