This is a 'problem' that I'm developing. I remember close to a year ago, I could have women pushing for exclusivity or keep them around for a couple of months. Lately, they usually hang around for a couple of weeks, then realize I would just hit them up for sex.
For the past few months, I've been relentlessly pushing for sex on the first meet-up, regardless of the environment. Most of the time is is successful and then after the deed is done, I feel good again, as if nothing ever happened. I don't care about relationships - or notch count.
I think this thread has transformed into how I view women and sex in general. I have done plate spinning in the past, but now, it no longer entices me. Maybe it's that perspective I have that women will have sex with just about anyone, given the right circumstances. What I do is mold myself into those circumstances and close it. People I know and the new ones I meet tell me I have this personality that is very likeable. I'm venting on here because I've been in sales since I graduated high school and it's that very personality the opposing person wants.
What is personality?? What is MY personality?? I mold it to the other person's criteria of bro-ness? Does that make me beta as fvck to navigate my conversations to the other persons' liking - EVEN though it brings me success? At the end day, I think I am just a Decoy and manipulating people to believe what they want.
Tangent (venting) aside, I know there are older gentlemen that have dealt with my sexual and relational perspective on women. I don't know what my future holds so I have to ask those that have had my current mindset in the past. My question is:
Did that make you a genuinely happy person or was it the mindset you [wanted to] change?
Edited for drunk calling out Rollo. My Anus is still virgin =D
