I am told by my family to not be so miserable, to go out and smile. I know better. It's not realistic, so yeah I am really depressed and miserable, negative and pessimistic.
When I am in public and there are women I constantly feel at war with myself, fighting imaginary people. It sucks if you aren't that attractive, and I have felt like this for years.
When I see college girls on the bus, I am reminded of the time when I was that age and groups of girls used to laugh at me just for existing. I never knew why.
So now I generally feel invisible. It doesn't matter what I do, and it won't likely have much impact because they don't care. A lot of this red pill advice makes a lot of sense when applied to my social life.