Saw Ex Tonight

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This morning I was sitting on my back porch and I thought of a time a year ago when a hummingbird appeared just as I thought of the girl I had started dating (it seemed like an omen). Just then, another hummingbird appeared. I hadn't seen one in 10 months. I wonder if maybe I heard it fluttering and that was what made me think of one, but the odds of seeing a hummingbird just as you are thinking about one must be small. The symbol of boundaries and infinity. Anyhow, story of my life.

So tonight (without checking the 15 messages on my phone) I knew I'd see her. I went to a strip club and there she was, she was the first person I focused on. That happens to me a lot. I somehow know where certain people are, and they are always the first person I set eyes on when I get there. Anyhow, she was dancing for some old bald guy, about 75, wearing shorts and a T-shirt. Then she got called on stage. I hadn't seen her in 3 months. It was the fourth venue I found her at - by chance. All 25 miles from where I live. I did get her a job there, but that was in March.

I felt a little nervous but she smiled at me so I walked up to her and put $5 in her garter. "Long time no see" she said as I fumbled the bill a bit. I told her about the hummingbird and watched her for a moment. She promised she still didn't have any tattoos.

It was strange to see my former dream girl naked on stage and basically feel nothing. The sad reality is, back in May, after she asked if she could live with me and I agreed, she chose to entertain disgusting old men who are 30 years my senior in order to supplement the rent for an underemployed boy toy 25 years my junior, who can't even take me in a fight, because there is just something about him. I left her with gramps and walked out.
 

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If you see her again, just take a dump in her mouth and move on.

You gotta be aware of women who are broke. I had a broke Latina living with me for 2 DAYS and I had to kick her out. They will make you feel miserable and used.
 
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If you see her again, just take a dump in her mouth and move on.

You gotta be aware of women who are broke. I had a broke Latina living with me for 2 DAYS and I had to kick her out. They will make you feel miserable and used.
Yet they will somehow cling to the idea that THEY are the ones that have value. Not you.

Good luck making sense of that.
 

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Weird supernatural chit happenes with exs man..

Just laid in bed for an hour and let my mind run free then turned on my phone and read this..

- its amazing how weak men actually are emotionaly

- its bullchit

- we have zero control over our own emotions when it comes to woman we love, no matter how slutty, trashy and pathetic they can be.

- WHY ARE WE SO PATHETIC

- WHY THE FVCK DO OUR HEARTS FAIL US AND ARE SO FVCKING WEAK

Blah
 

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Well, obviously she went back to stripping.
The sad reality is, back in May, after she asked if she could live with me and I agreed, she chose to entertain disgusting old men who are 30 years my senior in order to supplement the rent for an underemployed boy toy 25 years my junior, who can't even take me in a fight, because there is just something about him. I left her with gramps and walked out.
Sounds like you built her up in your mind to be better than she actually is. A common occurrence when it comes to affairs of the heart.
 

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Well, obviously she went back to stripping.

Sounds like you built her up in your mind to be better than she actually is. A common occurrence when it comes to affairs of the heart.
Her spell over me is broken.

This happens as we work out and seek improvement. We slowly become better and (God knows) she slowly becomes worse, and in the process we lose interest.

At this point, she would have to go out of her way to convince me to see her again. Just about every girl I ever loved eventually was beneath me.
 

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Just about every girl I ever loved eventually was beneath me.
Better to come to that realization, than to continue to live in delusion.
I think of it more this way: Most girls I have loved eventually have proven not to be right for me.

A few of the girls I had feelings for, I just can't believe how stupid I was to choose them (on some level).
Some girls seem to stick in your mind (or your pants) whether you want them to or not.
But as long as you choose the right action and self respect, it doesn't matter.
 

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The one bright spot was when I asked (for the second time) the first question I ever asked her (exactly one year ago): "Do you have any tattoos?" and she said "No. I promise!!".
 

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Bigneil, curious, why do you love going to strip clubs and meeting your girlfriends there? At your age and position it seems off.
 

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This morning I was sitting on my back porch and I thought of a time a year ago when a hummingbird appeared just as I thought of the girl I had started dating (it seemed like an omen). Just then, another hummingbird appeared. I hadn't seen one in 10 months. I wonder if maybe I heard it fluttering and that was what made me think of one, but the odds of seeing a hummingbird just as you are thinking about one must be small. The symbol of boundaries and infinity. Anyhow, story of my life.

So tonight (without checking the 15 messages on my phone) I knew I'd see her. I went to a strip club and there she was, she was the first person I focused on. That happens to me a lot. I somehow know where certain people are, and they are always the first person I set eyes on when I get there. Anyhow, she was dancing for some old bald guy, about 75, wearing shorts and a T-shirt. Then she got called on stage. I hadn't seen her in 3 months. It was the fourth venue I found her at - by chance. All 25 miles from where I live. I did get her a job there, but that was in March.

I felt a little nervous but she smiled at me so I walked up to her and put $5 in her garter. "Long time no see" she said as I fumbled the bill a bit. I told her about the hummingbird and watched her for a moment. She promised she still didn't have any tattoos.

It was strange to see my former dream girl naked on stage and basically feel nothing. The sad reality is, back in May, after she asked if she could live with me and I agreed, she chose to entertain disgusting old men who are 30 years my senior in order to supplement the rent for an underemployed boy toy 25 years my junior, who can't even take me in a fight, because there is just something about him. I left her with gramps and walked out.
What kind of ratchet was strip club, let's people go in with shorts? oh wait you're in texas, BYOBB strip clubs eh what a shame
 

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Yet they will somehow cling to the idea that THEY are the ones that have value. Not you.

