I been posting a lot the last few days.
Some of you know, I'm going through a breakup right now,
so I want to get this off my chest with some strangers on the internet because I
sure as hell can't tell this to anyone irl.
Like the title says.
My university is located in a pretty sh1tty city, there wasn't a lot of opportunity to spin plates.
I agreed to a relationship with this girl because there weren't much else around.
I was determined to treat this girl like a fb, have some fun because it's my last semester and not get attached,
because I knew well before hands that it's not a good idea.
Sometimes I'd snoop on her phone when she's in the restroom or sleeping.
Not because of jealousy, just for curiousity.
I saw a video of her getting railed by her ex-bf, the one she cheated on
to be with me.
At the time, I just lol'd. The irony of life, sometimes I just don't know what to feel about it.
I learned from all the stone cold DJ on here to just be cool about that kind of sh1t.
But the deeper, I went with this girl, the more disturbed I became.
That video just keeps replaying in my head. Most of the time, I laughed because it was just ****ing disturbing, the irony of karma. Maybe I deserved it.
I read her messages with these guys. Most of them are nothing like us. Extremely low quality and pure afc games, but they still got her.
Eventually she would get bored and dump them.
She's got other pictures too of guys she had random sex with during her summer vacation.
In fact, one of them texted her up one time while she was with me.
This dude was in a city far away that she met while on vacation.
I inquired about it, and she said they didn't have sex. She just sucked his d1ck and didn't swallow like she does with me, she only does that because she "loves" me. :crackup:
She'd also tell me details about other guys. How so-and-so's d1ck was too long and hurted her.
About her days in highschool, where she cheated on every single one of her bf, or that one of her fb accidently came inside her, etc.
I chuckled at it all because that is what a DJ supposed to do, right?
This all came up casually bit by bit during conversation. I wasn't told about it all at once.
I tried keeping my distance from her emotionally, but slowly slowly, I fell deeper.
We went to disney world, and all I paid for was the food and gas.
The hotel, $300 was all on her.
The sex was just too good, I could not break it off.
I had never lusted for a girl so much. It was like a bad drug addiction.
Slowly I got mindfvcked to investing even more emotionally into this relationship.
I was trying to convinced myself that it was all in the past and she's changed for me.
As I'm typing this right now, it seems obvious that I fvcked up, but a small part of myself is still mindfvcked permanently to getting attached with this girl emotionally, because we had such good times together.
In the end, I still wonder what made these kind of girls like this.
What it is about their brain that's so different from a normal girl.
Last thing she told me at the airport, "You can have sex with other girls, just don't get them pregnant. I don't want to raise someone else's kid."
She was still convinced that she would marry me.
I think she probably thought nothing about telling me all those things about her past.
Even though, this relationship is over and the logical part of me is really glad that I did the right thing. I'm still fvcked up emotionally and disturbed by all her stories.
Some of you know, I'm going through a breakup right now,
so I want to get this off my chest with some strangers on the internet because I
sure as hell can't tell this to anyone irl.
Like the title says.
My university is located in a pretty sh1tty city, there wasn't a lot of opportunity to spin plates.
I agreed to a relationship with this girl because there weren't much else around.
I was determined to treat this girl like a fb, have some fun because it's my last semester and not get attached,
because I knew well before hands that it's not a good idea.
Sometimes I'd snoop on her phone when she's in the restroom or sleeping.
Not because of jealousy, just for curiousity.
I saw a video of her getting railed by her ex-bf, the one she cheated on
to be with me.
At the time, I just lol'd. The irony of life, sometimes I just don't know what to feel about it.
I learned from all the stone cold DJ on here to just be cool about that kind of sh1t.
But the deeper, I went with this girl, the more disturbed I became.
That video just keeps replaying in my head. Most of the time, I laughed because it was just ****ing disturbing, the irony of karma. Maybe I deserved it.
I read her messages with these guys. Most of them are nothing like us. Extremely low quality and pure afc games, but they still got her.
Eventually she would get bored and dump them.
She's got other pictures too of guys she had random sex with during her summer vacation.
In fact, one of them texted her up one time while she was with me.
This dude was in a city far away that she met while on vacation.
I inquired about it, and she said they didn't have sex. She just sucked his d1ck and didn't swallow like she does with me, she only does that because she "loves" me. :crackup:
She'd also tell me details about other guys. How so-and-so's d1ck was too long and hurted her.
About her days in highschool, where she cheated on every single one of her bf, or that one of her fb accidently came inside her, etc.
I chuckled at it all because that is what a DJ supposed to do, right?
This all came up casually bit by bit during conversation. I wasn't told about it all at once.
I tried keeping my distance from her emotionally, but slowly slowly, I fell deeper.
We went to disney world, and all I paid for was the food and gas.
The hotel, $300 was all on her.
The sex was just too good, I could not break it off.
I had never lusted for a girl so much. It was like a bad drug addiction.
Slowly I got mindfvcked to investing even more emotionally into this relationship.
I was trying to convinced myself that it was all in the past and she's changed for me.
As I'm typing this right now, it seems obvious that I fvcked up, but a small part of myself is still mindfvcked permanently to getting attached with this girl emotionally, because we had such good times together.
In the end, I still wonder what made these kind of girls like this.
What it is about their brain that's so different from a normal girl.
Last thing she told me at the airport, "You can have sex with other girls, just don't get them pregnant. I don't want to raise someone else's kid."
She was still convinced that she would marry me.
I think she probably thought nothing about telling me all those things about her past.
Even though, this relationship is over and the logical part of me is really glad that I did the right thing. I'm still fvcked up emotionally and disturbed by all her stories.
