i felt good because my ego and confidence boosted and bad because my conscience told me that they are too young for me, and things between a 17 or 18 years old girl and a 27 years old guy would never work ( here in Portugal the legal age is 16 ). When i was 22 i dated a girl who was 15, i became too attached to her and she dumped me, now i'm in a dillema, older woman just don't do it for me because i feel very young inside and that is noticed in the ouside, and i don't think a older woman would like someone as imature as i am ( despite of being a good and responsible professional when it comes to jobs ) and because most of time they're damaged goods.
Girls between 23-27 also seem so unappealing, they want a boyfriend and frankly guys i'm not prepared to commit, not right now, because when i was a teenager i haven't done what i wanted to, now i wanna live my own way, i can't stand pressures, girls caling me all the time, wanting me to take them home when i'm not in the mood. i don't know, maybe like i said in a previous post i'm not a easy person to deal with. Younger girls seem to have something special, dont get me wrong, i'm not a pedophyle or rapist ( a girl that is less than 16/17 just don't do it for me both physical and mentally ), i'm just talking about the energy, the crazyness, the i dont give a **** to responsabilities attitude,those things seduce me in a way i can't even compreend myself.
That's why i feel so fustrated about myself, i can't go back in time, when i was in HS and also i can't hang around these girls because my age and my conscience dont let me to.