Good luck making sense of that.
That's if you fvck em... b1tches at the end of their ropes like that, make em pay you rent p1mp her out sh1t ain't free. Even your d1ck has a price.
 
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That's if you fvck em... b1tches at the end of their ropes like that, make em pay you rent p1mp her out sh1t ain't free. Even your d1ck has a price.
That's great "inner game" but I don't see it working for me.

I don't need any help with money. I spent a lot of time and energy making as much as possible.

Why would they pay for my d1ck when they could get 1000 others?
 

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That's great "inner game" but I don't see it working for me.

I don't need any help with money. I spent a lot of time and energy making as much as possible.

Why would they pay for my d1ck when they could get 1000 others?
Frog your an idiot, but your growing one me. Ima give you some more stellar advice not from PUA or redpill dogma. But from time honored pimpology.

Every man woman and child on this planet falls into one of three labels.

Pimps

Ho's

And Tricks.

Now who the **** do you want to be??
 
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Frog your an idiot, but your growing one me. Ima give you some more stellar advice not from PUA or redpill dogma. But from time honored pimpology.

Every man woman and child on this planet falls into one of three labels.

Pimps

Ho's

And Tricks.

Now who the **** do you want to be??
Yea I'm such an idiot that I will be a millionaire by the time I'm 35, but okay....

Pimp = someone who profits from prostitution. No I don't want to be that.
Ho = I'm not a girl, so I can't be that.
Trick = a girl who sells herself for sex. So I can't be that either.

I just want to have sex with girls from time-to-time and honestly don't care if I have to pay for it because I don't really give a **** about them enough to even pretend that I think they're worth very much. I think they have air in their brains and are completely delusional about their own worth and value to the world.

I plan to have a million bucks and give them NONE. Unless I want to pay $200 at a time for sex every now and then.
 

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I now see her the way you guys always saw her. She is a 7.
It's always a strange feeling when you can objectively look at an ex without that hit of dopamine attached to it, but it's a good thing nonetheless. Well done.
 

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Yea I'm such an idiot that I will be a millionaire by the time I'm 35, but okay....

Pimp = someone who profits from prostitution. No I don't want to be that.
Ho = I'm not a girl, so I can't be that.
Trick = a girl who sells herself for sex. So I can't be that either.

I just want to have sex with girls from time-to-time and honestly don't care if I have to pay for it because I don't really give a **** about them enough to even pretend that I think they're worth very much. I think they have air in their brains and are completely delusional about their own worth and value to the world.

I plan to have a million bucks and give them NONE. Unless I want to pay $200 at a time for sex every now and then.
WOW!!!!!! JUST WOW!!!!!!!!

Frog you dense socially awkward borderline autistic retard....

I swear to Fvckin God I'm feeling super fvckin generous with my time right now. So I am gonna break this **** down for you and it will be the best education you ever get from the hood.

Now first I know it's hard but then ur brain on for a second think outside the box and look at what I am giving you. Think metaphorically but not really.


What does a Pimp do? He is an entrepreneur running his own stable with nothing but solid and i mean razor sharp game very few have the potential to ever do this which is why pimpin can't be taught all that passed down are guidelines. Ho's give their earned money to a pimp willingly ok picture that all the money she made on a certain shift she brings to her pimp and he spends it on her as he sees fit. Think of a lion's pride the big alpha is the pimp and all the lioneses out there doing all the hunting bring back the kill and the Pimp Lion gets his fill before any of them eat.

What do Ho's do? They work for their pimp they sacrifice their youth beauty sanity for him and he pays them what he thinks they deserve just like that.


AND FINALLY THE TRICK FUNNY YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT A TRICK IS CUZ YOU ACT LIKE ONE THE MOST... tricks are the John's the customers the ones that pay for *****



Now every single person in society is one of these three plain and simple

We can never be the pimps of our society because those are our government and upper echelons that control all the money and debt we are all their ho's they pimp us all.

But since ur so dense ima give u an example.

a CEO is a pimp
Any time you are working making money for your boss your a Ho plain and simple putting in 50 hours a week to make your boss rich your a Ho and that's just the reality


Now let me get to the Tricks they are worse than the Ho's cuz they put their time and money into being a trick means you are being sold dreams and you believe em E.X. paying a ho for some short lived love. Or corporations advertisets telling you need to buy (insert status symbol) Or you are not a real man.


This goes soo much deeper and im just scratching the surface. But my time is better spent elsewhere.

Frog you owe me some money for this.
 

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In the end, it turned out it was simply my photography skills that made her so hot.

Still, I feel sad in a way, because I just realized I don't love anyone anymore.

"Losing all the highs and lows, ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?"
- Glen Frey
 

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I saw my ex fiance out on the golf course yesterday while finishing up our club championship. One of the guys in our group didn't know I dated her and was talking about how hot she was until another player in the group told him I dated her for a few years.

He asked me why I would stop dating a young, hot educated chick like that. I told him I had self respect.

Truthfully, I said Hi to her when she came by, but I had literally no attraction to her.

It's a good thing when the switch has been flipped and you honestly don't care anymore.
 
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