I don't know who bumped this and how my thread became off topic.
I was thinking last few days, no matter how successful you are in life, now matter how many girls you slept with, no matter how rich you are, you are gonna die at the end.
You can be Martin Luther King, JF Kennedy, Bill Gates but you are GONNA DIE AT THE END. You cannot bring money to your graveyard and this is scaring the hell out of me.
I wanna live my life to its fullest and I dunno what I want from life yet. It seems like I feel happy just for short while getting some girls to flirt around with me, masturbate for a while, or get 100% on my test whatever it maybe. I am not happy in the long run right now.
I wanna control my mindset and try to never get angry but the more I want to control my mind, the more angry emotions come out of me.
I made several notes to myself what I want to do in my life and I thought: wait a minute, even if I achieve my long term goal, would I be happier than masturbating?
I am seriously confused at this stage, I dunno the hell I want to be happy