Sh!t a$$ life

[SanctuaryX]

This is sort of a rant I am making because I just figured out Everything I like is so far away from me. It is as if I was placed in a life I would have to rearange completely to be happy. Anyways here it goes.
First of all I live in one of the ****tiest places to live in my perspective. There are no hang out spots around. no place to have fun and you just about get arrested for doing anything here. (the other day i got arrested for resting on the sidewalk.)
I hate the place i live in and i hate the neighbors around me. they all hate me because i have friends and i try to have a fun time. also because i am half black, every white kid thinks i'm from the streets or something. My housse is a ****hole and my parents are both annoying and retarted. my dad is a ***** who complains about everything but never does anything himself and my mom is a spoiled, ingrateful woman who complains about absolutely everything including how i'm worthless while i do everything for her. i feel so insecure writing this right now. I would never bring a girl to my house because my dad would try to act cool while my mom would find a reason (even if it made absolutely no sense) to get into a fight with her or a fight with me about her. My dad is so cheap that I haven't gotten a birthday present and any gifts i do get from him have been used to death and/or is from pre 1970.
I go to a snobby school where i hate almost everyone. It is full of rich white kids who stick togeather and are just retarded. I find absolutely no asian, arab, or puerto rican people around. The teachers suck and it's too expensive.
I hate doing just about all the sports my school has except swimming and I won't swim b/c i hate everyone on the swim team. I love dances but my school only has 2 of them and one of them i can barely afford. So the things i love to do in life i can't do.
I hate dudes. I only have a few real guy friends. I love my sistass. they make me feel good. I also love my fwb as a friend of course. I also hate that I'm afraid to go talk to the girls in my school b/c i like some of them. Outside of school it's so easy but not inside. It's probably because of so many ppl around.

 

[SanctuaryX]

I also hate how because I'm half black, everyone wants me to get braids. I think braids are so ugly. I like my fro, and lots of people like my fro, but there are always those *******s who tell me to get a haircut because it is what they think looks better. I also hate how my hair curls up real tight after i shake it after a shower. I hate the fags who tell me to get a 1980's box cut.
I hate having nothing to say sometimes. I hate when people stop me from what i'm doing because they envy me. I hate alot of my relatives. I hate how my mom tries to take credit for all of my acvcomplishmentys. I hate having no passion in life. Nothing excites me or motivates me. I don't think I'm depressed, or maybe I'm so depressed and I don't know it. Everything on tv sucks.
I hate this sh!t.

 

[KillaCam]

I see a lot of venting and complaining, but I don't see what you've done to try and change things.

 

[Junaid]

itl pass...
and honestly iv had worce ...

 

[KillaCam]

itl pass...
and honestly iv had worce ...

Sh1t doesn't just pass dude. Sitting back and crying doesn't change things, he's got to stand up and do it himself.

This ain't a compeition over who's had worse either. We could be here for a while on that one.

 

[wayword]

itl pass...
and honestly iv had worce ...

Ditto...see "teen angst."

 

[SanctuaryX]

Alright after that rant I felt better. I have read a few of the comments and I just want to note.
1. The **** will not just pass. I got over it fast (if thats what you mean) because that one day I was just feeling like **** for no reason (I may be bi-polar or something. I unno.) Where I live is sorta a small city with a high crime rate so most of the white people stay away from the black people except for the few who are cool and the faggot ass wiggers who seriously like to talk **** but won't face up to me when **** goes down . They're also those same kids who tell me to get cornrows (note: I don't think they're ugly, I just cant see me rockin them).
2.Also I got a few comments on how I should change or do some **** about it. Idon't know how you live or whatever but i imagine you probably have parents that say good job when you do a good job or help you out and care about how you grow up.
I have a mother who thinks everything I do in life is wrong and constantly yells at me if I don't do what she wants and my dad didn't even know my age until 2 years ago, barely knows I exist, and is so cheap that he used my birthday and christmas money on his car. I got nothing last year (except some dome )
I also sorta overexaggerated the not being able to talk thing since it only applies to faggots that I don't like or when i'm 2 ****ed up to think. The only thing I can change is my hair and my ratio of talkin to girls (which is going up gradually) so thats all I have to say

ps. sorry if I said something wrong in this post b.c. i don't know anyone here

 

[SanctuaryX]

also this wasn't complaining. at the beginning I saiod it was a rant. (letting of steam)

 

[wayword]

my dad didn't even know my age until 2 years ago, barely knows I exist, and is so cheap that he used my birthday and christmas money on his car. I got nothing last year (except some dome )

Well, if your dad is Black, you're "lucky" you even know who he is...then again, if he's using "your" money for his stuff...maybe not, lol. Well, I'm sure there's a bright side in there somewhere...err, or maybe not. :crazy:

I will give you one tip to avoid a lot of stressing though, quit trying to fit in with the White kids who snob you anyways. You'll be much better off just sticking with Blacks..

