Hello my SoSuave brothers,
Over the past year I’ve been contemplating ending my life. A year ago I suffered an injury that has left me with chronic pain, mostly homebound, and sexual dysfunction. I can barely work part-time and I’m on the cusp of losing everything I worked so hard to build during my life.
There is no such thing as a spontaneous suicide like you hear in the media. Those who take their lives often spend months and even years agonizing over the decision. It is often a domino effect as the world around them collapses on top of them. I have tried nearly everything I can think of going to multitudes of doctors, psychiatrists, physical therapy, and psychological therapists. I even spent 2 weeks locked up in a psychiatric facility. I am almost out of cards to play and feel to be doomed to this existence or death. I can’t believe this is what my life has come to. We all were once children with hopes and dreams and so many times I've wished I could return to that gentle naive state.
I am not seeking attention or pity from anyone. It is not necessary to even respond. I just wanted to get my story out there. Hopefully, one day I can find healing and happiness or hopefully a part of me lives on in you and can have the happiness and healing that wasn't meant for me. If any of you would say a prayer or save a thought for me I would greatly appreciate it.
I'm not going to give you the full lecture. There is no need for that. I'm sorry to read this and I feel for you personal struggle.
My contribution is only this:
I once read or heard (
Some kind of entrepreneurial/success motivational book/audio book), the story of this guy, I cannot remember his name unfortunately), but this guy really loved food and especially sausages.
He dreamt about it 24/7/364 and a way to provide for himself and his family in his head, but he was disabled from his neck down and could not move. So his life was severely limited by this fact.
But he had these amazing ideas and recipes in his head and he basically built larger sausage business from his sofa even though we "
normies" with perfect health see it as limitation of value of life, he overcame it, and as such it might not always be the case.
He did it and got real satisfaction out of his life.
I wish I could give you a link to this story, but I simply cannot remember his name or the company name that apparently is still a larger operative company in the US.
Hope this perspective of things might give you something of value for your.
