About 2 years ago i ended a 4 year LTR because i wanted too try and become this multimillionaire high flying businessman
I feel this archetype is often sold to young men as the pinnacle of existence
So i ended the relationship I moved city , expanded my side hustle and really pushed myself out of my comfort zone
Fast forward to today and i don't know i feel kind of lost , in the last year i have started to realise that money and status don't really bring that much happiness they just allow a certain level of freedom and autonomy which is nice but pretty useless when everyone else is willingly involved in the "matrix"
i place very little value in materialistic goods and i am finding the majority of people i meet are very empty and are usually obsessed with their "image" or body and seem to be very easily swayed by whatever the latest widespread hysteria is
( COVID , LGBT , BLM , Ukraine war , Inflation )..... to name a few plot lines in the last couple of years
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I have also lost all interest in alcohol and partying i did use this as my outlet in my 20's but now i am tired of it and also feel its changed quite a lot in the last few years if i got out now i feel like i am forcing myself out
I did try going to church for a bit , some of it did make sense and there were some nice people there
but i was also starting to get some cult like vibes so i don't go very much anymore
I get most of my enjoyment now from hiking and interacting with any animals i see on my travels , unfortunately we are in the heart of the winter in the UK and obviously i can't get out much
I am starting to wonder is this it ? it seems like nearly everyone on the planet is chasing a never ending pit of money / debt and how many "things" can i buy with my money
How do people cope with the banality of life ?
I often wondered whilst i was younger why so many people had children given the amount of time and resources they consume , now i am starting to understand there actually isn't a great deal else to do