Straight to the point here:
I DO NOT FEEL WANTED in my relationship. Sexually that is. My ego is a bit tarnished,and I feel a deep seeded frustration with my relationship and its sex life.
There are plenty of things that lead up to my feeling this way. Ill keep it short:
1.Found a **** pic in her phone when she was showing me old pics. She didnt know it was there, and was there before we started dating. The **** was atleast 12 inches, bigger than mines. I asked if that was what she liked and of course she denied it. However, it still bothers me, based on her lack of interest in my ****. She has no **** pics of me in her phone. She doesnt even ask for them.
2. She is a very critical person towards the physical aesthetics of people. For instance, a homeless man pulled his **** out and peed in public. She looked at him and started laughing and spoke on how small it was. She never says anything about my body, so I often wonder what she REALLY thinks.
3. She never initiates sex unless I say that she shows no interest in me. Sex initiated from her is 4 out of 5 times because I say something about her output. When i am in the mood for sex and she senses it, she quickly changes the subject and starts to yap about random **** that kills the mood...
I have NEVER felt insecure about my sex game or my body in a relationship. My ego is a bit tarnished by all of this. I try my hardest not to show it, but I am starting to feel powerless and very beta. Again, this has never happened to me before, I am used to having my gf's worshipping my ****. This relationship is nothing like that. I am very much in love with the girl but I am at the ends of my wits.
Her behavior makes me feel like I dont **** her good enough, or my **** isnt sufficient enough to her. I cannot get the picture on her phone out of my head. She says my **** is average. She may as well have said that my **** is small. She said my **** feels perfect for her. However, her behavior and previous actions do not make me believe her. Should I deny her sex? Have i exposed myself to be an insecure beta to the point where none of this is reversible? Do i have a just reason for my thoughts? This ****ing sucks.
I DO NOT FEEL WANTED in my relationship. Sexually that is. My ego is a bit tarnished,and I feel a deep seeded frustration with my relationship and its sex life.
There are plenty of things that lead up to my feeling this way. Ill keep it short:
1.Found a **** pic in her phone when she was showing me old pics. She didnt know it was there, and was there before we started dating. The **** was atleast 12 inches, bigger than mines. I asked if that was what she liked and of course she denied it. However, it still bothers me, based on her lack of interest in my ****. She has no **** pics of me in her phone. She doesnt even ask for them.
2. She is a very critical person towards the physical aesthetics of people. For instance, a homeless man pulled his **** out and peed in public. She looked at him and started laughing and spoke on how small it was. She never says anything about my body, so I often wonder what she REALLY thinks.
3. She never initiates sex unless I say that she shows no interest in me. Sex initiated from her is 4 out of 5 times because I say something about her output. When i am in the mood for sex and she senses it, she quickly changes the subject and starts to yap about random **** that kills the mood...
I have NEVER felt insecure about my sex game or my body in a relationship. My ego is a bit tarnished by all of this. I try my hardest not to show it, but I am starting to feel powerless and very beta. Again, this has never happened to me before, I am used to having my gf's worshipping my ****. This relationship is nothing like that. I am very much in love with the girl but I am at the ends of my wits.
Her behavior makes me feel like I dont **** her good enough, or my **** isnt sufficient enough to her. I cannot get the picture on her phone out of my head. She says my **** is average. She may as well have said that my **** is small. She said my **** feels perfect for her. However, her behavior and previous actions do not make me believe her. Should I deny her sex? Have i exposed myself to be an insecure beta to the point where none of this is reversible? Do i have a just reason for my thoughts? This ****ing sucks.