Some of you will probably remember my marriage threads etc. Well I was totally swept up in my old oneitis who I somehow actually gave it a shot with after four years.
Now I'm probably going to get torn apart by most of you, but I'm not a KJ and I won't hide the truth from you. We all fvck up sometimes.
I was actually considering getting married. I was smart enough not to go through with proposing just yet though. I realized my education, business, etc. didn't need to be flipped upside down for this girl. So I suppose I did something smart.
She was crazy. Everytime I gave advice to a friend or offered a friend some part time work for a night she would be on my case about it. Always made me feel in adequate. Didn't give me what I needed in any form especially physically (hence the marriage rush she kept promising to turn her body over to her husband. She is extremely religious)
Every rule I ever set for myself I broke. What do I have to show for it? Nothing. Haven't even learned anything new that I didn't learn going through this years ago. Just a refresher lesson though, which I suppose is good in a way.
I wouldn't back down once about giving a friend a job for ONE night nothing permanent and she ended things.
I know its time to rebuild. It's rough and been a rough week. Any words of encouragement would be appreciated.
Thanks SS and Good luck to everyone in their own lives.
Edit* I have made two dates with two girls from high school I ran into at the mall and Wal-mart so I am back on the horse. Just feeling really beaten and tired...
Now I'm probably going to get torn apart by most of you, but I'm not a KJ and I won't hide the truth from you. We all fvck up sometimes.
I was actually considering getting married. I was smart enough not to go through with proposing just yet though. I realized my education, business, etc. didn't need to be flipped upside down for this girl. So I suppose I did something smart.
She was crazy. Everytime I gave advice to a friend or offered a friend some part time work for a night she would be on my case about it. Always made me feel in adequate. Didn't give me what I needed in any form especially physically (hence the marriage rush she kept promising to turn her body over to her husband. She is extremely religious)
Every rule I ever set for myself I broke. What do I have to show for it? Nothing. Haven't even learned anything new that I didn't learn going through this years ago. Just a refresher lesson though, which I suppose is good in a way.
I wouldn't back down once about giving a friend a job for ONE night nothing permanent and she ended things.
I know its time to rebuild. It's rough and been a rough week. Any words of encouragement would be appreciated.
Thanks SS and Good luck to everyone in their own lives.
Edit* I have made two dates with two girls from high school I ran into at the mall and Wal-mart so I am back on the horse. Just feeling really beaten and tired...