dude fuxking painful chit that not even funny to think about.
seeing an ex out with her new dude is some painful, goddam, motherfvcking ccksucking chit.
fvcking sucks balls. (twitching)
their is no way to get over such pain then to do some SERIOUS forgiving and deep inner work, basicley seeing her out like that triggers every wrong with you inside, deep childhood wounds, conditioning you've received growing up.
some guys don't care, and some guys really fvcking care. some guys can't eat or sleep for weeks afterwards seeing that.
I know a couple years ago when I saw the mother of my child with some scrub, that look on her face knowing exactly what she was doing, sent me to the depths of hell for weeks afterward, chain smoked and lost a bunch of weight as I knew she was enjoying every second of the agony I was suffering.
getting over that took alongggg goddam time. learning pickip, watching rsd videos, going out every weekend didn't do a thing, it only made things wrse.
the only way I pulled myself out of that mess, and it's happened with multiple girls I've been with, was to completely change my whole way of life from the root.
like I'm talking ditching windows and going straight to linux primarily lol
a big thing to realize is that she victimized you, this is huge. she lead you on, accepted your frame, gave you everything you need, made you feel like your 100% perfect self. made you feel all is right with the world, you have a place, your in love and everything's going to be fvcking awesome utility the day you die, she gave you the most erotic sexual experiences and attention you will never find with anybody esle..
and poof, she vanished, instead of you getting all that attention you thought belonged to you she packs it up, party's over, and hands it to another dude (who you fvcking hate and want to see dead) on a silver platter.
she won't care if you kill yourself, in fact she'll use that tragedy on social media to draw attention to herself, claiming how "she never knew you felt like that" and "if you would've just made your feelings known to her she would've done anything to help" blah blah
and everyone's going to agree with her and sooth her pain that one of her best ex guy friends did something awful like that, and that she should be coddled and ohh poor her feeling sad a guy she used to love offed himself wahhh
I've seen a few girls do this on facebook no lie...
absolutly sickening.
but yeah, she victimized the living piss out of you, you need to realize that deeply before you can move on, you need to criticly analyze every way she fvxked, manipulated, bruralized and controlled you to get to the point you are at now.
because you need to know you've been victimized, before you can stop being a victim, this was my problem for years, girls have been fvxking me over left and right and I never even knew what they were doing to me until I started reading and bpd women.
now that I know am a victim of psychological abuse I can do that forgiveness process and let go, take reaponibility for myself and thats where you develope IRON personal boundaries, where your won't allow any type of that behavior in your life ever again.
long rant, I've just battled this issue forever and any guy going through it pisses me off.
