My first marriage brought me here :rockon: .
We separated from each other early in January 2003 due to events that transpired in 2002 :cuss: which caused a personal implosion of enormous proportion
. My life had reached a crossroad kind of like a point were people commit suicide . I didn’t have food or money to eat with and my self-esteem drilled right through rock-bottom.
I placed my happiness in the palms of her hand and she crushed it without remorse:kick: . I maintained the apartment but I felt as lonely as the loneliness homeless person
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The first month was the hardest month I’ve ever had to deal with since leaving home nine years ago. Not only was I eating straps of food here and there, I didn’t have money to pay the rent for February 2003. Due to the grace of God, my landlords graciously granted me a 15 day extension to pay (Military get paid 1st and 15th of the month). I had to get an evening job delivering pizza to keep my head above water. It helped but I was still lonely and depressed.
One day at work I took a personality test online and the last question asked if I need help with women and of course I marked yes. After inputting my email I received an email from this guy who claimed he knew all the secrets to dating (David D). I started reading his emails and I was I a total state of shock
. I thought this guy must be out of his freaking mind if he honestly believes this stuff works:cuss: . I started listening when I read a few phrases that my wife had spoken. Things like, “I need to find myself”, “It’s not you, it’s me” and “You’re to good for me”.
The more I read, the more and more info I wanted
. I purchased his ebook double your dating and enjoyed the H*LL out of it. I was a new man that craved information from anywhere I can get it. One day I was at work googling and somehow came across this site. I spent the first year on the main website reading articles and everything available to read at that time. I avoided these forums because I didn’t think they had anything to offer, boy was I wrong. A year had passed since my wife had left and everything was the complete opposite. I was on cloud nine and nothing was going to impeade me. The beginning of 2003 was the worst time of my life and thanks to the information provided here my life has been joyful ever since.
In Nov 2004 I joined the community not for advice but to share the things I had endured the previous 20 months. Every time I think about how AFC I was, I just want to bang my head against the wall. Everyday I see guys in similar situations as I was in those years and I just shake my head. I no longer try helping them because they too think I’m out of my mind once I begin explaining this stuff. Now, I just let them learn the hard way because they’ll be more open to it.
The reason I'm still her is that I hate eating and then running. This place picked me up when I was down so I can't turn my back on it now.