ARrocket
Master Don Juan
Halfway through my junior year in high school, I met a girl. I was pretty sure she was into me, although at the time I wasn't into her. Long story short, I fell for her...pretty hard. I was pretty C&F the whole time, but no kino at all, and I guess I waited forever...idk, whatever the reason, it didn't work. It was funny because almost EVERYONE assumed she liked me too. I really thought she did. She found out I liked her from somebody else (she probably knew, but that's how she officially knew). At first she increased the flirting, then she got cold, real fast. I called her up and told her that it's ok she didn't feel the same way, I don't want to ruin the friendship blah blah blah. Didn't even give her a chance to tell me for herself that she wanted to LJBF me. That was near the end of junior year.
That summer was hard. I saw her too often because we were in the same tennis program. I couldn't get over her.
Then senior year started. I'm different. No longer AFC. For a looong time, we barely spoke...like we used to, I mean. I sat near her at lunch, and we spoke, but not like before, and mostly not one on one. I was over her; really. I met many other girls, I am doing fine now
But recently, she has started calling me and emailing me A LOT. Spring break was this past week. She started off by inviting me to her church on Easter. I kinda forgot, and I slept through 3 of her desperate last minute calls (I had gone out the night before ) before I picked up and rushed to her church, late. I played it pretty cool, threw in some C&F, but still pretty AFC. She kept trying to make me stay after by continuously talking to me. 2 days later, she messages me on AIM, and we speak for like 4 hours, until 2 am or something. Then we start sending these LONG emails back and forth. On Friday she shows up where I work (although she had good reason too). I was really C&F with her. The next day, in an email, she starts talking about some dream she had that I was in (we went to a baseball game, and, what happened basically translates to "it was me, you, and another AFC, and you were being mean and he kept complimenting me").
All of a sudden she seems interested. She called me last night, and left a message. I didn't call back. She called me again today, and we spoke for like 5 minutes, then she said she had to go. What's going on? When we were talking online, I said "I have a habit of saying 'next' whenever a girl doesn't come to me right away" and she said "yeah....I noticed" However, the only time she could have noticed this about me is with....her (unless I'm missing something). Am I over-analyzing? Is it the AFC in me doing some wishful thinking? I mean, I am no longer in love with her or anything, but I think she's a really cool person, and she's pretty hot too. I'm scared if I think about this too much I'll go back to needing her, but I gotta know....is this normal? What's going on with her???
That summer was hard. I saw her too often because we were in the same tennis program. I couldn't get over her.
Then senior year started. I'm different. No longer AFC. For a looong time, we barely spoke...like we used to, I mean. I sat near her at lunch, and we spoke, but not like before, and mostly not one on one. I was over her; really. I met many other girls, I am doing fine now
But recently, she has started calling me and emailing me A LOT. Spring break was this past week. She started off by inviting me to her church on Easter. I kinda forgot, and I slept through 3 of her desperate last minute calls (I had gone out the night before
) before I picked up and rushed to her church, late. I played it pretty cool, threw in some C&F, but still pretty AFC. She kept trying to make me stay after by continuously talking to me. 2 days later, she messages me on AIM, and we speak for like 4 hours, until 2 am or something. Then we start sending these LONG emails back and forth. On Friday she shows up where I work (although she had good reason too). I was really C&F with her. The next day, in an email, she starts talking about some dream she had that I was in (we went to a baseball game, and, what happened basically translates to "it was me, you, and another AFC, and you were being mean and he kept complimenting me").All of a sudden she seems interested. She called me last night, and left a message. I didn't call back. She called me again today, and we spoke for like 5 minutes, then she said she had to go. What's going on? When we were talking online, I said "I have a habit of saying 'next' whenever a girl doesn't come to me right away" and she said "yeah....I noticed" However, the only time she could have noticed this about me is with....her (unless I'm missing something). Am I over-analyzing? Is it the AFC in me doing some wishful thinking? I mean, I am no longer in love with her or anything, but I think she's a really cool person, and she's pretty hot too. I'm scared if I think about this too much I'll go back to needing her, but I gotta know....is this normal? What's going on with her???
