You know, it struck me that I really need to document what I'm doing. I'm learningd as I go and I'm pretty sure it would be out benefit not only to myself to document it, but even more so so to do it where I can get feedback and share my experience of steadily getting better with women.
I've posted my basic starting story up a few times in different forms, so if you've seen it from me before, skip on down.
I'm a 21 year old college student, studying computer science. I was homeschooled for most of my life and only attended high school for two years. During my younger days, I was extremely shy and didn't know how to progress things. High school came up, midway through I had the balls to tell a girl I wanted a kiss in return for a favor. She agreed, I got my first kiss. I also got my first case of oneitis. She wasn't reciprocating that thought. Later on I ended up with a movie/makeout, a year later. Then, it was done. Had another case of oneitis which I blew thousands taking a girl out of the period of 2 years without even a kiss in hopes of her reciprocating. All she said to keep me going was "I don't want to be in a relationship now.. but I never know what I might want in the future". And when I asked about us.. "I don't want to date you right now.. but I never know what I'll want in the future". Uhh. She jumped on the first alpha she could, she just had a limited social circle when she knew me.
Spent a year at the frat, had a few ons's from sheer dint of luck, had a month long ugly girlfriend who I never should have touched, nor dated (skinny, but ugly face), and heck, she called it of with me! Then.. I met my BPD ex. She crossed the world to be with me. She's pretty, we met online. We had a lot of fun. We lived together for a year and a half, dated for two and a half total, and I dumped her 4 months back or so after she put me through 6 months of emotional hell from all her baggage.
I got into everything when I hit google.. read the game, now I've read near everything and folloe a dozen blogs. I'm an intellectual, I love the study and the theory of everything involved - be it interactions themselves or the theory behind long term strategies and behaviors.
Here I am now - I met another unplugged guy, he's 45, successful, and since then I've been active in applying and internalizing what I learned and crossing it with experience to improve and understand. He has a social circle he's brought me into, he helps cover drinks with me as a poor student, and has the place to go back to while I live with my parents. All in all, i lucked out and he's an awesome dude. With all that said, onto last night's field report.. sadly, not lay report.
I've posted my basic starting story up a few times in different forms, so if you've seen it from me before, skip on down.
I'm a 21 year old college student, studying computer science. I was homeschooled for most of my life and only attended high school for two years. During my younger days, I was extremely shy and didn't know how to progress things. High school came up, midway through I had the balls to tell a girl I wanted a kiss in return for a favor. She agreed, I got my first kiss. I also got my first case of oneitis. She wasn't reciprocating that thought. Later on I ended up with a movie/makeout, a year later. Then, it was done. Had another case of oneitis which I blew thousands taking a girl out of the period of 2 years without even a kiss in hopes of her reciprocating. All she said to keep me going was "I don't want to be in a relationship now.. but I never know what I might want in the future". And when I asked about us.. "I don't want to date you right now.. but I never know what I'll want in the future". Uhh. She jumped on the first alpha she could, she just had a limited social circle when she knew me.
Spent a year at the frat, had a few ons's from sheer dint of luck, had a month long ugly girlfriend who I never should have touched, nor dated (skinny, but ugly face), and heck, she called it of with me! Then.. I met my BPD ex. She crossed the world to be with me. She's pretty, we met online. We had a lot of fun. We lived together for a year and a half, dated for two and a half total, and I dumped her 4 months back or so after she put me through 6 months of emotional hell from all her baggage.
I got into everything when I hit google.. read the game, now I've read near everything and folloe a dozen blogs. I'm an intellectual, I love the study and the theory of everything involved - be it interactions themselves or the theory behind long term strategies and behaviors.
Here I am now - I met another unplugged guy, he's 45, successful, and since then I've been active in applying and internalizing what I learned and crossing it with experience to improve and understand. He has a social circle he's brought me into, he helps cover drinks with me as a poor student, and has the place to go back to while I live with my parents. All in all, i lucked out and he's an awesome dude. With all that said, onto last night's field report.. sadly, not lay report.