 

[sparky0000]

I will give you one tip to avoid a lot of stressing though, quit trying to fit in with the White kids who snob you anyways. You'll be much better off just sticking with Blacks..

I totally disagree with this. Most white American kids worship black kids. We all know that every suburban white kid wants to be down with the six or seven black boys in his school. If I was stuck in America I would curse my mother for not getting it down with a black man so that her son would be cool. Now, light black guys have it even better in America. They are black, but not "too" black.

In the USA I think an Oriental boy stuck in a school with no Oriental girls is really screwed. The Chris Lees and Bryan Wangs of American high school life don't seem to be so popular these days with anything other than Oriental girls. Now, if I was stuck in the USA I think I would aim for an Oriental girl. They tend to be the only things in American high schools that are thin and somewhat mature.

Oh well, just an observation.

 

[wayword]

Most white American kids worship black kids. We all know that every suburban white kid wants to be down with the six or seven black boys in his school. If I was stuck in America I would curse my mother for not getting it down with a black man so that her son would be cool. Now, light black guys have it even better in America. They are black, but not "too" black.

In the USA I think an Oriental boy stuck in a school with no Oriental girls is really screwed. The Chris Lees and Bryan Wangs of American high school life don't seem to be so popular these days with anything other than Oriental girls.

Well, I agree. The US is a very Blackguyphile wigga nation right now. Probably even moreso than Africa! And very Asianguyphobic. As opposed to other parts of the globe, which all have other regional racial preferences...

Anyways, the lunch tables were fairly segregated back when I was in school, and I doubt they're all that much more integrated today. Basically, social circles naturally form around types who mutually want to fvck each other. So, these tend to split down racial and "scenester" lines...although of course you always have some token crossovers. However, since people are different and like to form their own unique subcultures, they will never be evenly integrated. That would be like a lunch table evenly-mixed with jocks, nerds, goths and stoners.

So, I think this dude's rejection by White kids disproves your stereotype that all suburban kids are wiggas these days. Actually, the heyday for that was back in the late 90s. Now, I think far more have already moved on to the latest pop music fad like punk/emo. This guy is 15 years too late. Hip-hop lost its authenticity and cool when it got adopted by White suburban mall rats. And it was bound to eventually lose credibility and self-destruct anyways with all its criminal violence, gross misogyny, total irresponsibility, etc etc - ghetto behaviors that are no longer being romanticized by naive Whites in the wake of Katrina, etc.

 

[Bvbidd]

Wiggerness is kind of over.

lol be an emo.. grow an afro then put on one of those emo hats so the afro goes in your eyes.

And wear tight sweaters and girls jeans.

 

[SanctuaryX]

Wiggerness is kind of over.

lol be an emo.. grow an afro then put on one of those emo hats so the afro goes in your eyes.

And wear tight sweaters and girls jeans.

lol that'll never happen
but for real my best friend is punk, or something. Not quite sure really.

I usually do hang out with the black kids at my school but there are not too many black kids in my school and I can end up in a class where I am with a bunch of fags who will be like "GGGGGGG-UNIT" or say some stupid **** like "
sheeit wud up homey gizzle" and I'll be like wtf. Or they just won't shut up about their dads yacht or plane and how they got a ferrari for their half b-day. And I need to stay there because it's a good education. Some of the only peole I like there are the girls who are seriously true to themselves and a few guys I can call my boyz who are also true to themselves. The rest are fake mother****ers. And I especially hate the guys who try to be funny but aren't (forgot to mention in my rant). So a word of advice, If you're not funny, don't try to be a comedian b/c I'm sure I'm not the only one who hates them.

 

[KillaCam]

2.Also I got a few comments on how I should change or do some **** about it. Idon't know how you live or whatever but i imagine you probably have parents that say good job when you do a good job or help you out and care about how you grow up.
I have a mother who thinks everything I do in life is wrong and constantly yells at me if I don't do what she wants and my dad didn't even know my age until 2 years ago, barely knows I exist, and is so cheap that he used my birthday and christmas money on his car. I got nothing last year (except some dome )

Probably? I fvcking wish. I would kill to even have parents dude, be thankful for what you have in your life.

You have a lot of anger issues dude. You're right to have an opinion, but you're hating a hell of a lot. I'm not trying to be harsh, don't take that in the wrong way..but venting or not, you have a serious amount of frustration/anger/hatred building up, hence the need to let it all off in one go.

 

[sparky0000]

And I especially hate the guys who try to be funny but aren't (forgot to mention in my rant).

So true. Oh, how true that is. Every freaking guy in America is all of a sudden Mr. Funny Boy. These types annoy me about as much as the guys who are always slapping you on the back and calling you bro. or buddy.

The last time I checked, hip-hop and r&b were still getting plenty of run on tv/film. As long as that holds true there will always be love for the black boy in school. Now, if you get too many black guys in school it might actually hurt you. White suburbia likes the lone black. Give them multiple black guys and they call the police.