i am nearly 17 years old and i need help.
i have been improving myself the past years of my life and shrugging my afc problems and becoming a man.
about 9 month ago i started turning into a don juan. i knew what i wanted in life and how to get it, and i was improving my life in every area. and i was looking for a girl that have what i was looking for. i talked to many girls and got to know them a bit. i knew this girl in my school that was a year younger than me. i talked to her from time to time and had some fun with her. i used to chat with her on facebook when i was bored at home and she was online. when school was finished we still chatted on facebook and we were getting closer an closer. i got to know her better as time passed. she fell in love with me before i did and soon we were pretty close. i made it clear that i wanted to be more than friends with her and i told her i want to make sure that it is gonna work out in school. she used to show me she loved me and such, i did too. when half august had passed i was confused about a few thing that i didnt find the answer to. i asked myself do i want her? i couldnt get a clear answer for myself. another thing, i was starting to get success with girls and i thought maybe i can get better and prettier girls. there were prettier girls, but she was also very pretty ( she is a 7-8 maybe). and one thing that kept me mad that i couldnt see her cz i dnt have car and i wasnt sure about things and i didnt want to have a relashionship on facebook cz we chatted many hours daily. i tested her as much as i can to see if she love me, and she was crazy about me. as school got nearer we were a bit distant. when school came i wasnt sure about myself if i should go for her or not. i only talked to her once in the recess. after two weeks i saw her with another guy taller and bigger than me. actually i am 1.8 meter tall ( i am considered very tall) and im 60kg so i am a bit scrawny, altough i joined a gym lately. when i saw my girl with another guy i said to myself that she means nothing to me and that i can get better girls and i didnt talk to her. i was real mad that she hadnt the courage to face me. after a month, i didnt find a girl who is worth it. i didnt walk with any girl during the recess. so after a while i decided to talk to her, but she was always with her new boyfriend. so i talked to her on chat and i told her exactly why i was mad at her and asked her why she left me for another guy and every thing. i asked if she loves, and she said not anymore. after an hour fighting her i broke all the walls she built and i did somehow manage make her sensitive. she seemed to want me ( all her action still until now express that she loves me), but she was lost between 2 guys. finally one day i talked to her face to face and i told her that i love her and that i want her from the bottom of my heart and that i am desprete without her. she tried to be strong and didnt talk much, but she was speechless, i noticed. it has been more than one month that i have been trying to forget her but, but i cant. she has rare qualities i never found in another girl. she is the girl i have been looking for. she has very nice things about her that i can also reflect. i really do love her. i want to say a few more things.
1- she had 17 boyfriends before me, but im sure all of them were not deep relashionships, and if u look at her age and at the number of the boyfriends she has, it will be clear cz some lasted less than a week ( she told me that). moreover, i think the reason for that is that some of her boyfriends used her and she was broken by them. i dont really know much, but she told me once that one of her ex threatned her that if she doesnt give him some nude pic of her, he will open a fake facebook account for her and will make many problem. she told that she refused and she was hurt much by that guy. i think this is the main reason why she had many relashionship. and as for me, it is the complete opposite cz i was improving my self and wanted to have a real deep relashionship with a girl that i love, so i didnt have a girlfriend before.
2-we still talk face to face and on chat until now. and recently, i told her that i love her eyes and i made a compliment on them. to my amazement, she said that she love my eyes and their color (i have brown eyes) and said that they were big, and she likes to stare at them. and she used to tell me i am one of the closest person to her and she loves me.
3- i recently walked with a girl during recess that is pretty, but she is my friend and she know this story. when we were walking she told me that the girl i love was staring by me in the corner of her eyes. but she told that she was staring.
4- one friend of mine told me that when i first talked to the girl i love, her friends didnt like me altough i dont know them. but he said they hated me cz im skinny. and these girls kept laughing on her in the summer that they had their boyfriends taking them out to places and such, while she had to be stuck only talkiing to me on chat in the summer.
5- it has been two weeks she hasnt talked to her boyfriend, and personally i think she dosent love him and it could be that she is with hi to impress her girl friends (cz the guy is quite tall and big, and scrawny like me) , but im not sure about that. to addition, one thing i hate is that the guy she is with right now is not better than me ( trust me, i usually judge people right, and i am good at it, cz i look at their actions and not at their looks).
plz ineed advice, and plz dont tell me to forget her cz i love really her and it was so hard for me to find a girl that has things i was looking for (she is a great catch, and i know that i am too a great catch).
plz help me. i dont want to bang the girl or use her as a toy like most guys do. i think the girl may have problems with guys cz she had many awful relashionships and i think that i am the only one that can help her in this area.
one thing i keep telling myself is that to win her back i must be able to give her up and i must play it smartly and have patience.
but im really unhappy without her, although happiness to me never depended on others, especially girl, and i am really desprete right now and i am losing my mind.
