I was born with the attitude I have. Perhaps the influence of my father? Not sure. I've always been described as pompous, selfrighteous, high holy POS. I went thru a short period of conflicting minsett, I thought if so many are offended, and I keep making girls cry, maybee I AM doing something wrong, & went on a disasterous phase of self doubt trying to be a nice guy. It was to conflicting with my nature. It lasted from my late teens to mid twenties, untill I started reading Ayn Rand, and conciously became aware that this world IS mine, and my happiness is the end to my means. Duiring the reading of The Fountainhead" I realized I was right to begine with, I let go of un earned guilt, ended the conflict in my head and resumed living for myself.
As was pointed out, I wouldnt worry to much about the termenology, or trying to become something, a tiger doesnt change it's stripes, sounds like you have at least a spark of life in you, just go out for yours, and make sure you do it with class. Be sure to look as you feel, and take care of yourself.