Constantly... Especially now that I no longer become infatuated, have my head up in the clouds, and pay attention to EVERYTHING. Lust blinds you. Wearing your heart on a sleeve is the worst thing you can do.
This is something I picked up on during my heart-broken stages. It was like, why do I hate everything about all these girls now that I'm NOT pursuing them, giving my heart out, etc - when they're no different than the other ho's I dated? Or, when I'm not attracted to someone. It's because I was infatuated, rushed in heart first, and didn't give a ****. Only to find out that I hated everything about them, but was too attached to let go. Big mistake.
Most people aren't that great in general. You only think a certain woman is perfect because you have a crush on her, and she's hot. That's it. Its a fantasy you build in your head - based on her looks. The angel turns out to be quite the demon. Only, she always was.
Now that I look back, and think of the things they said - I'm disappointed in myself for ever getting involved with complete ****ing retards. I even sympathized with, and tried to save them. Gah! I want to punch myself sometimes. :box:
I can't even begin to tell you the kind of idiotic, shallow **** they said. They had no depth, no personality, no character, no sense of humor, no nothing. Just garbage ass people. And they had the nerve to ask why people don't take them seriously, beat their asses, use them for sex, defriend them, etc. Nobody likes a loser, retard, liar, manipulator, etc. But there was me, Captain Save A Ho, viewing them as afraid and misunderstood; only pretending to be worthless and shallow and stupid and slutty and **** **** *****.
So yea... Definitely.