So fcking depressed

[search1ng]

This is going to sound trivial and stupid but it's really depressing me,

I'm 20 this year and about to go onto my 3rd year in some stupid degree that'll most likely take me no-where. I had applied to get into a better degree this year that really interested me and i had high hopes for, but i got the rejection offer letter today.

I'm so fcking tired man... i really wanted this, you know, and the letter just ruined my fcking day. I'll have to wait another year if i want to re-apply, but by then i'll be another year older and the degree i want is a 5 year course, not to mention i might be rejected AGAIN.

Now i've got a back-up plan with another degree i was interested in and results for that will be coming in soon..but knowing my fcking luck... i don't even want to think it anymore. It's just really depressing - i keep thinking i'm getting older and i've lost so much **** to this whole university issue. In a fcked up degree, working up a debt going no-where in life. I honestly have nothing to show for 2 years of my life.

and i'm getting older! (yeah i'm not old w/e - this mentality may suck but i was a high achiever throughout secondary education and time is always of the essence. Some chances just don't ever come back)

Anyway, what'd you guys do when you were so depressed? It's probably nothing in the lifelong run but right now, my plans are all fcked and i feel like sh1t. Not the good shit either.

 

[darkstarrr]

Bro I'm 10 years older than you and I'm starting to feel like I'm getting old. I wanted to be married or something by now, at least engaged or headed in that direction. My point is we all have the things in life that are going to make us feel inspired and happy or depressed and like we are getting old (like time is wasted).

I finished under grad when I was 23 years old. Yea I was on the 5 year program. After that I took about a year off from life and just chilled. Studied for law school and then applied and went to law school for a year. I thought it was everything I ever wanted. It felt great. But then I began to realize I had other options.

The economy was doing pretty good at the time and I ended up leaving school and taking a job as an engineer, making more money than I would have if I had finished school and the bar exam and had been working for a couple years as a lawyer.

Either way you cut it you are on the right track because you are making progress. You are in school and you have desire and determination to do soemthing with your life. You are aware that this thing called time exists and you want to make the best of it because fvck, money running out is one thing but when our time is up thats it.

Don't let this sh1t get you down. New opportunities will present themselves. Just try to take it easy and enjoy what you are doing right now. Thnk outsde of the box, because as fvcking cliche as it may sound, when one door closes you would be suprised at how interestingly another one will open, often times when you least expect it.

 

[BlakeW5]

I've been there man. I went to school to get a bio degree with plans of entering medical school. Three-and-a-half years in I changed my mind. I couldn't go to school for another 8 years only to wind up a slave to my job. So I stayed and finished my degree in 5 years. I figured I may as well get it being how close I was.

After I tossed med school, I decided I wanted to do nursing. I could be in the medical field (which I wanted) without the stress, malpractice liability, and devotion to my job. So I applied at a local community college who has hands-down one of THE best nursing programs. I got turned down because I forgot to turn in a transcript for an AP class I took in highschool. I figured the class was listed on my university transcript so I was covered..... I was wrong. The part that pissed me off was the nursing program couldn't even give me a call. It literally would have took me an hour to get the transcript to them. So I was stuck for a whole year wasting time. It crushed me.

I spent the time working a crappy job at UPS. So here I am 25 and have yet to start a real career. I'm preparing to apply again come Jan. 22. With any hope I get admitted, get a good job 2 years later, and can start my own life not living with my parents. So basically, I'm 20 grand in debt, live at home, and have a job making $8 an hour.

It hasn't been easy, but I know things will get better. Just tough it out man. It's rough I know but it's the hard times that teach you who you really are and what you're made of.

 

[search1ng]

fck guys, it's nice to know you're not alone ay. Sh1t i hope things go well for all of us cause i guess i still need to learn to take the good with the bad. Right now i think i might just get some fresh air and get some of my thoughts settled. hopefully come jan 21st my life will have a definitely clearer direction.

 

[search1ng]

well the results for the backup came in and it didn't go well. Seems like I'm technically stuck in limbo for another year... Fck fck fck fck fck, this just sucks.

 

[ElChoclo]

My old man just told me a story today about his childhood. His older brother was hungry so he went down to a shop when he was still a little kid and stole 2 bananas, ran off and gave them to him. This was in a country where everyone normally has plenty to eat. Their mother used to send them away to the movies when they were pretty young to get rid of them. My father would get so tired as a young kid out to all hours that he would be falling asleep on the tram on the way home.

Today they call this child abuse. He was forced by his mother to leave school at 15 and get a job. Maybe Search1ng can tell his kid some horror stories about how he was forced to go to college for 8 years. BlakeW5 can explain how he opted for nursing so that he wouldn't have to show "devotion to his job".

Every generation has a complaint, but then again, are we going to be complaining that we didn't have a big enough TV screen some time in the future.

 

[search1ng]

thanks, i should be grateful for what i have now. I get your point, i just can't accept it as literally.

I'm not complaining, I'm just angry at myself for getting into this situation in the first place. Unlike a lot of people, i had it a lot easier then most, therefore i feel that i should have done at least that much better. Not because I'm 'better then the rest,' but because i owe it to myself and those around me. A year may not seem like much to some, for me it's a time period that is as long as it is short, it goes by in a blink but it's still a year, and that's a lot of hours - hours spent studying, hoping, praying i get into the course i want. What happens if it doesn't work out? I either do it again or eject out and opt for some mundane job. Repeat cycle till i die.

And you know what? Fuck me, I've done some pretty stupid sh1t. I've had to switch degrees and my parents think I'm still in the same degree, in my final year getting ready to get a job. That ain't happening! I'm going to have to either switch into another degree or move onto second year with a manuscript with fails. I've lied to those around me and I'm sick at myself. I've got nothing to show for all this time and this cycle continues until i grow a pair and do something right. Fuck you search1ng and get your act straight.

 

[3countriesPlan]

You are fine dude.. I'm ****ing stuck in Guangdong working 12 hours a day M-F and 8 hours on Saturday.. and on top of that if a client or some scumbag prospective client shows up I have to ruin my weekend to take his sorry ass around the factory.. it also sucks being in the middle of nowhere.. I am 60 miles from Hong Kong but it feels a world away ( transportation blows).. you are fine man just keep applying