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Master Don Juan
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First off I've been here before under a different name. so hey guys. but this post is just a journal of me. interested? read. not? leave.
Everyone in life has a purpose. Everyone is meant to do something. I was raised to enjoy helping people but I have found a way to strip that programming and find my true self. I've been alive for less than a lot of years and the one thing I'm sure about is that if you can't give me what I want then you are of no use to me and I will no longer tolerate "chit chatting" with you. My time is valuable and I don't waste it. This goes for everything in my life whether it be a job can only give Part-time when i want full-time, a friend or family member that can't help me when I want their help, or a girl that only offers friendship when I want sex.
I attract haters followers friends and lovers. the only ppl I keep around for more than a night are followers and females that fall in love with me but i keep it short term only.
To all of those that can't give me what I want at the time I offer two things - an immediate withdrawal of my personality and an ejection out of the conversation with You.
i dont take commands from people that cant singlehandedly take away my income. i dont take advice from people that are equal or below me. I only take advice when I need to learn. There is always an agenda and if im talking to you then i see usefulness in you. Either I'm learning a trait that I admire in you or i am seducing you. I never voice what i am learning from you because i want to see it In raw form without ego. And i definitely dont voice my sexual desires when trying to bed you because thats stupid and the thought is actually making me laugh.
I enjoy getting laid but after a while keeping track of my notch count felt ridiculous so I stopped counting. I'm no longer sure where I stand but I kno it's admirable.
I encounter a ton of resistance during the sex on the first night but if shes alone with me for more than a few hours then she will succumb to her desires.
i keep my dreams, desires, goals, and agendas to myself. I learned from a young age that voicing them is pointless. Also I'm a really calm person. if I'm not calm then I am angry, but its only a really hot and quick flash of anger. They don't come as often anymore so sometimes I have to fake them.
I've had girlfriends ranging from seventeen to forty two. i have yet to meet a girl that doesnt enjoy being choked during sex and being slapped spontaneously unappologetically and occasionally. I don't punch but I do enjoy the look of obedience that follows a swift slap.
when I go to meet women I go out alone because the thought of using a crutch clashes with my ego and my ego is my pride and joy. I don't have a problem with lying and manipulating, but then again I'm an atheist so maybe that has something to do with it - kidding.
I have girls in rotation that consider themselves to be my girlfriend because of something I may have said or Implied. hell, i may even have a couple of babies. but when a female says she loves me i cant help but be dubious so i find ways to make her prove it.
By societies expectations I am a bad person, but I make the rules. im not searching for love. i dont want kids right now. im young. i enjoy that first time of sliding a girls panties down. i enjoy that feeling of slapping her. i dont answer to anyone. i have the next eight years of my financial life planned out. i want to be president. i want the world to be proud that i am apart of it. I thrive in anonymity. i don't bother to remember names so every girl i bang is "babe." i may be spiraling out of control but i wont stop unless i can see for myself that its bad for my health.
I could go on for days about my thoughts and what not but would rather spare you.
I've never revealed my true thoughts to anyone since I learned all the reasons not to. I probably never will again either. it makes me feel like i will feel a blade in my spine sooner than later.
i can see my Achilles heel in this novel I wrote. its complicated but it's there and I will never admit to it if its mentioned. if you have read this then we can never meet and pick up women as a team because I will never let any real person that reads this meet me in person. I would be able to be pawned. however if you have taken the time to read this then I applaud you. don't hold your applause for me
(edited for your convenience)
Everyone in life has a purpose. Everyone is meant to do something. I was raised to enjoy helping people but I have found a way to strip that programming and find my true self. I've been alive for less than a lot of years and the one thing I'm sure about is that if you can't give me what I want then you are of no use to me and I will no longer tolerate "chit chatting" with you. My time is valuable and I don't waste it. This goes for everything in my life whether it be a job can only give Part-time when i want full-time, a friend or family member that can't help me when I want their help, or a girl that only offers friendship when I want sex.
I attract haters followers friends and lovers. the only ppl I keep around for more than a night are followers and females that fall in love with me but i keep it short term only.
To all of those that can't give me what I want at the time I offer two things - an immediate withdrawal of my personality and an ejection out of the conversation with You.
i dont take commands from people that cant singlehandedly take away my income. i dont take advice from people that are equal or below me. I only take advice when I need to learn. There is always an agenda and if im talking to you then i see usefulness in you. Either I'm learning a trait that I admire in you or i am seducing you. I never voice what i am learning from you because i want to see it In raw form without ego. And i definitely dont voice my sexual desires when trying to bed you because thats stupid and the thought is actually making me laugh.
I enjoy getting laid but after a while keeping track of my notch count felt ridiculous so I stopped counting. I'm no longer sure where I stand but I kno it's admirable.
I encounter a ton of resistance during the sex on the first night but if shes alone with me for more than a few hours then she will succumb to her desires.
i keep my dreams, desires, goals, and agendas to myself. I learned from a young age that voicing them is pointless. Also I'm a really calm person. if I'm not calm then I am angry, but its only a really hot and quick flash of anger. They don't come as often anymore so sometimes I have to fake them.
I've had girlfriends ranging from seventeen to forty two. i have yet to meet a girl that doesnt enjoy being choked during sex and being slapped spontaneously unappologetically and occasionally. I don't punch but I do enjoy the look of obedience that follows a swift slap.
when I go to meet women I go out alone because the thought of using a crutch clashes with my ego and my ego is my pride and joy. I don't have a problem with lying and manipulating, but then again I'm an atheist so maybe that has something to do with it - kidding.
I have girls in rotation that consider themselves to be my girlfriend because of something I may have said or Implied. hell, i may even have a couple of babies. but when a female says she loves me i cant help but be dubious so i find ways to make her prove it.
By societies expectations I am a bad person, but I make the rules. im not searching for love. i dont want kids right now. im young. i enjoy that first time of sliding a girls panties down. i enjoy that feeling of slapping her. i dont answer to anyone. i have the next eight years of my financial life planned out. i want to be president. i want the world to be proud that i am apart of it. I thrive in anonymity. i don't bother to remember names so every girl i bang is "babe." i may be spiraling out of control but i wont stop unless i can see for myself that its bad for my health.
I could go on for days about my thoughts and what not but would rather spare you.
I've never revealed my true thoughts to anyone since I learned all the reasons not to. I probably never will again either. it makes me feel like i will feel a blade in my spine sooner than later.
i can see my Achilles heel in this novel I wrote. its complicated but it's there and I will never admit to it if its mentioned. if you have read this then we can never meet and pick up women as a team because I will never let any real person that reads this meet me in person. I would be able to be pawned. however if you have taken the time to read this then I applaud you. don't hold your applause for me
(edited for your convenience)
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