i have been improving myself the past years of my life and shrugging my afc problems and becoming a man.
about 9 month ago i started turning into a don juan. i knew what i wanted in life and how to get it, and i was improving my life in every area. and i was looking for a girl that have what i was looking for. i talked to many girls and got to know them a bit. i knew this girl in my school that was a year younger than me. i talked to her from time to time and had some fun with her. i used to chat with her on facebook when i was bored at home and she was online. when school was finished we still chatted on facebook and we were getting closer an closer. i got to know her better as time passed. she fell in love with me before i did and soon we were pretty close. i made it clear that i wanted to be more than friends with her and i told her i want to make sure that it is gonna work out in school. she used to show me she loved me and such, i did too. when half august had passed i was confused about a few thing that i didnt find the answer to. i asked myself do i want her? i couldnt get a clear answer for myself. another thing, i was starting to get success with girls and i thought maybe i can get better and prettier girls. there were prettier girls, but she was also very pretty ( she is a 7-8 maybe). and one thing that kept me mad that i couldnt see her cz i dnt have car and i wasnt sure about things and i didnt want to have a relashionship on facebook cz we chatted many hours daily. i tested her as much as i can to see if she love me, and she was crazy about me. as school got nearer we were a bit distant. when school came i wasnt sure about myself if i should go for her or not. i only talked to her once in the recess. after two weeks i saw her with another guy taller and bigger than me. actually i am 1.8 meter tall ( i am considered very tall) and im 60kg so i am a bit scrawny, altough i joined a gym lately. when i saw my girl with another guy i said to myself that she means nothing to me and that i can get better girls and i didnt talk to her. i was real mad that she hadnt the courage to face me. after a month, i didnt find a girl who is worth it. i didnt walk with any girl during the recess. so after a while i decided to talk to her, but she was always with her new boyfriend. so i talked to her on chat and i told her exactly why i was mad at her and asked her why she left me for another guy and every thing. i asked if she loves, and she said not anymore. after an hour fighting her i broke all the walls she built and i did somehow manage make her sensitive. she seemed to want me ( all her action still until now express that she loves me), but she was lost between 2 guys. finally one day i talked to her face to face and i told her that i love her and that i want her from the bottom of my heart and that i am desprete without her. she tried to be strong and didnt talk much, but she was speechless, i noticed. it has been more than one month that i have been trying to forget her but, but i cant. she has rare qualities i never found in another girl. she is the girl i have been looking for. she has very nice things about her that i can also reflect. i really do love her. i want to say a few more things.
1- she had 17 boyfriends before me, but im sure all of them were not deep relashionships, and if u look at her age and at the number of the boyfriends she has, it will be clear cz some lasted less than a week ( she told me that). moreover, i think the reason for that is that some of her boyfriends used her and she was broken by them. i dont really know much, but she told me once that one of her ex threatned her that if she doesnt give him some nude pic of her, he will open a fake facebook account for her and will make many problem. she told that she refused and she was hurt much by that guy. i think this is the main reason why she had many relashionship. and as for me, it is the complete opposite cz i was improving my self and wanted to have a real deep relashionship with a girl that i love, so i didnt have a girlfriend before.
2-we still talk face to face and on chat until now. and recently, i told her that i love her eyes and i made a compliment on them. to my amazement, she said that she love my eyes and their color (i have brown eyes) and said that they were big, and she likes to stare at them. and she used to tell me i am one of the closest person to her and she loves me.
3- i recently walked with a girl during recess that is pretty, but she is my friend and she know this story. when we were walking she told me that the girl i love was staring by me in the corner of her eyes. but she told that she was staring.
4- one friend of mine told me that when i first talked to the girl i love, her friends didnt like me altough i dont know them. but he said they hated me cz im skinny. and these girls kept laughing on her in the summer that they had their boyfriends taking them out to places and such, while she had to be stuck only talkiing to me on chat in the summer.
5- it has been two weeks she hasnt talked to her boyfriend, and personally i think she dosent love him and it could be that she is with hi to impress her girl friends (cz the guy is quite tall and big, and scrawny like me) , but im not sure about that. to addition, one thing i hate is that the guy she is with right now is not better than me ( trust me, i usually judge people right, and i am good at it, cz i look at their actions and not at their looks).
plz ineed advice, and plz dont tell me to forget her cz i love really her and it was so hard for me to find a girl that has things i was looking for (she is a great catch, and i know that i am too a great catch).
plz help me. i dont want to bang the girl or use her as a toy like most guys do. i think the girl may have problems with guys cz she had many awful relashionships and i think that i am the only one that can help her in this area.
one thing i keep telling myself is that to win her back i must be able to give her up and i must play it smartly and have patience.
but im really unhappy without her, although happiness to me never depended on others, especially girl, and i am really desprete right now and i am losing my mind.
