This will be a long post.
In sep. I will be turning 23. I come from a frustrated weekend. Some chicks (who ****) were to be hanging out with me and my friends, I would **** the HB8.5 chick whilst my friend who already nailed her will be presented to her friend (to me a HB8)
I make some PUA vocabulary but to be honest, I've never HAD SEX.
Shocking, I'm good-looking, tall (6"1), brunette. I'm not american, I was born in México.
Before high school I loved to jerk-off several times a day, sometimes I would break my record of jerking-off on my previous record :wave:
Thing is that since I was a little kid I was thinking on sex (I even wanted to see my cousin pu$$y when she was about 5 years, the same age as me at that moment).
I've started reading material from David D, Jeffries, RSD, Mystery, Style, blah blah, but dude, my mind is so ****ed up. Maybe this came in my high-school year where first a girl had a crush on me but I ****ed it up (after a year and half of knowing her wanting me). So after that happened, I thought no girl would ever be interested in me.
I've been in college since 2001, then switched school, changed career. To some extent in 2005 I made a decision to start to talk to more women I like. Went well, but the ones who I met would refuse to go out with me.
LAst year, a girl was PRETTY interested in me, so I finally decided to invite her to the movies and then a CRAP * CRAP * convo about failed relationships with other women (DO NOT DO THAT). Lost her, what's worse is that her is a girl from college (from a diff career) but she has hotter friends that her, so I was ****ed up. Anyways I'm not into meeting women in my uni since I don't find attractive ones.
I started studying dating stuff (mentioned above) in about May this year, during holidays vacations which ended 2 weeks ago I COULD have meet women WHO where HOLDING EYE CONTACT with me, but I was still so AFC that I didn't have the nerve to approach.
Heck, in my high school I thought girls were nice and didn't figure they would like to be touched by a guy casually on a date. I was a childish AFC, I can't figure out the pattern I had those days.
I know that I'm sucking big times with girls, I've talked to my buddies about dating books (like DyD) but they were reluctant to believe what I said to them (they believe a girl can have sex, but that it takes months to achieve it), and they BRAG that they didn't need to learn anything on how to handle women. The more close friend of mine (in short relation time - about 2 years), I've switched friends, some people are not what you think they are). So anyways, this friend is shorter than me, is not that good-looking than me, but even though he has enjoyed make-out sessions and had sex for at least 20 times.
I have stopped learning material, I'd like to learn more, but right now I'm concentrating on making money online via affiliate programs, I think I wasted a lot of time reading woman & dating stuff.
I'm still an AFC, since I didn't approach, I had the lines, routines, blah blah. My brain is so sabotagin my whole self I feel like crap.
I see everyone having girlfriends, enjoying life, but I'm in a hole.
What are your suggestions on where my energy should be focused and advice to get thorough this LOSER stage.
P.S. I've 2 younger brothers, the younger one wants me to be a FIGURE so to speak in where I talk to women without fear, getting laid, etc. He is 15 now, and I've been providing stuff to tease the girls, I'd like him not to be like me (I was clueless when in presence with women - this is because I started interacting with them since college - MAYBE I was a mamas boy)
P.S.2 A Starbucks has just opened here in my city (I know, this is not US), and smoking hot women hang there, I have gone there once, riding my bike along with my young brother, and thought, * jeez, this is the place where David DeAngelo picks up women * I'd like to do that to.
A cry and I'm off to bed
In sep. I will be turning 23. I come from a frustrated weekend. Some chicks (who ****) were to be hanging out with me and my friends, I would **** the HB8.5 chick whilst my friend who already nailed her will be presented to her friend (to me a HB8)
I make some PUA vocabulary but to be honest, I've never HAD SEX.
Shocking, I'm good-looking, tall (6"1), brunette. I'm not american, I was born in México.
Before high school I loved to jerk-off several times a day, sometimes I would break my record of jerking-off on my previous record :wave:
Thing is that since I was a little kid I was thinking on sex (I even wanted to see my cousin pu$$y when she was about 5 years, the same age as me at that moment).
I've started reading material from David D, Jeffries, RSD, Mystery, Style, blah blah, but dude, my mind is so ****ed up. Maybe this came in my high-school year where first a girl had a crush on me but I ****ed it up (after a year and half of knowing her wanting me). So after that happened, I thought no girl would ever be interested in me.
I've been in college since 2001, then switched school, changed career. To some extent in 2005 I made a decision to start to talk to more women I like. Went well, but the ones who I met would refuse to go out with me.
LAst year, a girl was PRETTY interested in me, so I finally decided to invite her to the movies and then a CRAP * CRAP * convo about failed relationships with other women (DO NOT DO THAT). Lost her, what's worse is that her is a girl from college (from a diff career) but she has hotter friends that her, so I was ****ed up. Anyways I'm not into meeting women in my uni since I don't find attractive ones.
I started studying dating stuff (mentioned above) in about May this year, during holidays vacations which ended 2 weeks ago I COULD have meet women WHO where HOLDING EYE CONTACT with me, but I was still so AFC that I didn't have the nerve to approach.
Heck, in my high school I thought girls were nice and didn't figure they would like to be touched by a guy casually on a date. I was a childish AFC, I can't figure out the pattern I had those days.
I know that I'm sucking big times with girls, I've talked to my buddies about dating books (like DyD) but they were reluctant to believe what I said to them (they believe a girl can have sex, but that it takes months to achieve it), and they BRAG that they didn't need to learn anything on how to handle women. The more close friend of mine (in short relation time - about 2 years), I've switched friends, some people are not what you think they are). So anyways, this friend is shorter than me, is not that good-looking than me, but even though he has enjoyed make-out sessions and had sex for at least 20 times.
I have stopped learning material, I'd like to learn more, but right now I'm concentrating on making money online via affiliate programs, I think I wasted a lot of time reading woman & dating stuff.
I'm still an AFC, since I didn't approach, I had the lines, routines, blah blah. My brain is so sabotagin my whole self I feel like crap.
I see everyone having girlfriends, enjoying life, but I'm in a hole.
What are your suggestions on where my energy should be focused and advice to get thorough this LOSER stage.
P.S. I've 2 younger brothers, the younger one wants me to be a FIGURE so to speak in where I talk to women without fear, getting laid, etc. He is 15 now, and I've been providing stuff to tease the girls, I'd like him not to be like me (I was clueless when in presence with women - this is because I started interacting with them since college - MAYBE I was a mamas boy)
P.S.2 A Starbucks has just opened here in my city (I know, this is not US), and smoking hot women hang there, I have gone there once, riding my bike along with my young brother, and thought, * jeez, this is the place where David DeAngelo picks up women * I'd like to do that to.
A cry and I'm off to bed
