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Dear friends
Please read my story and comment every paragraph, if possible
My wife, Brenda, is 45 and has bipolar disorder since I knew her in 1988
She is very conservative and religous, honest. Our sexual relation is also very conservative way
I am Paul 40, and my doctor said I have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder,
since 1998 when I first look for doctor when I started to have unwanted
toughts of killing my wife because of cheating ( though I know I would never hurt or kill her)
We met 19 years ago, and though not living together, we met every weeked in her home.
We started a long term relationship and I was very faithful and and trusted her
I 1995, I felt cheated by her, though I had never any real evidence
She used to say the name Bill very ofen, and this annoyed me
She said Bill was only a great friend
We started to live together since 1998
In that year, I took prozac for 12 mounths because of unwanted thoughts
I 2001, in a severe bipolar crisis crise, she became too agressive, breaking objects and causing me some not important injuries
And in that very day, she told me:
"I really made love with Bill ! And that was because I loved him"
I decided not to believe her because she said it in a very angry moment
She became better when we moved to the mountains in 2004 and the manic crisis then happened very rarely. I could have piece since 2004 as I had never before
She takes no medicine since then. The only thing I notice in her behauviour is that there are some stalker following our steps
For her, any neighbour could be a stalker and dangerous for us
As we had some peace in home , I did´t worry about it
She becomes a better wife and specially in the last 2 mounts, she often says " I love very much"
But the thoughts that she could have cheated on me were still in my mind and I had always thought of a revange
I the middle of 2004 I started to travel alone for work and finally I started my revange by meeting women I previousy typed over the internet
I was very glad and satisfied, though some times a feelling of regret that were immediately put aside by the though " I love her, but this is my revange, and I need it"
I think she never found out, because I am very carefull
After almost 2 years cheating her, this time, I flyed with my wife on friday and slept together on friday night
She said she had a new knicker (bottom only) into the luggage, for us
( I was expecting she would wear it for me)
On the saturday morning I went for work in another hotel, then I got back to lunch with her in the room of her hotel 1:00 pm and went back to my work at 2:00pm
(I didnt cheat on her at this time. I only cheated when I am thousands of miles alway from her)
When I got back to her hotel at 17:00 pm, I talked about some not important subjects
Later, I looked into our luggage and saw her new knicker, already used
(I looked into the luggage while she was taking bath for dinner)
She intended to go out with me for dinner but as we walked on the street and could not find a restaurant quickly, and she was very hunger, she just left alone on the street and got back to the hotel and I went back just benhind her
We slept in the same bed, she was angry, but there was no phisycal agression as in the past, only some verbal argue from her
In the sunday morning, she took a taxi and went alone to the airport (9:30AM)though the flight was only 12:30PM
I went to the airport at 11:30PM and did not see here there, I only saw her inside the plane and we seated not near
She does not type over the internet at it was our first time in that city and state, 800 miles from our city
My suspects
I am afraid from a revange from her, because she could have noticed something in my behauviour, though I am very carefull
1- As she does not type over the net, the only chance is that she could had found a guy into the hotel on the saturday and went to his room.
I mean, had met him and had sex in the very same day
2- In the next day, she could have met the same guy in the morning and went with him to some place until the time of her flight
Please gimme your opinions, comment every points of my tex, because I also my be wrong. I am very confuse rigth now
But be sincere, please, I am a very stable guy, I would never hurt her
Dear friends
Please read my story and comment every paragraph, if possible
My wife, Brenda, is 45 and has bipolar disorder since I knew her in 1988
She is very conservative and religous, honest. Our sexual relation is also very conservative way
I am Paul 40, and my doctor said I have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder,
since 1998 when I first look for doctor when I started to have unwanted
toughts of killing my wife because of cheating ( though I know I would never hurt or kill her)
We met 19 years ago, and though not living together, we met every weeked in her home.
We started a long term relationship and I was very faithful and and trusted her
I 1995, I felt cheated by her, though I had never any real evidence
She used to say the name Bill very ofen, and this annoyed me
She said Bill was only a great friend
We started to live together since 1998
In that year, I took prozac for 12 mounths because of unwanted thoughts
I 2001, in a severe bipolar crisis crise, she became too agressive, breaking objects and causing me some not important injuries
And in that very day, she told me:
"I really made love with Bill ! And that was because I loved him"
I decided not to believe her because she said it in a very angry moment
She became better when we moved to the mountains in 2004 and the manic crisis then happened very rarely. I could have piece since 2004 as I had never before
She takes no medicine since then. The only thing I notice in her behauviour is that there are some stalker following our steps
For her, any neighbour could be a stalker and dangerous for us
As we had some peace in home , I did´t worry about it
She becomes a better wife and specially in the last 2 mounts, she often says " I love very much"
But the thoughts that she could have cheated on me were still in my mind and I had always thought of a revange
I the middle of 2004 I started to travel alone for work and finally I started my revange by meeting women I previousy typed over the internet
I was very glad and satisfied, though some times a feelling of regret that were immediately put aside by the though " I love her, but this is my revange, and I need it"
I think she never found out, because I am very carefull
After almost 2 years cheating her, this time, I flyed with my wife on friday and slept together on friday night
She said she had a new knicker (bottom only) into the luggage, for us
( I was expecting she would wear it for me)
On the saturday morning I went for work in another hotel, then I got back to lunch with her in the room of her hotel 1:00 pm and went back to my work at 2:00pm
(I didnt cheat on her at this time. I only cheated when I am thousands of miles alway from her)
When I got back to her hotel at 17:00 pm, I talked about some not important subjects
Later, I looked into our luggage and saw her new knicker, already used
(I looked into the luggage while she was taking bath for dinner)
She intended to go out with me for dinner but as we walked on the street and could not find a restaurant quickly, and she was very hunger, she just left alone on the street and got back to the hotel and I went back just benhind her
We slept in the same bed, she was angry, but there was no phisycal agression as in the past, only some verbal argue from her
In the sunday morning, she took a taxi and went alone to the airport (9:30AM)though the flight was only 12:30PM
I went to the airport at 11:30PM and did not see here there, I only saw her inside the plane and we seated not near
She does not type over the internet at it was our first time in that city and state, 800 miles from our city
My suspects
I am afraid from a revange from her, because she could have noticed something in my behauviour, though I am very carefull
1- As she does not type over the net, the only chance is that she could had found a guy into the hotel on the saturday and went to his room.
I mean, had met him and had sex in the very same day
2- In the next day, she could have met the same guy in the morning and went with him to some place until the time of her flight
Please gimme your opinions, comment every points of my tex, because I also my be wrong. I am very confuse rigth now
But be sincere, please, I am a very stable guy, I would never hurt her
